:) :) :)

feel like posting sth happy here...

i got reminded by a fren tat a blog is not a place where u juz dump all ur negative thoughts n be too emo... it doesn't show the true u... i must find a balance btw wat i blog, not too much of my negative ramblings...

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sorry din ask for permission to post this... ahaha... u guys r making someone smile here, so nvm lah... haha!

spread the love ppl!!!

Summer 09 - the sad part...

during summer of 09, i traveled a bit wif a bunch of wonderful ppl... juz wanted to share a bit of what i did last summer...

one of the places i went is Auschwitz, one of the biggest former concentration camp in Europe... it is situated in south of Poland, near the city of Krakow...

The gate that make the news not long ago... and the notorious motto on it...


No one can understand...

one of the gas chamber tat is not destroyed..

one of the 6 gas chambers in the subcamp of Auschwitz 2...
all of them were destroyed b4 the liberation as an attempt to cover up crimes committed...

Execution wall...

The main gate...

more updates...

i think the exam stress r coming... tat's y i keep updating... haha

ok... now i shall post about things tat i wan to do when i go back as one form of motivation for my exams :

1. EATTTTTTTTTT my heart out... eg, kampua, kompia, zhou cai hun ngan, satay, be ting yue, kui chap, bak kut teh, lo mee, sizzling mee in hot plate...
2. Go KL n SHOPPPPPPPPP til i drop, not forgetting redbox...
3. Go malacca to eat chicken rice balls n satay celup...
4. Treat my family a very nice dinner in a very nice restaurant...
5. Visit pak cik n family in Bangi...
6. Go singapore to visit uncle n auntie (of coz to shop as well...)
7. Buy new laptop...
8. Brush up my foochow...
9. Go for another longhouse trip...
10. Make a video about one idea tat has been owey been there but i never put effort to it...
11. Meeting old frens (if there's stil any left in sibu...)
12. Look forward to meet the new ppl in youth service...
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and the list goes on n on...

to be cont...

1 Peter3 : 15

But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,...

editted :
haha... i think i forgot to state tat this is the key verse for me personally for the year 2010... first heard it in dublin, when i visited my fren's church twice (yes! twice! so cannot run away from this verse) on a Sunday...

in other words, it means - always be ready to explain your hope to everyone who asks...

honestly, i don really hav an answer to it... how do i explain the hope i hav in me? usually i will juz tel ppl 'you juz hav to experience it yourself' but what if one day it requires me to explain it verbally, how wud i hav express it? hmmmm....

Stil thinking,
Pat

What would it cost me if i post this?

i think most ppl will be 'terasa' if i post this but trust me, this has nth to do wif u personally... it's juz my opinion, nth personal... if u take it personally then it's ur own risk... ahaha...

ok, i went to frankfurt on sat to fetch a bunch of juniors... then i stayed in radolfzell til sunday bcoz i wud like to spend some time wif them n shared some of my experience n also giv some advices n warnings of things to come so tat they can be mentally prepared... of coz there r other seniors as well n frankly speaking, different ppl hav different purposes to go there, the main one being - girls... haha

n of coz the highlight of the day being the placement results... actually i hav the least interest in it coz whoever my juniors are, i will treat them the same... but apparently for the others, they r quite keen to noe who are their direct juniors...

so when the results are out, i am actually surprised that some ppl wud be disappointed when they found out who their juniors are... i mean, does it make any difference who will be studying where? it is their own choice right? and wud u treat them differently if ur juniors were other ppl instead? this does not only apply to seniors who were there but also seniors who called afterwards asking - berapa cina, melayu or india?

come on lah...

we are all jpa scholars... we are so called, the future of malaysia... and i m actually surprise to find out tat ppl who asked the race of their juniors are actually ppl i tot who were broad minded... and one more thing tat bother me is tat they will blame other ppl because of the placement of juniors whereas it's all depending on their own choice n results...

once again, i wud like to emphasize tat this is NOT a personal attack on anyone, i juz wan to voice out my thoughts about this... finally i stil don understand the point of having how many cina, melayu n india juniors?

future leaders of Malaysia... wake up plz! Malaysia needs u...

snowing cats n dogs...

woke up really early this morning to catch the earliest train to frankfurt airport to fetch the new batch of juniors n welcome them to Germany... N i was so surprise to find myself in albstadt (a place known for it's many snow... ) haha... Well, this is juz the beginning of the real winter, ready for more snow now!

