Wednesday, January 30, 2008

infatuation

can't believe i was caught in this... i really hav to calm myself down n be still to listen to the inner voice inside me... some ppl might call it 'love' but all this is a bit too rushy...

gosh, being 20 this year really freaks me out... i need more wisdom n guidance to deal wif this... this teeny-weeny small fear inside me is developing more n more each day as my 20th birthday is nearing (is there a word like this???) anyway, to put it in a simple way, desperation might be the suitable word for it... must hav obtained this syndrome from my dearest roomate n single frens around me... ehem...

i shall not elaborate more on this... this is meant to be an emo post n it shall remain as one too...

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

Monday, January 28, 2008

Strength and hope

你是力量,
是我的力量,
无比的力量
触摸我心。

你是盼望,
是我的盼望,
无比的盼望
触摸我心。

在你深厚恩典里,
以你圣名的大能,
你兴起我,
你兴起我。

不息的爱,
比山更坚固,
比海洋更深,
触摸我心。

神啊,你的爱,
触及达到诸天,
你的是信实,
触及至天际。


最近反反复复得听了这首歌好多遍,被它的旋律所吸引,被它的歌词所感动。虽然是一首英文歌曲,却被它的华文歌词打从心底更感动到。

Life

ok... i admit it is kind of hard to write blog in chinese but nevertheless i shall persevere n try my best to improve...

juz a sudden thought on life...

as i grew older, i start to ponder on the purpose of life more n more... then there comes a time when u realise sth very important tat u miss out when u were young (gosh feel so old now)

The bravest juniors i ever met in my life... u guys are the best!!!

however, the worship team for the recent CA who brave through a car accident which fails to take any lives reminded me in one of their songs...

the lyrics on the screen says "i simply live"

i simply live...

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Find us faithful

We're pilgrims on the journey
Of the narrow road
And those who've gone before us line the way
Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary
Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses
Let us run the race not only for the prize
But as those who've gone before us
Let us leave to those behind us
The heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives

Chorus:
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone
And our children sift though all we've left behind
May the clues that they discover and the memories they uncover
Become the light that leads them to the road we each must find

刚从查经小组回来,感到非常非常地感动和感慨,我的学妹们真是一群既勇敢又诚恳的女生。
现在的我好像看着女儿们长大的妈妈,觉得把所有事情交给他们就放心了,所以就想起这首歌。
歌词说到我们现在所作所为,将会影响到我们的后代,希望学妹们会'find us faithful'
而以耶稣作为榜样,成为人人都看齐的对象,活出基督。从这些学妹们身上学到了许多道理,
从他们的见证里看得到主耶稣基督是他们生命中的唯一的依靠。虽然她们身上都背着许多的
不为人知的负担,但她们没有因此而对上帝为她们安排的未来而感到害怕,迷失自。她们
坚持着诚恳的一颗心,全心全意向着上帝,成为他所喜悦的儿女。感谢神把她们送来这里,
成为这里的一个为你发光的灯塔,照耀了所有人的前程。感谢主!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

安静

演唱: 约书亚乐团

藏我在 翅膀阴下
遮盖我 在祢大能手中

当大海翻腾波涛汹涌
我与祢展翅暴风上空
父祢仍做王在洪水中
我要安静知祢是神

我灵安息 在基督里
祢大能 使我安然信靠


我很喜欢这一首歌, 尤其在遇到问题时让我不感到压力.

该开始磨炼我的华语了

最近参与了教会的华语翻译事工,没办法,只好把藏在脑袋里几百年没用到的方块字一个一个的挖出来,搅尽了脑汁,只为了能把牧师的英文讲道翻译好,希望有一天上场时不会怯场。

终于写完了,花了不少时间,比写英文文章多出很多倍时间。可是好开心哟!!!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

random

"When we become believers, it's as if we have signed up to be part of God's Army, to be soldiers for Christ,"

Huckabee, 2008

am i being one?

Saturday, January 05, 2008

haiz....


got bitten... nuff said...

感谢主让我保佑我的身上的肉。也希望将来这件事不会再重复了。好恐怖哟!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

part sanguine n part choleric

did a personality test today wif auntie Michele this morning at auntie Laura's youth centre...

