haih... speechless

Sorry if i hav to say this... and the most sincere apologies to my frens who will be reading this post, i don intend to be racist or anything, plz don think beyond wat ur brains can sustain... this is juz a pure, non-intention blog to express my disappointment once again towards some Homo sapiens who is now ruling our country... btw, i'm proud to be Malaysian... juz to confirm my own status here... but here is what i wan to say...

"...It's ironic that in a majority Muslim country such as Malaysia, it is the Muslims who have the LEAST freedom."

from here

haih...

...

i always thought i will go to africa,
but i can't even go to pantu.
when is my turn?
i am ready...
sent me!!!

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GO CHECK IT OUT NOW!!!

JUST CLICK ANYWHERE YOU WANT!!!

ALIVE AND KICKING!!!

muahahaha.... after a week or tormenting exams which particularly took half my life away... i m officially back now... sometimes i really don't like the education system of Malaysia where everyone dig into their books and study and memorise their hearts out for the exams... i mean wat's wif the memorising thing... u are suppose to understand how things work, not memorise them!!! (excuse for ppl wif short term memory - tat's me) now praying fervently everything tat i wrote will be pleasing to the examiner's eyes coz they oweys and only look out for KEYwords (tat's another thing tat i dislike once again - keywords, stupid excuse for the lecturers to deny the effort the students put it so tat none of the question is blank)

yesterday was kind of unexpected to me - i watch the same movie for the second time for the first time of my life. confusing. let me explain again. i watch spiderman 3 in sibu before and yesterday i watch it in klang again. And watching 2 exact movies in the cinema doesn't really suits me but i did tat for the first time in my life. Honestly, i really don like the movie the first time i saw it - everything seems so wonderfully and perfectly planned. Flint was so coincidently at the particle physics lab when the experiment was conducted (and he is the killer of uncle ben some more oh) *roll eyes* and then ngam ngam ho tat eddie was at the church when the spiderman decided to get rid of the evil thing inside him. duh... everything jus wonderfully fixed into the storyline. However, having watching it for the second time, i become more observant to the things apart from the things tat i mention juz now, i realise y the producer use black colour in the beginning of the movie, y harry say tat het will die for his friends and it really hits me. I learn a lot from the movie, the importance of friendship and we shud not treat frens the way we wanted. I started to think of the frens around me, from sibu, from CA, from ALG, from church, from former schools and i realised tat i have been so blessed all these years bcoz God decided to put some ppl to influence me and to be influedced by me around me. Being wif frens and able to talk to frens suddenly become so precious to me, God opened my eyes thru this movie and i started to appreciate frens rather than taking them for granted. Now i m really getting more sentimental about eileen's and gloria's leaving for USA. The ppl here in INTEC, esp the sibu gang, started counting the days of their departure, starting to count every last time they do sth wif them together ( like last time eating wif them in cemara, last time seeing them studying calculus in their hostel room, last time seeing them in intec..) haih... they come and they go... frens...

appreciate every single living being beside u... whether u like them or not... God stil put someone beside u for a purpose...

Below is a german essay which i wrote months ago, ok lah say me perasan but i AM quite proud of it no matter how many grammar mistakes that i made throughout... its basically red all over the paper... haha

Was wäre, wenn es keine Krankheiten und keinen Tod gäbe? (What happen when they are no illness and death?)

Wenn es keine Krankheiten und Tod auf dieser Welt gäbe, würde diese Welt auch mit Leuten überfüllt. Eine neue Bezeichung, `die menschliche Verschmutzung´ käme heraus, weil diese Welt also mit Leuten überbevölkert wäre. Ich würde vom Leben auf dieser Weld ermüden aber könnte nicht sterben, weil es keinen Tod auf dieser Welt gäb. Wenn diese Situation bestehen bleibt, müssen Leute das Wissen benutzen, dieses Problem zu lösen. Zum Beispiel zu andere Planeten abwandern, damit die Welt nicht überbevölkert ist. Wenn sie auf anderen Planeten wären, müssten sie mit den anderen Lebewesen auf diesem Planeten wieder konkurrieren, um dort zu überleben. Außerdem gäbe es auch keinen Arzt, Chirurg und Krankenswestern auf dieser Welt, weil sie nicht dringend benötig sind. Zusammenfassend kann man sagen, wenn es keine Krankheiten und keinen Tod auf dieser Welt gäbe, wäre dieser Platz nicht ein guter Platz zum wohnen, weile es nicht genügend Platz gäbe, um jedes Leben wesen auf dieser Welt zu tragen. Wenn dieses geschäne wären die Konsequenzen hard zu ertragen.

this is the results of studying too much german... haih...