My utmost for His highest...

Some of my favourite quotes from day 6, 7 n 8 from the daily devotional book, my utmost for His highest by Oswald Chambers :

Worship is giving God the best that He has given you.

We have to pitch our tents where we shall always have quiet times with God, however noisy our times with the outside world may be.

When once we get intimate with Jesus, we are never lonely, we never need sympathy, we can pour out all the time without being pathetic.

Does my sacrifice live? He tells us to give things up for the sake of the only thing worth having - life with Himself.

It is of no value to God to give Him your life for death. He wants you to be a living sacrifice.

Soldier...

i dunno wat i'm getting myself into, but one thing i'm clear -

God, i'm so ready for wat You want me to do now...

it's time to kick some butts... muahahaha

hello 2010...

will not be blogging til next year coz i will be on the road til early jan... so wish u all a blessed new year now!

so the next few days i m going to evaluate myself on the past year n also to pray n uphold my 2010 into the hands of the Lord...

hmm... time for resolutions...

bye n til next year... haha

merry have a merry christmas, today...

when i m typing this, i saw the first human being outside in the cold...

christmas is a complete different experience this year... no christmas skit, no christmas service, no christmas longhouse visit, no christmas procession,n most importantly no christmas presents give-away in the flood... haha

failed attempt to walk on water...

juz a normal day tat i wake up nearly 12 noon, eat lunch, and receive christmas wishes thru fb n also a cute christmas song from miss L, miss I and mr K... thanks for the live performance for me!

and not forgetting the skype calls wif the family... a lot of things have happened during the past months n i believe it's going to bring us closer each time...

last but not least, let me present u wif a cute christmas song...

What would Christmas be like by Mia Rose

white christmas...

is not possible coz the snow is melting now... more likely to be a brown christmas...

anyway, i shud find myself sth to do or else my mind will be wandering away towards the negative side...

i look so care-free here in this pic, like mary poppins,

like i can juz fly off wif my umbrella back home...

Should I...

Should I say to you...
"Don't worry about me, everything's fine...
It might be when i really want to share my problems, i always thought that you might not be interested or you just ask the question 'how r u?' as a greeting...

i wish i can really tel someone bout wat i m going through now... anyone?

updates!

there so many means of updating myself tat i find myself updating my blog less n less... maybe soon this will be the only place where i wan to update sth long n whiny coz i m officially tweeting now! tweet tweet! haha...

emo christmas...

Can u feel the christmas spirit already from the pic? (don mind the bad weather though)

i wan...

my blue sky back!!! giv me sun!!!

the purple building on the right is where i stay now...

Keep praying!

Keep those prayers coming for zira, no matter where u are n who u are... Press on to believe!

PANIKKKKKK!!!!

i m facing fear right now... fear of failing exams, fear of speaking words, fear of hurting ppl unintentionally, fear of the future, to summarise it all, fear of the unknown... It all happens one day, when i was sitting in my classroom, staring at the lecturer as usual, n suddenly it hits me, november is slowly passing by n then it's christmas then come exams! Since then, my heart cont to beat so hard tat i can feel it in my throat... Still i went to join my church pastor n some frens for dinner in a nearby city tat night, had a great time just enjoying the fellowship, chatting n getting advices on starting anew wif my quiet time... I decided to ditch my old style of reading the bible word by word to a global understanding of the books to see the different characteristics of God n men... I oso challenge myself to spend more time in the MORNING for my quite time, which means go to bed earlier so as not to affect my at-least-7-hours-beauty-sleep! Hah! N today is the first day in which i ended up snoozing an extra 15 mins instead of the original plan of waking up earlier... Ah well, 4263157846592 days to go! Haha

updates!

went to the ICU for the first time in my life, and saw my friend lying unconsciously on the bed... like wat my mum did to every other patients tat she came across to, i cried out her name hoping tat if she hear ppl coming to visit her, she will at least be encouraged n feel happy... i wanted so much to talk to her and tel her to stay strong no matter wat, but paiseh lah coz her dad is around...

i believe in your complete healing zira! be strong ok?

flu

it is hard to admit tat oneself is sick... ok, i finally declare myself sick after the flu symptoms decided to stayed for days... and it is a season of sickness now...

juz wanna update u all about a senior who is very sick and hospitalized... her conditions are quite unstable, u see her walking to class then lying in bed the next minute... plz do remember her in your prayers...