*drum rolls....

turns out tat i m half sanguine, half choleric, nadai melancholy n a little (juz a teeny weeny bit) phlegmatic...

to some of u out there, this might sound total alien so u better stop reading now, turn back n look at other more interesting blog post out there...

this is juz a reminder, or perhaps a warning to myself to the hazardous result if i continue to dwell comfortably in my so-called preferred personality...

As a sanguine, i hav the tendency to look good on the surface, trying to make up n giv excuses for the mistakes i made n maybe even preach a sermon base on my knowledge but not depending on the holy spirit. I can be exaggerating a lot n self-centred as well as saying sth but not doing it.

As a choleric, i can be bossy n always think tat i'm always right. I'm short-tempered n stubborn n always like the idea of being in control. I hav absolutely no patience when it came to dealing wif ppl i don like, which make me a time-bomb.

Through this test, i learn to examine myself n also to noe more about other personality. Most of all, it teaches me to love other ppl UNCONDITIONALLY, no matter which personality they hav, which makes it easier for me to make new frens. Jesus Himself is made up of all 4 personality. He had the story-telling ability like a sanguine, the leadership quality of a choleric, the planning mindset of a melancholy and the worker spirit like the phlegmatic.

It's stil a long way to go for me as i move an to another new year. I hope i can be more melancholy n phlegmatic n less of sanguine n choleric. Hope one day i can hav all 4 personality. Tat will be so cool. Tat way, i can make more frens then.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Things to thank for n things to look forward to

Grace. Thank God for Air-asia. By God’s grace, I had the chance to train my patience when the flights are delayed.

Grace. Thank God for the chance to further my studies overseas. It is actually by God’s grace that I was offered a scholarship though there are so many people around me who are much more worthy of it.

Grace. Thank God for the eye-opening experience. By God’s grace, I was exposed to things of this country that I feel I can make a difference to it.

Grace. Thank God for a good CF. By God’s grace, I was called to be a committee in my school’s underground CF which I learn so much through serving in the transportation and cell group ministry.

Grace. Thank God for NOT answering my prayers. By God’s grace, some of my prayers were not answered the way I wanted them to be. God always has His timing and His plan and timing for us is always the best.

Grace. Thank God for a good church. By God’s grace I was introduced to a good pastor in Sibu when I needed to find a church here. I really learn a lot and grow more mature spiritually in the church which I am now attending.

Grace. Thank God for being there during trials and difficulties. By God’s grace I was able to stand up once again when exam papers were handed down and when I was just so disappointed on myself for not performing well.

Grace. Thank God for great new friends. By God’s grace, He sends me friends that really encourage and show me the way of living out good Christian life. I can always consult them either in my studies or even scriptures I don’t quite understand.

Grace. Last but not least, thank God for the Grace that died on the cross for my sins.

Grace. Tat's all i wan to thank for 2007.

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Eileen called this morning n i was sooooo touched by it. I was so happy to learn tat she is having the time of her life at Ps. Ha's house right now. We chatted for a few minutes n she had to lower down her voice so tat she won't disturb Ps. Ha's sleep. During one of the conversation, she asked

"So wat are ur new year resolutions?"

Too shocked by her sudden question, i stammered n answer

"Ehh... maybe make more new frens..."

I was surprise by my own answer too. It juz came out of my mouth like it is the most natural answer one can think of. It is like asking ppl whether they are eating Kampua at the coffee shop every morning in Sibu. It is like asking ppl whether they are having their dinner when they see a family at a restaurant. (typical Sibu-an behavior)

"Xia kampua ah? Xia ba ba oh!" (Eating kampua is it? Eat more!)
"Xia man ah? Xia ba li giang oh!" (Having dinner is it? Must eat more!)


2 of the most common ,ways to start a conversation in Sibu. Although u see ppl eating kampua, its consider normal to ask whether he or she are having kampua or not. Strange as it may seem, its normal here.

Back to the topic. I guess my new year resolution is erm... make more new frens... alright then... its make more new frens then... the others... lazy to think... its not like i'll keep them anyway... better think of only 1 n then keep it...

So strangers out there!!! Here i come to make frens wif u all.....

huahuahuahua... *evil laugh