sitting in front of the laptop browsing at ppl's fb profile... yup, tat's wat i've been doing for the past hour in another city in my fren's room and realising that so many things happen when i'm not really around and busy travelling around east europe...
gosh i miss those ppl! esp those from CA last time... we'd gone thru so much together, so much fun, laughter, tears... and slowly i m beginning to lose contact wif them, one by one... sooner or later, we will turn out to be complete strangers to each other and i don wan tat to happen...
it is so hard to keep in touch wif ppl if u don take the extra effort and time to do it... and esp in a new environment where ur life seems to be always occupied by sth, then the priority of 'frens' u r willing to invest ur time on tends to be neglected...
Meet Lille, a girl whom i recently befriended in frankfurt... She shares of a life of amazing faith, moving bravely away from her hometown to frankfurt just because of her calling... although she doesn't hav a job yet but she continue to trust tat God will provide... thank you for your faithfulness, it really encourages me...
and many thanks to all the ppl whom i've stayed wif for one week, thanks for all the unending support you guys showed, eg to help me wif the EE exam by practicing wif me...
better update this blog before it turns sour... haha...
juz came back from 2 weeks of german language course and will be heading to frankfurt again for the whole of next week... so don be surprise if u keep seeing the post for another dunno-how-many-years again...
Liebe ist geduldig und freundlich, Sie ist nicht verbissen, sie prahlt nicht und schaut nicht auf andere herab. Liebe verletzt nicht den Anstand und sucht nicht den eigenen Vorteil, sie lässt sich nicht reizen, sie rechnet das Böse nicht zu, sie freut sich nicht über die Ungerechtigkeit, sie freut sich aber an der Wahrheit. Sie erträgt alles, sie glaubt alles, sie hofft alles, sie duldet alles. Die Liebe hört niemals auf.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
I saw the german version of 1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8 at the back of a wedding invitation and could not recall the english version of it. So i look up for it on the internet and was quite surprise to see the differences between this 2 usage of the language. I've posted both english and german verses here so u can see the difference (if n only if u can understand both, if not, sorry lah... haha)
i noe i sound like a 100-year-old here but i must say this... time really flies... i've juz finish the last paper today and it is officially summer holidays for me... therefore, it is time i look back at the first 6 months of my life here in germany n summarise it in a couple of words...
life has been great here, enjoying while suffering at the same time... gone thru ups n downs n i can say i've given my best in everything tat i do, well, not everything... one thing tat i really really really regretted is not being able to socialise wif the locals well, esp wif housemates n classmates... when i first arrived, there's always this gang-ho-ness of telling the world tat ' i can conquer germany!!!!' or 'i will blend in among germans n try not to form a kampung malaysia'... truth is, it is not at all tat easy... first day in class, i tried to step out of my comfort zone n approach someone, a girl sitting next to me n ta-dah, she's the only fren i got for the whole semester... ok, there's this other girl and a fren's fren, so tat makes altogether 3 frens out of 60 student in my class... haih... and even worse, i juz turn down a classmate's invitation to go for a end-of-exam-celebration-party, the last chance in this semester to get to noe other ppl from my class... haih... someone juz throw me a 'loser' hat n i shall gladly wear it now...
studies - so far so good... got nearly all my results already, passed all of them and still waiting for the other 2, shud be able to pass but i hope i can score...
spritually, inner-man or in my case, inner-woman growing stronger but outside-community wise, not so... the original 'gang-ho-ness' of willing to travel so far to church is slowly not sustainable and finding myself slowly not able to accept the church concept here... i miss the big church community back in Malaysia where a lot ppl gather in one place n singing praises out loud...
another thing bout exam time is when u sit in one postion for a very long time, u will notice the different changes of the sky, day in day out... behold the power of Creation!
aren't they beautiful? this is wat happen when ur study table is juz beside a humongous window n besides feel like jumping down from the window itself, u get to see beautiful sunset everyday!
did the personality test again on sunday n found out tat i hav a problem wif my identity... haha... i wonder whether i've really changed or all this while i've been limitting myself to a certain behavior... anyway, tat's not the main point...
this is。。。
i nearly burn down my kitchen weh! but my housemate was there to save the day and his "Kein Problem!" (no big deal) really made my day... shall refrain myself from cooking... -_-
AYA awards is back! plz do check it out here... i was there for the last 2 awards, first time as a spectator n the second time as a volunteer... i was so inspired after the awards n i hope u can experience it the power of a true story too!
yo, finally got myself a new keyboard after so many days of procrastinating, i manage to drag myself to Media Markt and the best thing about Media Markt is tat when u buy anything there n u wanted a refund, they giv u back immediately, no question asked... how cool is tat? (but-maybe-they-see-me-korean-auntie-face-who-dunno-how-to-speak-german)
back to the topic, after a whole semester to unintentional attempt to stay invisible in class, i'm actually shock to see how fast time zoomed pass me n suddenly it's nearly the end of my first uni semester here in Hochschule Offenburg... meaning fast approaching the end-of-sem-exams too... been studying hard this time, hoping to at least pass wif slightly better results than other ppl... and during this period of pre-exam time, i've seen some really weird things going on in class... to cut the story short, we Malaysians are seriously trained to go for exam whereas germans, they don't... one really interesting thing is tat one of my classmate manage to get hold of some leaked questions online n he showed it to the lecturer... needless to say, the lecturer throw a huge tantrum and threatened to have 80 exam questions tat need to be finished in 90 minutes... after hearing tat, i feel like throwing him into the river n feed the poor fishes... but then again, i really prefer to hav objective question instead of subjective, so somehow one way or another, it is a blessing in disguise... hopefully...
i've been travelling a lot here in germany, to church, to meet up wif frens, to ikea, to outlet cities, to visit ppl and the means of transport i use the most is train... and one thing in common i shared wif other train travelers is tat we all carry bags or even luggages... before we travel, we need to make sure we hav everything, ipod, books, water bottle, wallet, money, camera, hand n face lotion, lipbalm, ricola, handphone, jacket, chocolates and anything we could think of in our bags... we felt like the more stuff we bring, the bigger the bag, the more we r prepared for anything... isn't life like this too? we take up things n responsibilities in our daily walk and as time goes by, they become a burden as every step we take n every station we stop by to change to a new train... we think we r prepared, but the fact is the our bags are getting heavier on our way to our destination... then i realise, i m actually on board a train where i don need any baggages, faith is enough to sustain me...
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine Says she wants to look that way But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake And she's always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see That beauty is within your heart And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair Are perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done Anything to get ahead And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come You starve yourself to play the part But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true And he'll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you're not too far To back away be who you are To change your path go another way It's not too late you can be saved If you feel depressed with past regrets The shameful nights hope to forget Can disappear they can all be washed away By the one who's strong can right your wrongs Can rid your fears dry all your tears And change the way you look at this big world He will take your dark distorted view And with His light He will show you truth And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
nice n meaningful song... speaks to most ppl at our age, esp me...
