Keep praying!

Keep those prayers coming for zira, no matter where u are n who u are... Press on to believe!

PANIKKKKKK!!!!

i m facing fear right now... fear of failing exams, fear of speaking words, fear of hurting ppl unintentionally, fear of the future, to summarise it all, fear of the unknown... It all happens one day, when i was sitting in my classroom, staring at the lecturer as usual, n suddenly it hits me, november is slowly passing by n then it's christmas then come exams! Since then, my heart cont to beat so hard tat i can feel it in my throat... Still i went to join my church pastor n some frens for dinner in a nearby city tat night, had a great time just enjoying the fellowship, chatting n getting advices on starting anew wif my quiet time... I decided to ditch my old style of reading the bible word by word to a global understanding of the books to see the different characteristics of God n men... I oso challenge myself to spend more time in the MORNING for my quite time, which means go to bed earlier so as not to affect my at-least-7-hours-beauty-sleep! Hah! N today is the first day in which i ended up snoozing an extra 15 mins instead of the original plan of waking up earlier... Ah well, 4263157846592 days to go! Haha

updates!

went to the ICU for the first time in my life, and saw my friend lying unconsciously on the bed... like wat my mum did to every other patients tat she came across to, i cried out her name hoping tat if she hear ppl coming to visit her, she will at least be encouraged n feel happy... i wanted so much to talk to her and tel her to stay strong no matter wat, but paiseh lah coz her dad is around...

i believe in your complete healing zira! be strong ok?

flu

it is hard to admit tat oneself is sick... ok, i finally declare myself sick after the flu symptoms decided to stayed for days... and it is a season of sickness now...

juz wanna update u all about a senior who is very sick and hospitalized... her conditions are quite unstable, u see her walking to class then lying in bed the next minute... plz do remember her in your prayers...

Tips on how to pack for Germany...

since i m super-duper lazy to post sth significant bout myself, might as well i post sth useful for others...

it happens like this - i was soooooo bored in class today because i can't understand a thing... *will tel u bout tat in my other posts, if there's any... therefore, together wif my housemate aka classmate, Miss L, we decided to list down a few things which we, personally found it important and decided to share wif ppl out there who somehow read this accidentally or purposefully...

1. More food stuff than clothes... trust me, ur fashion sense will change during the first few months in Germany and soon enough, u will be asking urself, y do u brought them here in the first place - in other words, more reason to SHOP!!!)

2. Stationeries (in other words, everything u needed for studies, juz to name a few, eg calculator, pens, the 3 diff size of mechanical pencils from GMI etc etc...)

3. Rice cooker - this thing works magic...

4. Medicine for flu and sorethroat - needless to say, the first winter experience for most of us is not exactly the best one...

5. For the religious ppl (like me and miss L) do bring your holy book along because it is not easy to find one in the language u REALLY understand... for muslims, it is also advisable to bring along ur sejadah... n those who manage to settle in Offenburg will of course be provided wif one because i do happen to hav one by accident... haha

6. Accesories - if you do wear them... miss L mentioned tat it is damn expensive here (obviously i don really wear them)

7. I personally don recommend bringing any books because you only hav 25 kg to spare for food and clothes only...

8. If i could turn back the time now, all i will put in my luggage is local spices n seasonings, all sorts of maggi perencah i can find in Giant, bak kut teh, laksa sauce, kompia, kampua, ikan bilis, dried scallops, dried prawns... *my mouth juz watered thinking bout them...

Achtung! edited : (new things added)
9. Bring a LAN cable... ur first 3 weeks of internet connection lies in this thing...

10. Bring extra biometric photos... u might juz need it for emergency purposes...

anyone has anything to add? u r most welcome to!

:-]

This makes my day...

Imagine this scenario, it was a cold autumn afternoon and i was leaning on a bicycle stand wif miss L (not miss Loser) while waiting for the bus... suddenly an old man who was sitting inside the bus stop knocked on the glass divider which caught my attention...

immediately the thought that i might be scolded again zapped across my mind because of some bad experience wif old ppl in germany... he beckoned me to him and reluctantly i went up to him, pleading in my mind - please don scold me for leaning on the bicycle stand!

wif both fist reached out, he murmured sth which i cannot understand but nevertheless i think he was trying to ask me to imitate him so i did... i held out my fists and surprisingly, he gripped both my hands and start pulling me - i was having the shock of my life thinking tat he might do sth erm not nice to me... however, he was actually trying to stand up and was asking me to support him... and after a few seconds, he finally managed to stand up using me as a support and gav me the biggest and most sincere smile i've ever seen... he thanked me and in return i gav him my widest smile wif my eyes squinted to a line and wished him a very good day ahead...

so tat's wat i wanna share today and to me, it was such a great honour to be able to help the old man standing up... a great day indeed!

Talking to myself...

