feeeling oh so random now

*hugs*

this is for 4 wonderful guys out there
who really make me feel comfortable being around wif them...

the first one,
although annoying most of the time,
actually said tat my opinion mean sth to him,
juz bcoz i'm a girl...

the second and third one,
despite their heavy loaded exams and trials coming up,
insisted tat they accompanied me to somewhere,
juz bcoz i'm a girl...

the forth one,
actually shared his thoughts about ppl around him wif me,
and said tat some ppl are understanding,
juz bcoz i'm a girl...



hmmm.... its time i realise tat i'm juz an ordinary girl...

A present for myself...

Apparently, it cost a lot... anyone care to donate some money for me???
i'll write ur name at the first page... haha

You are beatitul...

To my best of the bestest friend in the whole wide world...

Seeing you going thru a lot of stuff lately... juz wanna dedicate this post to u... we've come so far til today... since 6 years old i've known u and i stil believe tat u are stil the sweet and caring girl tat i met 13 years ago at Chung Hua Kindergarten...

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
Oh no, so don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces is gone left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
We're the song inside the tune full of beautiful mistakes


And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The will always shine
(sun will always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today


*p/s : i'm not a lesbo if tat's wat u think... don let ur mind wander too far away

Everyone is leaving me... sobs

First it was my beloved physic lecturer, Dr Suganthi... she really played a really important role throughout my studies in INTEC... she's the first to knock me out of my sense... i remember after tat day, i went back from class wif a heavy feeling... i felt i dissappointed God and her so much... later during cell group, i can't stand it anymore and break down... tat's the first time i actually cry in front of ppl (not tat i never cry in front of ppl but tat was very depressing to find out tat i dissappointed God and din glorify Him...) then the seniors tat time (yuwan, josephine and adeline) prayed for me and i could not help but to cry even harder.... since tat day onwards, i told myself to really make an effort to change myself not only for myself but for God, who make all things possible... and many thanks to Suganthi for she has really reminded me of the purpose of life, where one of her last words in class is "We live for others(God)..."

Then it is Gloria who'll be leaving on 9/9/07 together wif eileen... although i've only known her for only 1 year, i felt tat she is a special person... (u really hav to know her to see for urself)

This is a funny sign board at the Jong's crococdile farm which gloria and her family took me to when i was in kch... but who dares to follow the sign... its only for the croc right??? haha...

This is gloria feeding the monkeys... oops... can she do tat???

Huge fish (i forgot wat it is called in english but i noe in chinese we called it dragon fish)

The reunion of sibu gang on the day when eileen came to visit us... although not all sibu ppl came but we really miss those days when she was wif us...

Eileen, the girl whom i've known since primary 3... i always remember her as the money counter... she is very good in maths because she says tat it is her calling to deal wif numbers... i remember the dilema she face when she was offered engineering and economics... i noe deep down inside her she prefer engineering but then she is willing to give up her dreams and follow the calling to study economics and i noe, tat is one decision she will never regret... all the best in ur future endeavors guys!!!

Everything...

This is a must-watch-video from Godtube... i was especially touched by the part when everyone in this world is trying to pull her away from her savior... but God never gives up on us and continue to hold on to us... u'll see tat througout the skit, God is actually trying to pull us back but there r juz too many obstacles in this world tat hinder us from Him...

Yesterday i had a wonderful time eating the-food-which-must-not-be-named in SA aka Bak Kut Teh.... yeah... hav been craving for it since thursday and suprisingly, get to eat it on the friday night itself... sometimes u don really hav to pray it out loud, God sees wat is in ur heart.... ppl from Acts actually drive all the way here to SA and send us all the way to subang to hav it... PTL...so to sum up, we really had a great time there, though most of the time listening to wat Ben Shyen had to say bout his life as a gynecologist... this is the first time i ever met someone who is so passionate bout being a doctor and especially a gynie... a guy somemore... haha... and i was really touched by things he said esp when he mention bout his first witness of pre-marital baby's death... b4 this i never realize how is this a problem in M'sia and death sucks once again!!!

til then... chow

To all the unsung heroes of Malaysia... I salute u all!!!

Come across this when i went to church... and was really touched and encouraged by the fact that there are actually Malaysians out there who are making a difference to this nation without even the sheer thought of wanting to be famous...(at least tat's wat i think of'em... hehe)

hope someday i too, can make a difference to Malaysia...

