A burden not heavier than the cross to bear...

after being convinced by my frens tat my blog is a selat-melaka plus a bit of perasan-ness from myself, i finally sign up for nuffnang ads... after much copying n pasting n clicking for half an hour i manage to put up 2 ads, which somehow juz got there coz i hav no idea wat m i doing too... haha... but anyway, i click on my own ads n *hem *coughs *hem... hem... *i think you shud too* coughs*... and saw this ad on Eden

and saw this

He's able

yup, He sure is... coz i finally got a B for my chemistry!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! NO MORE C!!!!! YIPPEE... (juz imagine me screaming at the top of my lungs n jumping around like a mad guy)

Happy Moments...

If its not for this contest, i wouldn't have try to dig out all my pictures to have a general view of what i did for the past 1 and half years... and surprisingly, life in college seems to be another new step of my life, a new transition into adulthood n independence, living day by day with sufficient grace... so let the journey of my happy moments begins...

Happy moments are when...

...I learn how to fly like Hiro Nakamura...
(oops... Did he know how to fly?)

...I went fishing for the very first time in my entire 20 years of life.
It was so fun that i wish i could do that forever...


...CA is on for every fortnight thursday...


...we manage to finish making a Germany map to decorate our nearly-torn-down classroom...

...we get to celebrate 15 birthdays in a year together with 15 other students in the class...

...we went all the way to Stadium Shah Alam to support our own Malaysian team when they played against Myanmar during the finals of Merdeka Cup... and the happy thing is - Malaysia won!!! (Mexican wave ppl!)






















...Christmas is not about Santa Claus or Rudolf the-red-nose-reindeer but sharing your love to people on the highways n byways...






...I have the chance to visit a longhouse and experience the simple joy of the longhouse folks, especially from the little children...















...studying in the boring study room seems not that boring at all with music blasting right into your ears...

...I get to spend time with my lovely siblings back in Sibu, the land of Kampua, Kompia and loud foochows...

Being happy is not that hard at all, if you can only open your eyes and heart to see and feel wonderful things around you...

random thought...

shud i get myself a Nokia N82 or N95?

dilemma weh... how ah? both got 5gb cam...

WOHIN? - Where to?

Wohin willst du gehen, wenn du die Augen schließt, wohin
Wie weit kannst du sehen, wenn du träumend liegst, in deiner Welt
Wie du sie nennst, wie weit kannst du sehen
Wohin willst du gehen, bevor du wiederkommst und wie weit
Und wer kann verstehen, was den Menschen treibt
Den Mond erhellt, in deiner Welt, wie du sie nennst

Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Ist die Nacht vorbei, wird alles still und beginnt von vorn
Mit derselben Frage - Wohin?

Wohin willst du gehen, beim nächsten Mal, wohin
Wie weit kann man sehen, in dieser Welt, wie man sie kennt
In dieser Welt...

Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Regen fällt - ich suche dich...
Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Ist die Nacht vorbei, wird alles still und beginnt von vorn
Mit derselben Frage - Wohin?

heard this super romantic song form the movie 'Die Wolke', a german movie based on the book wif the same title... the movie is about a breakdown of a nuclear plant and 2 teenagers, unfortunately falling in love wif each other during tat time of chaos...

the song reminded me again - where is my next step? where wud i wan to go next? where is the dream tat i had hid behind my head all these years? where m i going to after this?

Mit deselben frage - Wohin? (with the same question, where to?)

Updates...

down wif a flu during the holidays and i suspect it has sth to do wif my anti-cervical-cancer-injection and drinking of too much chicken soup during the holidays... haha... til now, i still suffer from blocked-ears, meaning i m half deaf now and hav to ask ppl to repeat what they say if its too low frequency for me to catch... actually i hav been half guessing wat ppl are saying to me...

had the most normal-than-ever birthday back at my hometown, thanz to those who took the time to msg me, although some of them i had to ask who they are coz i kinda lost all my contacts when i lost both my handphones... so sorry!!! thanz for all the presents and presents to come i believe (esp from my beloved alg 10C peeps!!!)

i notice a similar trend in the presents - most gave me handphones-related items such as hp pouch or hp holder (in fact i got 2 of it)... they knew what i want exactly for my birthday but none gave me 'it'... *hem...cough...cough...hem* haha

thank you everyone for making my birthday a memorable one!!!

Thoughts on fishing... Part 2

i was kind of 'force' to lead a group during youth service, and the topic for the day is loving others... so since i went for the fishy camp, i decided to share sth on loving your friends in the very last minute... to start of, i began wif the question tat put me to awe during the camp,

"So wat is the most important command in the bible?
(so proud of myself for knowing the answer)
Love God or love your neighbours?"

Then all of them giv different answers, some answered, love God and some say love neighbour... then i tel them, its loving your neighbours... then i ask them to go to Galations 5:14... then one girl shrieked, "you mean we don't have to love God??"