Tips on how to pack for Germany...

since i m super-duper lazy to post sth significant bout myself, might as well i post sth useful for others...

it happens like this - i was soooooo bored in class today because i can't understand a thing... *will tel u bout tat in my other posts, if there's any... therefore, together wif my housemate aka classmate, Miss L, we decided to list down a few things which we, personally found it important and decided to share wif ppl out there who somehow read this accidentally or purposefully...

1. More food stuff than clothes... trust me, ur fashion sense will change during the first few months in Germany and soon enough, u will be asking urself, y do u brought them here in the first place - in other words, more reason to SHOP!!!)

2. Stationeries (in other words, everything u needed for studies, juz to name a few, eg calculator, pens, the 3 diff size of mechanical pencils from GMI etc etc...)

3. Rice cooker - this thing works magic...

4. Medicine for flu and sorethroat - needless to say, the first winter experience for most of us is not exactly the best one...

5. For the religious ppl (like me and miss L) do bring your holy book along because it is not easy to find one in the language u REALLY understand... for muslims, it is also advisable to bring along ur sejadah... n those who manage to settle in Offenburg will of course be provided wif one because i do happen to hav one by accident... haha

6. Accesories - if you do wear them... miss L mentioned tat it is damn expensive here (obviously i don really wear them)

7. I personally don recommend bringing any books because you only hav 25 kg to spare for food and clothes only...

8. If i could turn back the time now, all i will put in my luggage is local spices n seasonings, all sorts of maggi perencah i can find in Giant, bak kut teh, laksa sauce, kompia, kampua, ikan bilis, dried scallops, dried prawns... *my mouth juz watered thinking bout them...

Achtung! edited : (new things added)
9. Bring a LAN cable... ur first 3 weeks of internet connection lies in this thing...

10. Bring extra biometric photos... u might juz need it for emergency purposes...

anyone has anything to add? u r most welcome to!

:-]

This makes my day...

Imagine this scenario, it was a cold autumn afternoon and i was leaning on a bicycle stand wif miss L (not miss Loser) while waiting for the bus... suddenly an old man who was sitting inside the bus stop knocked on the glass divider which caught my attention...

immediately the thought that i might be scolded again zapped across my mind because of some bad experience wif old ppl in germany... he beckoned me to him and reluctantly i went up to him, pleading in my mind - please don scold me for leaning on the bicycle stand!

wif both fist reached out, he murmured sth which i cannot understand but nevertheless i think he was trying to ask me to imitate him so i did... i held out my fists and surprisingly, he gripped both my hands and start pulling me - i was having the shock of my life thinking tat he might do sth erm not nice to me... however, he was actually trying to stand up and was asking me to support him... and after a few seconds, he finally managed to stand up using me as a support and gav me the biggest and most sincere smile i've ever seen... he thanked me and in return i gav him my widest smile wif my eyes squinted to a line and wished him a very good day ahead...

so tat's wat i wanna share today and to me, it was such a great honour to be able to help the old man standing up... a great day indeed!

Talking to myself...

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found

The lost get found
-Britt Nicole-

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you


Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way

Bachelor-Abschlussarbeit / Praxissemester beim CERN / Genf‏

Trust me... i really really really wanted to update my blog but i find absolutely nth interesting apart from my east europe trip to blog bout and the main reason being lazy... hahas... but decided to share one email tat really caught my eye...

it wud be really really really cool if i can manage to secure a practical place there in the future... wow...

keeping my fingers crossed!

missing everyone

sitting in front of the laptop browsing at ppl's fb profile... yup, tat's wat i've been doing for the past hour in another city in my fren's room and realising that so many things happen when i'm not really around and busy travelling around east europe...

gosh i miss those ppl! esp those from CA last time... we'd gone thru so much together, so much fun, laughter, tears... and slowly i m beginning to lose contact wif them, one by one... sooner or later, we will turn out to be complete strangers to each other and i don wan tat to happen...

it is so hard to keep in touch wif ppl if u don take the extra effort and time to do it... and esp in a new environment where ur life seems to be always occupied by sth, then the priority of 'frens' u r willing to invest ur time on tends to be neglected...

to let go or not to let go... sigh

Przez żołądek do serca

i m off again to the country which is using the language above...

see ya!

Euro road trip...

got a car, pack some clothes and off i go to random places wif my aunt...

ciao!