Lead me to the Cross....

Waking up at 6 a.m on a SUNDAY morning was never really my cup of tea... but i guess the stress is coming again, the fear for the finals which will be held in one weeks time, all the books standing untouched in front of me... believe me, i was never like this before, last minutes study is always my first resort, now it has become my last... but i decided to start off my day by reading ppl blogs and *ahem comments and found out tat they really lighten up my day... i read amir's and cannot stop laughing after seeing tat he actually post my sms to him... and yes ppl, tat was MY sms to him to check whether he is stil alive... and comments on ej's and found out a horrendous truth, six foot tall a***, who attends CA and is a drummer is after eve!!!! haha... must be funny if they are really together... and kedekut's post never fail to amaze me again and again... he is the most observative guy i've known of... eileen's comments really encourage me... gloria's as usual is fun and refreshing... ah fong, an old fren of mine who is constantly being 'persecuted' by her parents by not letting her go to church and mix with christian friends, is stil standing strong her faith and it was amazing to see how God works in her life despite all the difficulties she face... keep it up girl, u can do it!!! joash's stories... erhm... a bit long and sometimes i skip a few part or reserve it for another time coz really no ending mah, y read stories wif no ending... dorothy's post makes me homesick again... joanne's was boring coz i did nearly everything wif her so i basically know what she did the whole day inculding the perfume and blah blah blah... (Joanne : Pat, u r so dead when i go to church wif u later....) haha... don care, this is my blog, ni guan wo, next time u write sth diff loh, sth which i dunno... hehe... king ung's and sin wui's as usual is about their life overseas which also can be reference when i go overseas someday... (hoping and praying everyday for it) jonathan's blog was enlivening as well, sort of remind me of the one and only Anchor which we can hold on to in our lives... sihan's remind me of my studies and now i shall go back to my german mind boggling grammar revision...

a good day to start off by reading ppl's blog... try to do this next time when u feel down... i guess God really works in everyone's life, He even uses little little insignificant things to cheer us up... For those who blog out there, thanz for blogging!!!! U guys really make my day....

Those reading this : "GOD BLESS!!! until the blessings overflow and u in turn bless others..."

Yeah... finally i know how to upload videos to youtube... hehe

Below are 2 videos for CA...

watch American Idol - Idols give back yesterday and was very touched by it... I can sense God speaking to me, remind and confirm me once again of wat He has install for me in the future and in my life... i saw ppl suffering all over the world, poverty, aids, malaria, illiteracy, women abuse, and more uncountable worldly issues....

So guys,
Join me in fighting poverty!
I've just signed the ONE Declaration committing myself to help fight the emergency of global AIDS and extreme poverty.

I'm asking you to make that commitment, too, by adding your voice.

I think your name belongs on that declaration, too. You can put it there by visiting:

www.one.org

or simply click on the pic above...

ONE is a new effort by Americans to rally Americans - one by one. So far, over two million have signed the declaration in support of a historic pact for compassion and justice to help the poorest people of the world.

Together as ONE we can make a difference!

A night at the airport...

having not slept for the past 24 hours because of some unintelligent plans that i've made to save up a mere RM50 when i could just lied down comfortably on my bed and dozed off wif a sweet dream, i could actually feel my head now... i felt like there's liquid in my head before this, whenever i walk i could feel the liquid in my head colliding wif my skull...(squish squish) yesterday was the most nonsensical day i had... i went to the airport at 10 pm when my flight is suppose to be on 7am, really had to say sorry and thank you to joanne for being there wif me throughout the whole 10 hours there... there's so much to experience staying one night at the LCCT, we got chase out of the terminal building coz there's some fogging going on and then we had to sleep on the harder-than-cement benches which i could not by any chance sleep even though i was as sleepy as a kolar bear... and once again many thanks to king ung, whom by the way, is now in germany, entertaining our (joanne and me) never ending grumbling and whining over the msn... i could feel that he's been slightly annoyed by our constant complaints and moanings but nontheless he helped us make it through the boringest night... (me and joanne actually take turns using the msn so imagine how traumatise he is to entertain 2 extreme kaypoh's ranting... haha)

what an experience right???? although tiring, but somehow i kind of enjoy it... i mean i never done this in my life and now the chance have come and next time i can tel ppl who wan to do this "DON'T EVER TRY TO STAY OVERNIGHT AT THE AIRPORT WHEN THERE'S FOGGING" Everything was closed including the so called "24-hours" Mcd... i was as hungry as a cow btw and gulped down one bubur Mcd as soon as it opened again at 4 am... however in the end--> it all went inside the toilet ball... this time my airsickness starts to go way out of hand... i had airsick even b4 i board the plane, i vomitted about 3 times and really hate the sourness in my mouth which i think i can stil feel it now... ewwww....

tat's all for now... continue on for the second post today!!!