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found

The lost get found
-Britt Nicole-

Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me

Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you


Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way

Bachelor-Abschlussarbeit / Praxissemester beim CERN / Genf‏

Trust me... i really really really wanted to update my blog but i find absolutely nth interesting apart from my east europe trip to blog bout and the main reason being lazy... hahas... but decided to share one email tat really caught my eye...

it wud be really really really cool if i can manage to secure a practical place there in the future... wow...

keeping my fingers crossed!

missing everyone

sitting in front of the laptop browsing at ppl's fb profile... yup, tat's wat i've been doing for the past hour in another city in my fren's room and realising that so many things happen when i'm not really around and busy travelling around east europe...

gosh i miss those ppl! esp those from CA last time... we'd gone thru so much together, so much fun, laughter, tears... and slowly i m beginning to lose contact wif them, one by one... sooner or later, we will turn out to be complete strangers to each other and i don wan tat to happen...

it is so hard to keep in touch wif ppl if u don take the extra effort and time to do it... and esp in a new environment where ur life seems to be always occupied by sth, then the priority of 'frens' u r willing to invest ur time on tends to be neglected...

to let go or not to let go... sigh

Przez żołądek do serca

i m off again to the country which is using the language above...

see ya!

Euro road trip...

got a car, pack some clothes and off i go to random places wif my aunt...

ciao!

Plans...

i hate making plans...
i can't make plans...

because my plans never work out!!!!

ok.. this is juz a filler post in case u din realise...

i dunno wat to update!!!??? anyone interested in anything at all?

Tanah Air

juz watch a short video about Malaysia from 15Malaysia and wud like to wish all Malaysians..

"Salam Kemerdekaan!!!"

from a proud Malaysian

Is your Christian walk just a talk?

Meet Lille, a girl whom i recently befriended in frankfurt... She shares of a life of amazing faith, moving bravely away from her hometown to frankfurt just because of her calling... although she doesn't hav a job yet but she continue to trust tat God will provide... thank you for your faithfulness, it really encourages me...

and many thanks to all the ppl whom i've stayed wif for one week, thanks for all the unending support you guys showed, eg to help me wif the EE exam by practicing wif me...

-updates-

better update this blog before it turns sour... haha...

juz came back from 2 weeks of german language course and will be heading to frankfurt again for the whole of next week... so don be surprise if u keep seeing the post for another dunno-how-many-years again...

ciao!

Liebe...

Liebe ist geduldig und freundlich,
Sie ist nicht verbissen, sie prahlt nicht
und schaut nicht auf andere herab.
Liebe verletzt nicht den Anstand
und sucht nicht den eigenen Vorteil,
sie lässt sich nicht reizen,
sie rechnet das Böse nicht zu,
sie freut sich nicht über die Ungerechtigkeit,
sie freut sich aber an der Wahrheit.
Sie erträgt alles, sie glaubt alles, sie hofft alles, sie duldet alles.
Die Liebe hört niemals auf.


Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.


I saw the german version of 1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8 at the back of a wedding invitation and could not recall the english version of it. So i look up for it on the internet and was quite surprise to see the differences between this 2 usage of the language. I've posted both english and german verses here so u can see the difference (if n only if u can understand both, if not, sorry lah... haha)

Summary

i noe i sound like a 100-year-old here but i must say this... time really flies... i've juz finish the last paper today and it is officially summer holidays for me... therefore, it is time i look back at the first 6 months of my life here in germany n summarise it in a couple of words...

life has been great here, enjoying while suffering at the same time... gone thru ups n downs n i can say i've given my best in everything tat i do, well, not everything... one thing tat i really really really regretted is not being able to socialise wif the locals well, esp wif housemates n classmates... when i first arrived, there's always this gang-ho-ness of telling the world tat ' i can conquer germany!!!!' or 'i will blend in among germans n try not to form a kampung malaysia'... truth is, it is not at all tat easy... first day in class, i tried to step out of my comfort zone n approach someone, a girl sitting next to me n ta-dah, she's the only fren i got for the whole semester... ok, there's this other girl and a fren's fren, so tat makes altogether 3 frens out of 60 student in my class... haih... and even worse, i juz turn down a classmate's invitation to go for a end-of-exam-celebration-party, the last chance in this semester to get to noe other ppl from my class... haih... someone juz throw me a 'loser' hat n i shall gladly wear it now...

studies - so far so good... got nearly all my results already, passed all of them and still waiting for the other 2, shud be able to pass but i hope i can score...

spritually, inner-man or in my case, inner-woman growing stronger but outside-community wise, not so... the original 'gang-ho-ness' of willing to travel so far to church is slowly not sustainable and finding myself slowly not able to accept the church concept here... i miss the big church community back in Malaysia where a lot ppl gather in one place n singing praises out loud...

tat's all folks!

what happen during exam time... part 2

another thing bout exam time is when u sit in one postion for a very long time, u will notice the different changes of the sky, day in day out... behold the power of Creation!








aren't they beautiful? this is wat happen when ur study table is juz beside a humongous window n besides feel like jumping down from the window itself, u get to see beautiful sunset everyday!

what happen during exam time... part 1

let the pics tel u...

innocent looking cup eh...

closer :


closer...

yikesss!!!

by the time i finish drinking the whole cup of coffee, i found this... ewwwww

Help! i'm lost!

I will lift up my eyes to the hills -
From where comes my help?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.