Plans...

i hate making plans...
i can't make plans...

because my plans never work out!!!!

ok.. this is juz a filler post in case u din realise...

i dunno wat to update!!!??? anyone interested in anything at all?

Tanah Air

juz watch a short video about Malaysia from 15Malaysia and wud like to wish all Malaysians..

"Salam Kemerdekaan!!!"

from a proud Malaysian

Is your Christian walk just a talk?

Meet Lille, a girl whom i recently befriended in frankfurt... She shares of a life of amazing faith, moving bravely away from her hometown to frankfurt just because of her calling... although she doesn't hav a job yet but she continue to trust tat God will provide... thank you for your faithfulness, it really encourages me...

and many thanks to all the ppl whom i've stayed wif for one week, thanks for all the unending support you guys showed, eg to help me wif the EE exam by practicing wif me...

-updates-

better update this blog before it turns sour... haha...

juz came back from 2 weeks of german language course and will be heading to frankfurt again for the whole of next week... so don be surprise if u keep seeing the post for another dunno-how-many-years again...

ciao!

Liebe...

Liebe ist geduldig und freundlich,
Sie ist nicht verbissen, sie prahlt nicht
und schaut nicht auf andere herab.
Liebe verletzt nicht den Anstand
und sucht nicht den eigenen Vorteil,
sie lässt sich nicht reizen,
sie rechnet das Böse nicht zu,
sie freut sich nicht über die Ungerechtigkeit,
sie freut sich aber an der Wahrheit.
Sie erträgt alles, sie glaubt alles, sie hofft alles, sie duldet alles.
Die Liebe hört niemals auf.


Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.


I saw the german version of 1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8 at the back of a wedding invitation and could not recall the english version of it. So i look up for it on the internet and was quite surprise to see the differences between this 2 usage of the language. I've posted both english and german verses here so u can see the difference (if n only if u can understand both, if not, sorry lah... haha)

Summary

i noe i sound like a 100-year-old here but i must say this... time really flies... i've juz finish the last paper today and it is officially summer holidays for me... therefore, it is time i look back at the first 6 months of my life here in germany n summarise it in a couple of words...

life has been great here, enjoying while suffering at the same time... gone thru ups n downs n i can say i've given my best in everything tat i do, well, not everything... one thing tat i really really really regretted is not being able to socialise wif the locals well, esp wif housemates n classmates... when i first arrived, there's always this gang-ho-ness of telling the world tat ' i can conquer germany!!!!' or 'i will blend in among germans n try not to form a kampung malaysia'... truth is, it is not at all tat easy... first day in class, i tried to step out of my comfort zone n approach someone, a girl sitting next to me n ta-dah, she's the only fren i got for the whole semester... ok, there's this other girl and a fren's fren, so tat makes altogether 3 frens out of 60 student in my class... haih... and even worse, i juz turn down a classmate's invitation to go for a end-of-exam-celebration-party, the last chance in this semester to get to noe other ppl from my class... haih... someone juz throw me a 'loser' hat n i shall gladly wear it now...

studies - so far so good... got nearly all my results already, passed all of them and still waiting for the other 2, shud be able to pass but i hope i can score...

spritually, inner-man or in my case, inner-woman growing stronger but outside-community wise, not so... the original 'gang-ho-ness' of willing to travel so far to church is slowly not sustainable and finding myself slowly not able to accept the church concept here... i miss the big church community back in Malaysia where a lot ppl gather in one place n singing praises out loud...

tat's all folks!

what happen during exam time... part 2

another thing bout exam time is when u sit in one postion for a very long time, u will notice the different changes of the sky, day in day out... behold the power of Creation!








aren't they beautiful? this is wat happen when ur study table is juz beside a humongous window n besides feel like jumping down from the window itself, u get to see beautiful sunset everyday!

what happen during exam time... part 1

let the pics tel u...

innocent looking cup eh...

closer :


closer...

yikesss!!!

by the time i finish drinking the whole cup of coffee, i found this... ewwwww

Help! i'm lost!

I will lift up my eyes to the hills -
From where comes my help?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.

Been there, done that...

http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Monday/Columns/2588018/Article/index_html

identity crisis...

did the personality test again on sunday n found out tat i hav a problem wif my identity... haha... i wonder whether i've really changed or all this while i've been limitting myself to a certain behavior... anyway, tat's not the main point...

this is。。。

i nearly burn down my kitchen weh! but my housemate was there to save the day and his "Kein Problem!" (no big deal) really made my day... shall refrain myself from cooking... -_-

AYA awards is back! plz do check it out here... i was there for the last 2 awards, first time as a spectator n the second time as a volunteer... i was so inspired after the awards n i hope u can experience it the power of a true story too!

wat? this guy was in sibu b4??

how come no one tel me one?