I never realise how important my family is to me until now... it took me 19 years to be conscious of the fact that family is the most important relationship in my life... too late huh, some will think... but i'm glad i finally know it beofore i left for another place ... i can't wait to go back and have kampua as lunch and dinner, kompia as breakfast, tea-break and supper... i can't wait to converse in foochow wif my grandpa and aunties and uncles and the customers that come to my grandpa shop either to criticize the government or to buy groceries ... i can't wait to go back to Wesley and meet all my church frens there... i can't wait to laugh loudly at the lousy and cold jokes tat my siblings made at ppl tat i know... i can't wait to meet all my primary, secondary, tuiton sch frens... can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait.......

MUAHAHAHAHA... I WILL BE GOING BACK TO SIBU NEXT WEEK NO MATTER WHAT!!! I AM GOING TO GET AN MC IF I DON'T MANAGE TO ASK FOR PERMISSION TO GO BACK!!! i'll make sure i get sick next week... choi choi choi... **touch wood

huh!!!!!! when did i start to write emo entries like eunice... haha... sorry but no offence...
back to myself now....

its only 3 hours prior to the last CA of this sem... its actually a farewell CA to the american programme students and alm seniors... so glad tat today afternoon class got canceled so that i can work on the slide show presentation that i'll be displayed later as a surprise for them... hope none of them are reading this now... otherwise it won't be a surprise anymore... felt really sad that some of my very very best frens in intec are leaving soon... hope they enjoy the time that CA has install for them for tonight... and God bless them wherever they go coz its not the end of their life journey but its only the beginning.....

this post is specially dedicated to JOANNE TIONG JIA WEN... MY LONG LONG LONG FREN SINCE KINDERGARTEN

now in joanne's room onlining... she is now in a not-very-good mood... this is one of the fewest among fewest time tat she got depression... haha... find out more here... cannot imagine tat right??? but this is a scholar way's of life... its not easy being one - u had to have a high mentality and handle stress well... but anyway,

'Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Philippians 4:4-5/NIV

This is the verse tat really lighten her up which she saw here... it happens to be the verse of the day of tat site... wow!!!

and THIS is the verse tat we hear from a very powerful sermon on Sunday itself... it is really a blessing in disguise... God works in every little way to cheer us up and remind us always that He is always with us no matter what we are going through now...

So ppl... rejoice in the LORD now... coz the JOY of the lord is our strength...

finally finish moral test today... and since i had 2 hours of free time until my next class, this shall be one of the things that help me pass the time in the com lab... it has been quite sometime since i actually sit down to surf the net without any purpose, i kinda miss the time i use to surf the internet without any motive at all and juz go surfing the net for the sake of surfing, if u noe wat i mean... not those surf-the-net-coz-i've-got-assignment-and-i-need-information kind of surfing... this is juz so good... watch some news on sinchew and find out bout Lina Joy and Yeshua Jamaluddin... not tat i did not heard of them b4 but its the first time i can find time googling their name and find out more bout them but the more i look into it, the more i learn about my own country... sad to say i've learn too much tat i m actually quite dissappointed... but anyway, english lesson up next and i had to chow now... bye

We are facing unknown virus attack recently. Due to that reason you are facing slow internet connectivity.

We are trying our best to stop this activity. We would like to apologies for the unreasonable cause.

We also would like to advice student PC/Laptop to update their Antivirus/Spyware Removal tools frequently. If you face performance slowness at your PC/Laptop even you are not connected to internet, please get some advice from us. We will supply some reasonably tools for you to solve the problem.

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Please help us to make a safe/clean environment to surf. Therefore your cooperation is highly appreciated.

Thank you.

Gewireless Management.

