identity crisis...

did the personality test again on sunday n found out tat i hav a problem wif my identity... haha... i wonder whether i've really changed or all this while i've been limitting myself to a certain behavior... anyway, tat's not the main point...

this is。。。

i nearly burn down my kitchen weh! but my housemate was there to save the day and his "Kein Problem!" (no big deal) really made my day... shall refrain myself from cooking... -_-

AYA awards is back! plz do check it out here... i was there for the last 2 awards, first time as a spectator n the second time as a volunteer... i was so inspired after the awards n i hope u can experience it the power of a true story too!

wat? this guy was in sibu b4??

how come no one tel me one?

星光三班李伯恩诗巫弹唱会歌迷

Invisible...

yo, finally got myself a new keyboard after so many days of procrastinating, i manage to drag myself to Media Markt and the best thing about Media Markt is tat when u buy anything there n u wanted a refund, they giv u back immediately, no question asked... how cool is tat? (but-maybe-they-see-me-korean-auntie-face-who-dunno-how-to-speak-german)

back to the topic, after a whole semester to unintentional attempt to stay invisible in class, i'm actually shock to see how fast time zoomed pass me n suddenly it's nearly the end of my first uni semester here in Hochschule Offenburg... meaning fast approaching the end-of-sem-exams too... been studying hard this time, hoping to at least pass wif slightly better results than other ppl... and during this period of pre-exam time, i've seen some really weird things going on in class... to cut the story short, we Malaysians are seriously trained to go for exam whereas germans, they don't... one really interesting thing is tat one of my classmate manage to get hold of some leaked questions online n he showed it to the lecturer... needless to say, the lecturer throw a huge tantrum and threatened to have 80 exam questions tat need to be finished in 90 minutes... after hearing tat, i feel like throwing him into the river n feed the poor fishes... but then again, i really prefer to hav objective question instead of subjective, so somehow one way or another, it is a blessing in disguise... hopefully...

late sunset...

view from my window...

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insights from travelling...

i've been travelling a lot here in germany, to church, to meet up wif frens, to ikea, to outlet cities, to visit ppl and the means of transport i use the most is train... and one thing in common i shared wif other train travelers is tat we all carry bags or even luggages... before we travel, we need to make sure we hav everything, ipod, books, water bottle, wallet, money, camera, hand n face lotion, lipbalm, ricola, handphone, jacket, chocolates and anything we could think of in our bags... we felt like the more stuff we bring, the bigger the bag, the more we r prepared for anything... isn't life like this too? we take up things n responsibilities in our daily walk and as time goes by, they become a burden as every step we take n every station we stop by to change to a new train... we think we r prepared, but the fact is the our bags are getting heavier on our way to our destination... then i realise, i m actually on board a train where i don need any baggages, faith is enough to sustain me...

are you ready to board this train?

More beautiful you by Jonny Diaz

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

nice n meaningful song... speaks to most ppl at our age, esp me...

Beautifully imperfect...

Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?

imperfect... that's wat we all are... and it really cost a lot to realise and to admit it... however, isn't all these make who we are? yes, although we are all imperfects, we are beautifully imperfect in God's eyes... of course we must strive to be perfect, but then again, who is?


this is a 2 in 1 post... the emo n not so emo post... the upper n bottom post...



ok, i hate to admit it...
i'm bored...

the girl from the opposite room, the one to whom i only speak is away for holiday, the one i m not talking to, is around too for whatever reasons he is not staying in his comfortable house... y is he still around?????!!!!!! i seiously do not noe...

spend 3 hours on one technische mechanik question... *bravo... claps claps... pat myself on the back... in the end still hav to refer to the answer online... *another round of applause... thank you thank you... curtsied and walk away...

enuice ding, eve aun, cat chan n qiao hui!!!! faster come loh....

introducing my new bf...

plz don mind the sun-burned face, juz came back from a bike trip n there's no whitening product in this country...

can't wait to open it...

ta-dah!!!

plz can anyone teach me some songs?

Psalm 121

Ich hebe meine Augen auf zu den Bergen, von welchen mir Hilfe kommt.

Meine Hilfe kommt vom Herrn, der Himmel und Erde gemacht hat.
Er wird deinen Fuß nicht gleiten lassen; und der dich behütet, schläft nicht.
Siehe, der Hüter Israels schläft noch schlummert nicht.
Der Herr behütet dich; der Herr ist dein Schatten über deiner rechten Hand,
daß dich des Tages die Sonne nicht steche, noch der Mond des Nachts.
Der Herr behüte dich vor allem Übel; er behüte deine Seele!
Der Herr behüte deinen Ausgang und Eingang von nun an bis in Ewigkeit!

i realise one thing important, that all this while i tot i was running away from my problems, in fact, i was running away from God...

it's time to turn around, don't stop, and run again... this time at the right direction! :)

Das Festival 2009

Das Festival 2009
(THE FESTIVAL 2009)

29.Mai -1.Juni 2009
(29 May - 1 June 2009)

HOFFNUNG Deutschland (Hope Germany)

4 TAGE HUMORVOLLE LEBENSPLANUNG MIT JESUS HÖCHSTPERSÖNLICH –

4 DAYS OF HUMOUROUS LIFEPLANNING WITH JESUS THE MOST HIGH

DIE IDEEN, (THE IDEA)
DER LEBENSSTIL, (THE LIFESTYLE)
DIE KONSEQUENZEN: (THE CONSEQUENCES)

ZULETZT
LACHEN

LAUGH THE LAST ( LAUGH THE BEST)

erm...