星光三班李伯恩诗巫弹唱会歌迷

Invisible...

yo, finally got myself a new keyboard after so many days of procrastinating, i manage to drag myself to Media Markt and the best thing about Media Markt is tat when u buy anything there n u wanted a refund, they giv u back immediately, no question asked... how cool is tat? (but-maybe-they-see-me-korean-auntie-face-who-dunno-how-to-speak-german)

back to the topic, after a whole semester to unintentional attempt to stay invisible in class, i'm actually shock to see how fast time zoomed pass me n suddenly it's nearly the end of my first uni semester here in Hochschule Offenburg... meaning fast approaching the end-of-sem-exams too... been studying hard this time, hoping to at least pass wif slightly better results than other ppl... and during this period of pre-exam time, i've seen some really weird things going on in class... to cut the story short, we Malaysians are seriously trained to go for exam whereas germans, they don't... one really interesting thing is tat one of my classmate manage to get hold of some leaked questions online n he showed it to the lecturer... needless to say, the lecturer throw a huge tantrum and threatened to have 80 exam questions tat need to be finished in 90 minutes... after hearing tat, i feel like throwing him into the river n feed the poor fishes... but then again, i really prefer to hav objective question instead of subjective, so somehow one way or another, it is a blessing in disguise... hopefully...

late sunset...

view from my window...

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insights from travelling...

i've been travelling a lot here in germany, to church, to meet up wif frens, to ikea, to outlet cities, to visit ppl and the means of transport i use the most is train... and one thing in common i shared wif other train travelers is tat we all carry bags or even luggages... before we travel, we need to make sure we hav everything, ipod, books, water bottle, wallet, money, camera, hand n face lotion, lipbalm, ricola, handphone, jacket, chocolates and anything we could think of in our bags... we felt like the more stuff we bring, the bigger the bag, the more we r prepared for anything... isn't life like this too? we take up things n responsibilities in our daily walk and as time goes by, they become a burden as every step we take n every station we stop by to change to a new train... we think we r prepared, but the fact is the our bags are getting heavier on our way to our destination... then i realise, i m actually on board a train where i don need any baggages, faith is enough to sustain me...

are you ready to board this train?

More beautiful you by Jonny Diaz

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

nice n meaningful song... speaks to most ppl at our age, esp me...

Beautifully imperfect...

Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?

imperfect... that's wat we all are... and it really cost a lot to realise and to admit it... however, isn't all these make who we are? yes, although we are all imperfects, we are beautifully imperfect in God's eyes... of course we must strive to be perfect, but then again, who is?


this is a 2 in 1 post... the emo n not so emo post... the upper n bottom post...



ok, i hate to admit it...
i'm bored...

the girl from the opposite room, the one to whom i only speak is away for holiday, the one i m not talking to, is around too for whatever reasons he is not staying in his comfortable house... y is he still around?????!!!!!! i seiously do not noe...

spend 3 hours on one technische mechanik question... *bravo... claps claps... pat myself on the back... in the end still hav to refer to the answer online... *another round of applause... thank you thank you... curtsied and walk away...

enuice ding, eve aun, cat chan n qiao hui!!!! faster come loh....

introducing my new bf...

plz don mind the sun-burned face, juz came back from a bike trip n there's no whitening product in this country...

can't wait to open it...

ta-dah!!!

plz can anyone teach me some songs?

Psalm 121

Ich hebe meine Augen auf zu den Bergen, von welchen mir Hilfe kommt.

Meine Hilfe kommt vom Herrn, der Himmel und Erde gemacht hat.
Er wird deinen Fuß nicht gleiten lassen; und der dich behütet, schläft nicht.
Siehe, der Hüter Israels schläft noch schlummert nicht.
Der Herr behütet dich; der Herr ist dein Schatten über deiner rechten Hand,
daß dich des Tages die Sonne nicht steche, noch der Mond des Nachts.
Der Herr behüte dich vor allem Übel; er behüte deine Seele!
Der Herr behüte deinen Ausgang und Eingang von nun an bis in Ewigkeit!

i realise one thing important, that all this while i tot i was running away from my problems, in fact, i was running away from God...