Guess i don't have to tel u wat happen to my internet connection this few days... all my money... haih....

updates....

sorry for the lack of updates this few weeks... had been quite busy wif CA because we're having 2 CAs in 2 consecutive weeks... maybe its the first in CA history but hey anyway, i hav great joy serving and by the way... Happy Good Friday and Happy Easter to all!!!

it has been yet another 2 hectic weeks despite some spiritual attacks and stuff... everytime there's a CA, there's me getting attacked again and again, sometimes i may feel it but sometimes i was too ignorant... last week i accidentally burned my hand during chemistry lab... it goes like this... i was chatting happily wif my fren when suddenly my hand tend to find a place to rest on and have a break and there's this tripod stand juz nearby so my palm juz rest on it relaxingly and unknowingly but 5 seconds later i felt my right palm burning and ta-dah... i can't write and do anything wif my right hand for 2 days... (sorry but i tend to write loooooooooooonnnnnnnngggggg sentences) the tripod stand is actually sizzling hot after 30 minutes of non-stop heating of some forgot-wat's-the-name chemical... so during tat time u can actually see my palm having a triangle shape bruise...

then this week, when i tot everything was going on so well... i was wrong!!! so very extremely exceedingly exceptionally WRONG!!! one night while i was walking merrily while humming a tune on my way to the study room... KA BAM... the next thing i noe, i was only a head above the ground level... i found myself suddenly inside a drain and i don't know why... tat time my hands and legs are bleeding but later it turn out to be quite mild for someone who always trips and falls down wherever she goes...

tat's all for now, wouldn't want to bored u all wif my accidents but i m now working on a project... (wow, huge word) haha... its nth actually... remember the Easter CA we had this week earlier on, we are actually having sth special on, as a matter of fact, we had a very touching skit about sacrificial love and i plan to compile it all into a movie... i'll probably upload it here as soon as i finish... till i see u next time!!! God bless!!!

Back to shah alam yet again...

skip ethics class today because of my headache... its only the first day of sch after the mid-term break and i had headache already... maybe i stil can't accept the fact that i had to go back to sch once again after a week of refreshing and rejuvenating holiday...

juz some show-off , for my own pleasure :

Below are some pics of the mouse and bible that my frens gav me on my birthday... Look at how the mouse change its colour each time...

its blue now...

then it turns green...

jus now u see green, now u see red... haha

The bible and the mouse... the best present ever

Thanks for the wonderful present!!! really appreciate them!!!

Why God Takes Young People

When God calls young adult to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with,
the death of our dear child.
Who does so much to make our world,
seem so wonderful and mild.

Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to His fold.
So He picks a rosebud
before it can grow old.

God knows how much we need them,
and so He takes but few.
To make the land of heaven
more beautiful to view.

Believing this is difficult
still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be Good-bye.

So when our young one departs,
we who are left behind,
Must realize God loves children.
ANGELS ARE HARD TO FIND!

Saw this in Susan Loone's blog and was quite touched by it... it certainly answer my ques and hope it can answer some or urs too...

i've been tagged by Gracie... i really don't know wat i m doing now but anyway...

Here it goes...
GETTING TO KNOW HER...=)

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Pat
Birth Date: 14 March 1988
Current Status: Single
Eye Colour: Dark Brown
Hair Colour: Black
Righty or Lefty: Righty
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : I'm a Malaysian chinese but my granpa is from china...
My Fears : No internet connection
My Perfect Pizza : Island Supreme

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : Want to sleep again...
My Bedtime : About 12 am
My Most Missed Memory: The days when i was in primary school

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Can i choose both??
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate (i don't like vanilla, it tastes like milk)
Cappuccino or Coffee: Can i not choose this?? Both i don like... but then i prefer kopi-O
LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: nope...
Curse: nah...
Take a Shower: yea!
Have a Crush: erhm...
Think You've Been In Love: eh... guess so...
Go To School: i'm in college now
Want To Get Married: Yup...
Believe In Yourself: yup, but there r times i doubt in myself though...
Think You're A Health Freak: Not really, i love junk food

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: A bit of red wine and beer...(does it counts???)
Gone To The Mall : of coz... duh...
Been On Stage: Yea...
Eaten Sushi: Yup...
Dyed Your Hair: No.. but i want to do so...

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: No!!!!!!!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: I guess so...

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: before 30 hopefully...