Shut up and drive...

i guess the answer is clear...

One sunny day, i was sending joash back to cemara all the way from the park... so far moh (hehe... to heat up the engine after 2 weeks of not touching the van) this song was playing on the radio juz as the thought of 'retiring' starts to trigger my brain cells...

Joash : (with his ever-sunshine-smile... duh) HaHa... Pat! Shut up and drive!!

ok... i never tot God's answer would be tat clear and sharp... ask me to shut up pula... guess i shall enjoy the time here and make full use of it...
and many thanz to joash for the reminder...

guess i shud juz shut up and drive!!! hehe... all the way til the end...

Of an escape and a stupid movie...

Pada hari yang mulia ini, rakyat malaysia menyambut hari kemerdekaan malaysia yang ke 50 sejak tahun 1957. Untuk menunjukkan semangat patriotisme saya yang tinggi ini dan mengingati hari yang mulia ini, saya akan men-blog dalam bahasa melayu. (tapi kadang kala saya guna juga bahasa inggeris untuk menghuraikan apa yang saya tak dapat ceritakan dalam bm)

Pada hari sebelum merdeka, saya dan kawan-kawan saya membuat keputusan untuk meraikan merdeka dengan cara kami sendiri, iaitu dengan melarikan diri daripada pergi ke stadium seperti yang diwajibkan... dengan kereta izzy yang teramat cantik, kami memulakan perjalanan ke the curve baik selepas kelas...

Di sana telah kami memutuskan untuk menonton sebuah wayang... mula-mula saya ingin menonton sebuah kartun tapi ada sesetengah orang yang merasakan hidup mereka terlalu boring... ekoran itu mereka hendak menonton wayang yang berjudul 'Biri-biri Hitam' untuk memedaskan hidup mereka yang tawar... akan tetapi, semasa menonton wayang, kami semua terasa nak keluar dari cinema kerana movie itu terlalu pedas sehingga kami semua tidak tahan... Saya berharap di sini, orang yang mahu menonton wayang itu akan insaf dan jangan sekali lagi mahu toton movie seperti itu... saya pula tidak berani langsung untuk menonton wayang itu, jadi sepanjang movie itu ditayangkan, saya menutup diri sendiri dengan jacket... di sini, saya amat berterima kasih kepada 'dresscode' sekolah saya yang menyebabkan saya membawa jacket saya ke mana-mana sahaya... oleh itu, saya hanya 'mendengar' movie itu, bukannya menonton... begitulah experience pertama saya menonton movie seram... sebelum ini, saya tidak berani nak menonton movie sebegitu, oleh itu, saya hendak mengambil peluang ini untuk berterima kasih kepada sesiapa yang memutuskan untuk menonton movie itu...

you guys really spice up my life weh~~

*its not easy to write in bm, i overestimated myself... it took me 2 days to write it...

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Alert : Boring post ahead!!! (Syed Eidrous, don say i din warn u ah!!!)

haiz... feel so guilty now after my mum pulled out rm179 so willingly out of her purse to pay for my air-ticket to kch...

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


179 for a single trip from sibu to kch!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never imagine it to be THAT expensive....

walao eh!!!!! *felt another rush of guilt

she said : 179 for half an hour trip to kch is worth it lah... don waste 8 hours on the road or 4.5 hours on water...

initially i intended to use express boat to kch which will only take half the time to kch using bus... but but but but my mum so willingly said she will pay for my air-ticket which i tot wud be rm70++ to the maximum of rm100 but but but but but it went up to a whooping 179!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH MA!!!! I WILL STUDY SUPER HARD NEXT TIME!!!!!
AH MA!!!! I WILL GET A FOR MY ORGANIC CHEMISTRY NEXT TIME!!!!!
AH MA!!!! 我对不起你！！！！！
AH MA!!!! I LOVE U LAH!!!!!!!!!!!