it's time to turn around, don't stop, and run again... this time at the right direction! :)

Das Festival 2009

Das Festival 2009
(THE FESTIVAL 2009)

29.Mai -1.Juni 2009
(29 May - 1 June 2009)

HOFFNUNG Deutschland (Hope Germany)

4 TAGE HUMORVOLLE LEBENSPLANUNG MIT JESUS HÖCHSTPERSÖNLICH –

4 DAYS OF HUMOUROUS LIFEPLANNING WITH JESUS THE MOST HIGH

DIE IDEEN, (THE IDEA)
DER LEBENSSTIL, (THE LIFESTYLE)
DIE KONSEQUENZEN: (THE CONSEQUENCES)

ZULETZT
LACHEN

LAUGH THE LAST ( LAUGH THE BEST)

erm...

kinda lazy to blog nowadays, don get me wrong, i m not busy, somehow time juz flies like wind... whoooooosh...

can't wait for church camp tmr, to be frank, i hav issues wif myself, issues wif understanding myself or other ppl... i hav issues understanding ppl who do things they noe they shud not do but yet they still do it... i cannot understand them nor put myself in their shoes... i don understand myself too, like y is it a problem to me? y do i hav to go n involve myself in other ppl's matter?

well, maybe it is juz the nature part of me for being so kaypoh (busybody)...

hope i can hav things sort out soon... or else i will be dwelling in this for some more time...

random

introducing....

my tv...

occationally we will turn it on,
when the housemate is not around (as loud as it can be!),
when we felt that we lack of german listening skill (some german soap opera where real german are being spoken instead of being dubbed),
when we miss listening to english so much (oweys n forever mtv, bbc n cnn),
when we feel like annoying the housemate. ^_^

aaaand baked chicken wings, taste so much like mum's...

my first narcissism post

well folks, after i-forgot-how-many-months of persistance n endurance, i failed miserably n decided once again, i shall cut short my hair... i cannot stand the endless eye-piercing strands that covers my eyes all the time... there you go, da fringe is back... ladies n gentlement...

updates

guess it is time for updates...

i can't believe one year have passed since a-levels last year... it seems like yesterday when my housemate n i climbed over the fence in the middle of the night in akasia just to watch euro cup matches at mcd in shah alam during tat time... and right now i m in germany, struggling everyday to overcome all sorts of barriers (language, food, socialising etc..) and getting use to new things here (cycling/driving on the right side of the road etc)

now i've reach the phase where everyday is a routine, waking up in the morning, go to class, come back, eat lunch, skype with frens n family, ebaying, watch mtv (coz it's the only thing i understand) dinner, surf internet, read bible, turn off lights n sleep from monday to thursday, then friday, saturday n sunday i spend most of my time lepak at senior's place, do some random travelling wif my housemate, church n the cycle repeat itself... i guess this might be the so call 'settling down' which i was hoping to be since day one... and it is normal to me that everytime i go out, i hear ppl speaking german n realise i , too, speak german, eg ordering food, buying chicken n beef from the turkey shop, talking to classmate (singular) all this suddenly seems so - normal...

ok, enough of this, juz post this for the sake of updating... will see wat i shall post next time!

Offenburgers...

Liebe XXXXXXXXXXX,

schönen Dank für Ihre Anmeldung. Der späte Zeitpunkt ist kein Problem! Wir haben nun genug Teilnehmer und werden den Kurs sicher durchführen. Über die Details wegen der Kaution etc. informiere ich Sie demnächst per Mail.

Es freut mich, dass sich alle Studierenden von Offenburg für den Kurs angemeldet haben. Das ist bei keiner anderen FH der Fall. Die Offenburger sind halt besonders engagiert....

Liebe Grüße,

X. XXXXX


haha... names are not shown to protect the pricacy of the ppl involved...

why am i second?

because there's someone in my life who is first...

are you second? i know i am second!

nice

gosh i miss CA after reading the latest post in CA new blog... i read it like over 10 times since this morning n i find new things to miss everytime i finish reading... i can totally understand u seniors! haha... and to be honest, i don feel sad at all during my farewell (who can feel sad in a CA meeting??) but the feeling seeps in before and AFTER it... haha... so be prepare!

hiking at blackforest...