"uh-oh... i'm in big trouble..." i think to myself... then she started to shoot me wif all kind of questions like "so u mean its more important to love others than love God lah?" and to the extend of "so i can juz obey my parents to not to come to church because i love my parents"

at tat time, i was so totally unprepared for it and my mind went blank, but glad i hav so many other group members, esp Andrea and Aileen, who were so helpful enough to clarify for me... they keep ensuring her that loving God is in our nature, and therefore we don need ppl telling us to love God and love others is harder because there are ppl who are unlovable... then i giv examples like "do u like ur 娘娘腔niang-niang qiang （meaning 'sissy') classmate?" (i knew secondary sch kids hav this prob) haha... and she immediately fired up and start telling the group how tat 'niang niang qiang' bully her in class... (normal lah) and after some discussion, i shared to them how we shud love ppl, not only those who love us, but also those who do not love us... and i ask them to think of names in which they will give a smile to the next time they see them... as an ending, i told them a bit about the 3 steps on friendship evangelism, to identify, spend time and to share christ's love... and we end wif prayers...

although the group discussion begin wif quite a caos i must say but in the end, it went well (thanks to the most cooperative group members tat i have) i felt tat this is yet another reminder for myself as well, to learn to love others, from the bottom of my heart, and not expecting sth in return...

回家感觉真好！

回家了。。。还以为心情会好一点，可是。。。

唉。。。都是最后一张试卷害的啦，因为它实在是 太。难。了。

想向一下坐在一个超级无敌冷的大礼堂里两个小时也，头脑都给它冻坏了，想也不能想，不管了，先睡一觉再说，反正死也是死，也不差那一点吧！

不过感谢神，总让我熬过了。现在的心情十分的矛盾，一方面开心是因为考完了，另一方面又挡心自己考不好，让父母亲失望。我不可以在拿 C 了，他们人老了，不可以受太大的刺激。哈哈！

回家了，一切都还是一样，一样的简单，一样的房间，一样的床单（我怀疑自从上一次回来后都没换过），就连大选的广告牌都还是那么的简单，不想西马那样旗帜挂满了整街，真让人看了眼花缭乱。这里顶多在交通灯的十字街头上看到几个竖起的广告牌之外，好像没看到什么了也。

回到家不到几个小时里，就给Oliver给叫去选华语诗歌领唱，谁叫我是教会少数不是香蕉人的人。哈哈！不过很高兴，一回到家就有机会侍奉。

回家了，好开心哟！！！！

一群过分的人。。。

一考完试就在我身边绕阿绕，不停地向我炫耀，好过分哦！！！ 等我明天考好最后一张时，你们就知道！！！

如果再让我听到你们去血拼的趣事，你们就完了！！！

我会报仇的，君子报仇，十年不晚。。。

Sibu decides...

more story click here

too bad i can't vote this year... wonder if i can vote for the next election or not?

Chemistry is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keeps me awake during exams...

Mechanics tomorrow n 3 more days to kompia n kampua...

hmmm... And God said, "Let there be 4 equations..."

*Light is made up from just 4 equations... 2 homogenous, and 2 unhomogenous... When you couple these 4 equations together, you get the waves which produce light...

taken from here...
haha... so funny...

sudden interest in politics...

Foochow clansmen urged to back BN

haha... so proud weh... the country need foochows... i never noe we are tat important... *smirk in sarcasm...

Thoughts on fishing... Part 1

gosh... got so many to share... this is juz one teeny-weeny part of it... will share next time

Many times we thought what we do, what we act like in public, what we think, what we eat, what we read, what music we listen etc etc influence people... we thought we are the 'bait'

However, in actual fact... we juz cast the rods n wait... patiently... wait... patienly... wait... wait... wait... for the fish to come for the bait... we sometimes cast the rod in the wrong place where fishes are rare... so we ourselves hav to go out to where the fishes are n cast down our rods... sometimes, we need to be patient n sit there at one place...

so wat is the most importat thing in fishing??? obviously its the bait...

so who's the bait??? i'll leave you with tat question to ponder about...

i'm back

sometimes juz being who you are n do what you think is right is costly... the price is costly... the price of friendship, trust, appreciation, gratitude... u end up being the most hateful ppl around while other gets the credit and recognition...

for those who understands, a pat on the back, a smile, or even a simple, short but meaningful prayer will do... it will juz make my day...

for those who don't, you will never understand what i did is for a purpose, is for the betterment of all, and i don't want to be an exhibitionist by telling the whole world what i've done, i prefer to keep it to myself n my Most Trusted, to store up treasures in Heaven, not on earth where thief steals n moth destroys...

forgiveness - one valuable yet most forgetful lesson learnt again from my dear roomate...

"But I tell you who hear me; Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.
If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners', expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them and lend them without experiencing to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. " Luke 6 : 27-36


i'm back - stronger n with more faith ... for once, i wanted to finish what i once started when i make the most important decision in my life at the age of 16, to finish the race strong...

randomness... a proof to show ppl tat i study!!!

Position vector ra ship A is : (initial position) + (displacement)

When both ship collide, they will have same position at the same time : ra = rb

Position vector of C relative to D is : rc - rd

Distance between two vessels is : I rc - rd I

v=u+at
s=ut+1/2at^2
v^2=u^2+2as
s=1/2(u+v)t

Gradient of the speed-time graph = acceleration of the particle
Area under the graph = distance travelled by the particles

A system of forces acting on a particle is said to be in equilibrium if their resultant is the zero factor.