Random rantings...

can't wait to go back again next week
away from all the studies
sometimes i ask myself
is study really for me
i oweys tot i wanted to do sth creative
not juz memorising some hardcore facts
i wanted to be a writer or even film director
tat's wat i tot i wud never become because i don dare to dream

another week has gone by and today is one of my favourite day of the week, FREITAG!!! had a nice and enjoyable week this week, been to pizza hut for the second time coz izzah suddenly treat us bcoz she juz won the silat competition... she is really a girl of veracity... as usual, friday has been the day of relaxing and reading blogs and cooking and surfing internet and catching up wif joanne and cheng ing... felt so sorry tat i wasn't able to spend time wif them nowadays... feel tat i got a lot of homework to catch up during the weekdays til i neglect them...

anyway, sth interesting did happen much to my own amusement... my dear sarawakian coursemate got stalked by a junior... haha... nearly laugh my head off when i saw all those funny words used to describe him... "its so cool, the way he walks, the way he carry his bag... everything bout him is cool!!!" or "i am soooooo not over him"... sorry lah but it's sooooo funny... but now since she privatise her blog, can't seem to noe wat happen btw them liaw... here goes my source of entertainment... *updates : she del them already...

hav been stuck wif chem for the past week... chem has oweys been my weak spot... i simply loathe organic chem... can't do reasoning at all... wat is happening to me??? chem use to be my fav subject after the languages... but my roomate is there to help me!!!! yeah!!!! really thankful tat this year i got a new roomate... was really blessed by her... she brought food everytime she go back to her hometown to feed the poor and food deficient akasian scholars... how nice of her!!! haha...

Below is the song i m addicted to lately... Free by hillsong

Cell group random photos...

lo and behold... my humble room... stil cannot go sleep!!! help me plz!!! i need sleeping pills...

Sleepless night...

its 3 am and i m stil not in bed... sleepless nights again... and the speed was incredible tonight... wonder if it also catch my sleepless bug too...

Random photos of the past CA :

Random photos for the past weekend...

The only pic wif me in it...

Guys wooing over Nadine...

Starting the fire for bbq...

Says who chicken feet can't be artistic??
ta-dah... chickens and more chickens...

Argh!!! stupid hostel line...

initially i plan to do a picture post as i was lazy to think of wat to write and wat to post but in the end, had no choice but to resolve to the good ole typing bcoz the wireless line was so slow that it could not support the uploading of pics... sien

going thru some stuff last week but thanz to eujeen, now everything (hopefully) has been cleared and i learned that sometimes we can't juz see things from one point of view... for example, reading the bible... i've come across matthew chapter 14 for 3 times last 2 weeks and each time i read it i get sth new from it... first was about faith, by the little faith that peter had, he was able to walk on water; the second thing that i learn from the same passage is about calling, in times of troubles and commotion, we had to learn to LISTEN... "Come"

anyway, first thing to start of my august was good... i got invited by Amir to his kleiner(small) party... tot tat he was playing a joke on me when he actually say tat he wanted to belanja... no wonder he had been busying asking ppl to buy him presents... anyway, tat was the first birthday party tat i went to since i came to shah alam to study and vielen danks(many thanks) to amir... HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY... initally i wanted to buy him a card and share the present wif the other guys from ALG but later resulted in buying him sth else instead... find it a bit lame to giv him a key chain wif his name on it but glad tat he actually like it!!! haha...

then the friday b4 was the ALG family day... it was quite fun to know some new juniors... glad to noe that this year juniors r as rock and crazy as our batch... keep on the tradition guys!!!

on the same friday Eileen came to akasia to stay for a few days b4 she go back to sibu again (hope awang boon is not reading this otherwise she will be in grave danger) haha... glad to have her back again and really miss her loud and distinct voice which can be heard miles away (typical foochow) she will be leaving tml and boy m i going to miss her again!!! so sorry that i can't actually spend time wif her coz i hav class in the morning...

ah!!! how i wish i can upload some crazy photoshots i've taken for the past weekend... but maybe later i can post them up for ur viewing pleasure... til then, chow!

10 reasons I never regret joining TSF camp…

1. My laptop get to rest (finally!!!) for 3 days and 2 nights
2. I get to feel God’s presence for the whole 3 days and 2 nights, away from studies and nightmares!!!! woooootttt...
   
3. I get to know a lot of frens, especially my team members (Anna, Michelle, Kassie, Weng Teng, Alison and Columbus) Steamy Iron rocks!!!(my group name lah…) really learn a lot from u guys and other ppl that I m unable to name it one by one but u noe who u are…
4. I have my breakthrough and start to understand what God has been and still is doing in me…
5. All the unanswered question that I prayed that God will answer it thru this camp are ALL answered!!!! PTL!!!
6. I get to feel what I will to feel in Germany… Freeeeaagin cold!!!
7. I got plug-in to God… (will elaborate more in my next post, wif loads of pic some more)
8. I get a free ticket to watch any movie of my own choice in GSC... muahaha... so bangga weh!!! (but everything comes wif a price and u won't want to noe wat did i do to get that movie ticket...gross!!!! ewie...)
   