LAYER 9: IN A GUY...
Best Eye Colour: Dark brown
Best Hair Colour: black, blond, brown... as long as they got hair... haha
Short Hair or Long Hair: short hair of coz... wouldn't want him to hav longer hair than me

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: Doing this
An Hour Ago: Attending german class...
4.5 Hours Ago: Stil in class...
1 Month Ago: Celebrating chinese new at home... (i miss angpao!!!)
1 Year Ago: eh... don remember exactly but shud be in form 6 clowning around in sch....
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : My family, watching movies, blogging, shopping, chocolates, beach, hanging around with friendS and EATING u-noe-wat...
I hate: liars, smarties pants who called themselves 'stupid'
I hide: i basically shared everything wif my frens... maybe not all...
I miss: Hanging out with friends and families~~
I need: to study hard and not sleep in class!!!
LAYER 12: TAG 5 PEOPLE.
1. Dorothy
2. Yi En
3. Li Fong
4. Gloria
5. Amir

~finally done with the tags! =)
it's fun but plz don make me do this again!!! haha

Thank you Amir bin Othman for the marvellous, magnificent, superb, lovely, first-class, delightful, wonderful (i m running out of words now) video he did wif a green and handsome dinosaur (forget wat's his name is but i reckon its dino if i m not mistaken...) by saying 'happy birthday' to me wif his deep, bass, sexy voice...

Boy, i m so proud of myself for writing the longest sentence in my blog...
dann prost Amir!!!

am i being sarcastic? no... definitely not...

The best birthday ever and the last....

Yesterday was kind of surprising actually... i had the longest surprisES ever with so many ppl singing birthday songs to me and i had to act as if i don't know they are going to do so... here goes the story...

Yesterday was my 19th birthday (i m soooo old d...) and i had the privilege to serve God on my birthday itself...I was helping out with a church camp organized by the churches of Sarikei as a Game master or watever it is called... 12 of us were divided into groups of different moral values such as love, self-control and others... I am in charge of a station and mine was called 'fu zhe' (in eng it means 'responsiblity'... its actually a game to to develope a sense of responsibility among all the group members... wat happen is tat the game master before mine actually told the groups tat if they sing birthday song when they come to my station, they will be rewarded wif extra points and i guess u all noe wat will happen next... i have all the groups singing the 'happy birthday' song to me and it was quite touching at first... however after tat, it was kind of paiseh but i appreciate all their effort and had to pretend to be surprised anyway...

When i tot everything was over, then all of my frens from wesley came out wif a cake out of nowhere and started to sing the birthday song AGAIN to me... then they get oliver to pray for me and it was the best present i ever receive tat day... thank you all who prepare this - i think sabrina was behind all this but nontheless thank you everyone - timothy, dorothy, grace, michelle, san san, melisa, roy, ah liang, jonathan, alen, sabrina, oliver, pastor lisa and all the pastor from the camp... really had a great time spending time wif all of u at the camp...

Thank you everyone who take the time to type a msg to wish me a very happy birthday - helen, alvin, grace ham, johnson, amanda, daniel, joanne, eileen, gloria, soibah, izzah, eunice, joash, erin, my evil twin sister evelyn, ah saw, happy wong, janice, dewei, ah fong, lawson, aaron, rachel, my cousin ah ing, tze qiang, and those who are yet to be named... thank you for all the birthday wishes and though i cannot thank you one by one, i really appreciate it!!!

This is the last birthday wif a 1 in front of my age... next year i will be 20... can't believe i survived this world for nearly one fifth of a century and i hope my years ahead will be a better one...

Finally!!!!! i get to post sth here... the hostel internet connection had been so bad that i could not even sign in for the whole of 2 weeks... only now in the airport i manage to get into the page and type some words!!! somehow i think that applying for the hostel connection is kind of wasteful... juz finish my german exam today!!! din finish the grammar part though... anyway, i did my best already and hope that i can get an A and i will be soooooo satisfied...

The journey back was quite an interesting one... this time i don't feel bored or agitated by the fact that my ears kept getting blocked because of the difference of air pressure despite how many times i swallow my saliva or close my eyes or blow my nose by covering the nose (don't try this at home... self-torturing) and yawning... i juz can't stand the awful feeling of ear-blockness or watever it is called... this time i get to force joanne to play scrabble with me... i could not remember the last time i play scrabble but it was funny teaching joanne how to count points u get from putting one word on the board... she could not understand at first and i had a very very hard time teaching her how to count but later james join in and was catching up easily, at least better than tat joanne tiong jia wen... (she is so gonna beat me up after she sees this... muahaha... but who cares!!! this is my blog!!!)

At last the 2-hour flight back home was like 2 minutes and we could not even finish a game... but somehow we had great fun making fun of each other...

SIBU!!!!!!! ich komme!!!!!