kinda lazy to blog nowadays, don get me wrong, i m not busy, somehow time juz flies like wind... whoooooosh...

can't wait for church camp tmr, to be frank, i hav issues wif myself, issues wif understanding myself or other ppl... i hav issues understanding ppl who do things they noe they shud not do but yet they still do it... i cannot understand them nor put myself in their shoes... i don understand myself too, like y is it a problem to me? y do i hav to go n involve myself in other ppl's matter?

well, maybe it is juz the nature part of me for being so kaypoh (busybody)...

hope i can hav things sort out soon... or else i will be dwelling in this for some more time...

random

introducing....

my tv...

occationally we will turn it on,
when the housemate is not around (as loud as it can be!),
when we felt that we lack of german listening skill (some german soap opera where real german are being spoken instead of being dubbed),
when we miss listening to english so much (oweys n forever mtv, bbc n cnn),
when we feel like annoying the housemate. ^_^

aaaand baked chicken wings, taste so much like mum's...

my first narcissism post

well folks, after i-forgot-how-many-months of persistance n endurance, i failed miserably n decided once again, i shall cut short my hair... i cannot stand the endless eye-piercing strands that covers my eyes all the time... there you go, da fringe is back... ladies n gentlement...

updates

guess it is time for updates...

i can't believe one year have passed since a-levels last year... it seems like yesterday when my housemate n i climbed over the fence in the middle of the night in akasia just to watch euro cup matches at mcd in shah alam during tat time... and right now i m in germany, struggling everyday to overcome all sorts of barriers (language, food, socialising etc..) and getting use to new things here (cycling/driving on the right side of the road etc)

now i've reach the phase where everyday is a routine, waking up in the morning, go to class, come back, eat lunch, skype with frens n family, ebaying, watch mtv (coz it's the only thing i understand) dinner, surf internet, read bible, turn off lights n sleep from monday to thursday, then friday, saturday n sunday i spend most of my time lepak at senior's place, do some random travelling wif my housemate, church n the cycle repeat itself... i guess this might be the so call 'settling down' which i was hoping to be since day one... and it is normal to me that everytime i go out, i hear ppl speaking german n realise i , too, speak german, eg ordering food, buying chicken n beef from the turkey shop, talking to classmate (singular) all this suddenly seems so - normal...

ok, enough of this, juz post this for the sake of updating... will see wat i shall post next time!

Offenburgers...

Liebe XXXXXXXXXXX,

schönen Dank für Ihre Anmeldung. Der späte Zeitpunkt ist kein Problem! Wir haben nun genug Teilnehmer und werden den Kurs sicher durchführen. Über die Details wegen der Kaution etc. informiere ich Sie demnächst per Mail.

Es freut mich, dass sich alle Studierenden von Offenburg für den Kurs angemeldet haben. Das ist bei keiner anderen FH der Fall. Die Offenburger sind halt besonders engagiert....

Liebe Grüße,

X. XXXXX


haha... names are not shown to protect the pricacy of the ppl involved...

why am i second?

because there's someone in my life who is first...

are you second? i know i am second!

nice

gosh i miss CA after reading the latest post in CA new blog... i read it like over 10 times since this morning n i find new things to miss everytime i finish reading... i can totally understand u seniors! haha... and to be honest, i don feel sad at all during my farewell (who can feel sad in a CA meeting??) but the feeling seeps in before and AFTER it... haha... so be prepare!

hiking at blackforest...

the most beautiful place and i felt as if i were in paradise, the different greens of the trees were juz so beautiful, indicating tat new life begins from now onwards... it was raining the whole day on friday n saturday n i nearly pull out of the hike for the fear of getting sick... it doesn't help when i woke up on sunday morning only to find out tat it was fogging outside, which was quite thick, but i went anyway... the trip was organized by the senior service of my uni and it is open to all international students, the group was really big, there were 30 international students from all over the world n 20 ppl from senior service... this is the first time i went hiking in germany and together wif so many ppl... we took a train and literally pack the whole train up... it was quite interesting to hear so many languages spoken at one time and in a train... ppl juz automatically strike a conversation like it is so normal, unlike in ehem class coughs wif hem germans... haha... and i was even amazed when i met a former malaysian student who works wif the uni branch now... we went like "malaysia!!!" n start talking bullet-train-malaysian-english... we also manage to converse in german wif the other member of senior services, although most of them were kind enough to explain more detailed stuff in english... i learn a lot about plants from them, i learn how to differentciate different fruit tress by the colour of the flowers and also by the shape of the tree bark... since coming to germany, i've grown a passion for plants here, esp since it's spring now n it is juz so inspring to see so many colours lighting the whole place up... we also manage to make friends wif other international students and to be able to understand jokes that they make is simply wonderful... for the first time i can actually join in the joke no matter how lame they are and laugh my head off...

now you might be wondering y this post is all words til now... n u might think that they might be photos posted up real soon... no, u r wrong!!!

because being a smarty pant *as always, i forgot to bring my camera!!!!!!!!!!!! n to make things worse, i even forgot to bring my handphone... seriously i feel like jumping down to every river tat i pass by n freeze myself to death or jump down from every slope tat i climb or knock my head agains all the beautiful trees... haih...

France...

the place which i've heard so much of but never actually been there and the place i nearly applied to instead of germany... well, from my point of view, i do think tat language is not a barrier there, so much for wat ppl say bout France, english actually can be accepted if u got the oriental looks... haha... here are some pics of Strasbourg, the capital of Europen Union... the architecture is totally mind blowing

p/s : it is juz 30 mins away from Offenburg...