*plz don spread rumours tat i did not study for my trials this time... i may go out for a movie n some other events but its one form of detressing mah... haha

29-02-2008

i tel myself tat no matter wat happen, must at least blog sth on this day... i mean, when can u blog again on 29th of February? 4 years later... dunno whether i stil even blog or not??? haha... anyway... today is a day of sowing the seed... let the story begins...

i oweys got email from my frens n they will put 'thank you for sowing the seed' instead of the usual 'thanks so much' or 'thanks a million' or sometimes not even a thank you note behind... then when i first see the 'thank you for sowing the seed' i could not understand or identify myself wif it until today... i went out wif 2 of my coursemates for a movie... although its exam time n by right everyone shud study for it but inside me there's this voice tat told me to go... n i obeyed... n i finally noe wat do ppl mean by sowing the seed, sometimes it juz take a mustard seed to grow into a beautiful big tree... i might not be able to see the tree grows, but at least i sowed the seed...

i've learn a lot from the previous camp tat i joined n i found out tat sowing the seed takes time... whether i wan to spend time on sowing n watering the seed tat i plant, its my choice... n i choose to be tat farmer in other ppl's lives...

ok... back to updates:

1. My birthday coming soon n its the big *** years old... dunno whether to be excited or sad coz it will be the last year of my teenage years... (oops... did i juz giv my age away) of coz i hav been planning to buy sth for myself for turning adult this year (although stil cannot vote)it might be either a semi-pro camera or a new handphone or a trip to beijing... ya its all costly n i really don wan to regret what i hav chosen... so pray tat i will hav the wisdom to choose the right thing for myself... of coz others if u wish to giv me anything on my birthday, i don mind... AT ALL... i wud like to hav books, treat me out makan, new handphone or even sponsoring me to go beijing... n the list goes on n on...
2. I m seriously thinking of going to beijing because i sort of wan to noe my own root n culture before i went off to some mat salleh country... i hope it will be my first station my backpack travelling... if anyone interested to go wif me, plz do contact me... accomodation will be provided coz i will be staying at my aunt's place... otherwise i hav to travel there alone... hope to go new york n rome one day... they are currently on top of my to-go-list
3. Currently having trials now n stil surviving... will be going back next week , immediately after the exams... so happy... can't wait for it

tat's all for now

Sth fishy camp

无题

不知道自己可以把心里的不愉快隐藏多久，只希望它快点离我而去，我不想再被它给绑住，每天生活在害怕之中。也非常感谢许多的朋友，在我不开心时，在我身旁开导我，听我说话，给我少许有建立性的劝告。真是谢谢你们，没有你们，我不知道怎样度过这次的难关。只怪我自己，这么小器，别人说个一两句，就无端端生闷气，我觉得自己好无聊哦！也怪我自己，没事找事做，没话找话说，惹上了麻烦，结果自己又跟自己过不去。唉！真是的！

Valentine's day...

this year, i've learn one old thing again... tat man fails, but He will never ever fails u...

"For God so loVed the world,
****That He gAve
******* His onLy
*******BegottEn
********** SoN
*************That whoever
*****Believes In Him
******Should Not perish,
****But have Everlasting life. (John 3:16)
taken from taylorscf

valentine's day is nth but a day of catching up... i've been too far away, busy wif preparations for an event... i always tot i did a lot for it, i've been too proud... since i've been very used to working wif the CA committee, i tend to feel comfortable working wif another group other than CA... but this new experience is totally different than working wif CA... in CA we are all like a family and we had a purpose in mind when we all serve... when working wif ppl outside of CA, i din manage to get out of my comfort zone when working wif CA n i stumble... hard... real hard... being let down by ppl whom u trusted n respected is one thing, not appreciated is another...

the aftermath of this experience make me appreciate ppl around me more n also take criticism in wif an open heart... though it hurts very much...

i need ur prayers ppl, it might take some time for me to be healed completely n only by Him...

Achtung!!!

German week is coming up this weekend from 16th to 18th February, Saturday to Monday. For more information please visit here --> got lotsa stuff, not only regarding German week but also my german lecturer... haha

also, there will be an exhibition going on during German week n we've got food all the way for Germany... yum yum... for more infos, visit here

p/s : i did not get paid to do this... although i really hope to!!!

原来。。。

原来这世界上是有很多在背后默默耕耘的人，不求名利，只求把自己的本分做到最好，让整个组织能顺利的运行。从这些人身上，我学到了许多，从最简单的谦虚说起。从以前到现在，总觉得自己做得最好，从不听别人的劝告。但是经过了这次的磨练，让我大开眼界， 原来主办一项赛事不是那么的简单，是得经过很多人的经手及合作才能顺利地进行。从这些让人敬佩的人身上，我也学到，要事事以大会为主，不要为了一点小事阿，而拖延了许多宝贵的时间。也不要为了一点小事而伤了和气，团队精神最重要。

神啊，请原谅我的无知与自私吧！这可把我身边一起工作的伙伴给苦坏了。