9. I acted and cheered a cheer on stage...(not those cheerleading cheer lah duh!) though i was nervous, i din let it shown on my face coz i really wan to get over my stage fright...
   
10. I'm fired up once again!!! HERE I COME!!!!!

Leben ist das, was an uns vorbeizieht, während wir damit beschäftigt sind, andere Plänen zu schmieden

really running out of idea of wat to write... last week had been a very hectic and heavy week for me... but its over anyway and i m stil alive and kicking now!!!

but hey!!! in 1 hour time i will be heading to genting, peacehaven for my first church camp of the year... i miss those time when we have camps in sarawak... really wanna thank isabella, my dear sarawakian fren who invited me to this FGA camp... though sth has been bugging me lately but i know God has shown me the reasons for all the conflicts thru this camp... i claim the promise of God that i will be a changed person after i came back from this camp...

PEACEHAVEN!!!! HERE I COME!!!

btw, did i mention my dad will be coming over to KL this weekend, too bad i will be at the camp most of the time but i can steal some time to meet him during sunday afternoon... STARBUCKS!!! wait for me too...

无聊人做无聊事。。。

那个人又来吵了，而且还露出真面目了呢。他/她也不想想，他/她凭什么批评我们。我想他/她是书得太多，生活好无聊，吃饱没事做，所以才这样吧！不过，经过这次事件，我想我们委员会会更团结吧！真是该谢谢他/她呢！

我的祷告。。。

Forgive me, loving Father, for I sometimes get so lost in my own opportunities and problems that I don't look around and check on those in my church family who need my help much less those in need who are not Christians. Touch me with your Spirit so that I may better hear, see, and respond to their needs. Thank you for your concern for all people, and please use me as one of your tools of concern to bless those in need. In the precious name of Jesus I pray. Amen.

上帝的安排

here's the story...

initially i plan to go KLCC alone on a bright and sunny afternoon from esso bus-stop, then take a taxi driven by shah alam's super honest taxi driver to the ktm station and then off i go to my destination... y m i telling u all this? its bcoz i really hate the idea of using taxi in shah alam, the taxi drivers here are juz sooo crafty... they'll never be satisfied unless they drained ur wallet dry and withered... come on lah... how come shah alam's taxi driver don use meter one??? i remember asking one taxi driver y is he not using meter and he din say anything back... (wonder if he's deaf or he is trying real hard not to tel lies...) then on tat very day, as soon as i walk pass the guard house (wif my long sleeve hoodie on of coz), i saw one of my juniors i met at church n so i stopped n greet her... we chatted a bit and i found out tat she is on her way to ktm but she dunno the way... praise the Lord!!! without second thoughts, i immediately and thick-facedly ask her whether i can follow her and also *ahem to show her to way to KTM station... muahaha... on the train, we manage to share bout our own experience of God and how He touch us in the first place... somehow i knew tat God's hand is behind all of this...

now to the second part of the journey, i reach KLCC juz in time for the harry potter movie... (did i mention i was nearly late?) angela bought my ticket last week and i was glad i din hav to line up for the ticket... i stil get culture shock when i saw so many ppl in a cinema lining up like in sch assembly to buy tickets... the movie was nice... i like the way the director link all scenes together without making it look awkward during the changing of scenes... after the movie we sat down in the food court and start chatting and without realising it, soon it gets dark and by the time i realise it, it was too late for me to go back, esp ALONE to shah alam so i decided to stay overnight at tar college wif angela n ngiuk hung...

i was glad tat once again i get to share some of my thoughts wif ngiuk hung, esp life in KL where we hav to leave our lovely homes and churches and trying to survive each day trusting God... we talk about our own testimonies and how both of us has changed since we met in church years ago... it is really encouraging to see us stepping out of our own comfort zone without realising it... God must have been behind all this... and it too me a moment to realise, it's not bad going out alone once in a while because we don need to worry so much about transportation and stuff coz God always provides...

Amen.