the most beautiful place and i felt as if i were in paradise, the different greens of the trees were juz so beautiful, indicating tat new life begins from now onwards... it was raining the whole day on friday n saturday n i nearly pull out of the hike for the fear of getting sick... it doesn't help when i woke up on sunday morning only to find out tat it was fogging outside, which was quite thick, but i went anyway... the trip was organized by the senior service of my uni and it is open to all international students, the group was really big, there were 30 international students from all over the world n 20 ppl from senior service... this is the first time i went hiking in germany and together wif so many ppl... we took a train and literally pack the whole train up... it was quite interesting to hear so many languages spoken at one time and in a train... ppl juz automatically strike a conversation like it is so normal, unlike in ehem class coughs wif hem germans... haha... and i was even amazed when i met a former malaysian student who works wif the uni branch now... we went like "malaysia!!!" n start talking bullet-train-malaysian-english... we also manage to converse in german wif the other member of senior services, although most of them were kind enough to explain more detailed stuff in english... i learn a lot about plants from them, i learn how to differentciate different fruit tress by the colour of the flowers and also by the shape of the tree bark... since coming to germany, i've grown a passion for plants here, esp since it's spring now n it is juz so inspring to see so many colours lighting the whole place up... we also manage to make friends wif other international students and to be able to understand jokes that they make is simply wonderful... for the first time i can actually join in the joke no matter how lame they are and laugh my head off...

now you might be wondering y this post is all words til now... n u might think that they might be photos posted up real soon... no, u r wrong!!!

because being a smarty pant *as always, i forgot to bring my camera!!!!!!!!!!!! n to make things worse, i even forgot to bring my handphone... seriously i feel like jumping down to every river tat i pass by n freeze myself to death or jump down from every slope tat i climb or knock my head agains all the beautiful trees... haih...

France...

the place which i've heard so much of but never actually been there and the place i nearly applied to instead of germany... well, from my point of view, i do think tat language is not a barrier there, so much for wat ppl say bout France, english actually can be accepted if u got the oriental looks... haha... here are some pics of Strasbourg, the capital of Europen Union... the architecture is totally mind blowing

p/s : it is juz 30 mins away from Offenburg...

New PM n new ministry...

Energy, green technology and water...

flippo, there's future for environmentalists in Malaysia eh... jom join politics! haha

well, changes are good... keeping my finger crossed for malaysia!

This is love...

Easter holiday is just around the corner and easter is quite a big thing in Germany because of the religious background of this country but i guess many ppl dunno the reason behind easter anymore... now it's all about the bunnies n chocolates n colourful eggs...

although i might not be religious on the outside and i do not fast during lent, one thing i know... that thousands of years ago, love came n conquer sin, tat all who believe shall not perish n live eternally...

click here if u r wan to know wat easter means to me...

anyway, one question here... is easter meant to be celebrated? got ppl die wat... can celebrate meh? haha... typical chinese thinking...

it's a brand new day

a fren once wrote

"all these hardships on earth are only going to make us treasure heaven more"

it encourage me so much tat i decide to share it here wif u all... thanks fren! for ur weekly encouragements, really learn a lot from u... and all ur experiences also reminded me tat i m not alone, i hav known ppl who are going thru the same thing, worse even but if they can make it thru, sure can i...

Thank you!

happy or not happy?

"eh, u look very happy there hoh?" (there as in Germany lah)

tat is a question i found really hard to answer sometimes when ppl keep asking me over n over again... the problem is, it is really hard to see my unhappiness wif all the facebook pics circulating around... even during cny, when there r relatives visiting my house, my siblings will automatically click onto my facebook profile n show them my pics...(i famous mah, so ppl will ask about me naturally... ahaha) and of course, all the pics will depict happiness in a more visual way, which is more impacting... usually, the reaction wud be like "wah, so fun there, visit mercedes benz museum, go munich drink beer n eat pork leg, wah so nice..." of couse it wud be nice when u were treated like kings (queens) with all ur needs being taken care of... but that is only the first month, i repeat FIRST month ONLY in germany, then slowly n gradually, the excitement fades n confusion starts to seep in...

i wud be really n truly happy if -
i can understand whatever my lecturer taught in class
my lecturer can understand the questions that i try to ask in class
my classmates start talking to me
i dare to step out of my comfort zone
i manage to overcome the fear of both my german guy housemates
i can express myself freely without worrying bout vocabs n grammar mistakes
my allowance comes in april instead of may

those, u can't see in my facebook pics...

p/s : i lost count of how many times i edited this post... yer... so many grammar mistakes... it is bad enough wif my german, now my english... sigh