To whom it may concerns...

In 3 months time, no one will be talking about this anymore.  Just like what has happened in Chernobyl.

And our generation is to be blame, the government, the people who agree and even the people who disagree, we all play a part in this decision.

'All this should not even have started,' commented a german colleague of mine when discussing about this issue of the possiblity of a nuclear breakdown.  He then looks out of the window, staring blankly at the direction of a atomic power station# situated not so far away from this town, along the river Main.

The blogger is talking about the recent plans of building an atomic power plant in her beloved home country.  She is currenty studying in Germany, where 20 nuclear power plants were built in the 50s n 60s and all of them are scheduled to be shut down by 2020.

'It does make sense, after all there is just no solution for the waste.  You can give me one thousand reasons why nuclear power is good but it just take 1 reason to rebuke them all.  The risk is far too great for a terrible accident.'

# Kernkraftwerk Grafenrheinfeld, 30km from the city of Schweinfurt

Updates!

i started my internship in Sax (not real name of coz...) on Monday n hav been eating lunch alone for 2 days already... is there anyone out there who wud like to eat wif me???

some of the funny scenes during my 3 days of internship :

Scene 1 :
Due to the big area of the manufacturing plant , i practically jog to my department, which is situtated at the other end of the proximity... this morning, a worker who was having his morning puff saw me n say to me  :

'Du bist ja auf dem Weg zur Arbeit, nicht zum Flug.' 
-You are on your way to work, not to catch a flight.

me : laughs n walk 5 big steps and continue jogging to my building...


Scene 2
for the 200th time someone came to me wif a sad smile on their face...

'so is it really bad back home?'

stun for 3 seconds, i think to myself 'WHAT? price hike on kampua again???!! NOOOO!!!!'

10 seconds later...

'oh, they are asking about Japan'
'i am from Malaysia actually but i heard it's really bad in Japan...
(trying to explain without letting them down)

haih... shall read up more about the nuclear reactor breakdown so as to have conversation starters wif ppl around me...

Checklist

1.  Pay rent and deposit for new house -  check
2.  Set up appointment for new hoouse - check
3.  Clearing up old house - check
4.  Print out all boarding passes - check
5.  Email sponsor about the trip - check
6.  Camera all cleared up n fully charged - check
5.  Passport - check

all set and ready to go!!!

i.is.alone

i felt a sudden rush of sadness on my way back from church today, knowing tat there will be no one at my hostel when i reach there... miss L has moved to the swabian part of the state n will start her practical on valentines day... all this while i've always taken her presense for granted, now i must get use to staying alone for a while... come visit me plz!

went snowboarding for the second time after having the first taste of the adrenaline rush derived from it... this thing is so addictive, although i ended up having a stiff neck n sore arms, not to mention a swollen ankle after straining my left foot the whole day... now is the only time i hope it will snow more in the coming days!

now tat exams are nearly over and after i write my official last english paper tomorrow, i will be busy wif my packing and painting of the house... signing off now... til next time!

Reminiscence

i remember when i was in primary sch, i went for art classes at one of the shoplots in sibu behind Hong Leong bank... and during tat time there's no handphone yet so after each class i wud go to the nearest bookstore while waiting for my parents to fetch me... n i just loved the stationery section n wud always look at the rulers, ballpens, pencil box (remember the metal ones which we all loved) n sth that never fails to catch my eyes is the very expensive mechanical pencil...

fast forward to present times, i juz received a parcel from home n it includes a THE ultimate mechanical pencil... it's a dream come true! thank you mum and dad!

Racing with the mountains...

Lately everyone around me has been in a negative mood, mainly due to exams. I sense a call, to make this world palatable while not losing my saltiness, to be in the world but not of the world. How can i benefit the world if i am like the world?

I might be racing with the mountains, but i have the advantage, i can move while the mountains only stay still.

Create in me a clean heart, O God; 
and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from thy presence; 
and take not thy holy spirit from me.
Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; 
and uphold me [with thy]free spirit.
[Then] will I teach transgressors thy ways; 
and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, 
O God, thou God of my salvation: 
[and] my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
O Lord, open thou my lips; 
and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.

Be the change!

Strength

my holidays are slowly coming to an end... the thing i really enjoy most during the holidays is the skype calls wif my family (thanks to my frens i got a new webcam now!)

throughout the different calls i hav wif family, not all are good news... a cousin of mine juz pass away and it really saddens me when i call my aunt who still grieved the lost of her son... until now i still cannot accept the fact tat someone can juz leave us anytime without us realising it... my mum asks me to call my aunt and i m glad tat i did call her despite the fear inside me of not knowing wat to say to her... but the best thing i can do now is to be a listener and to pray for her... i've always thought that i am still consider to be young at this age to experience such things... yet another family member departing reminds me tat nth is too young or too early to happen...

Auntie Margaret, plz stay strong! i believe ah kok is now free from sufferings and is looking over u... to cousin Devano bin Hasbi, otherwise known as ah kok gor gor - Al Fatihah...

*it's a sad sad sad new year for me...

My christmas present for myself!

Minnie socks!!! thick n warm... no more cold feet!

Don't worry...

Mahlzeit!

means 'mealtime' in german... i dunno y but i keep hearing ppl shouting it to each other b4 lunchbreak, funny thing is only in this semester i realise it, i wonder wat hav i been doing for the 2 years of my life in germany...

anyway, back to 'mahlzeit', i've always enjoy the time i spend eating together wif my housemate, usually it'll be basmati rice straight from the rice cooker with vegies (if i m cooking) and throat-choking spicy sauce (if she's cooking) wif chicken... n we talk a lot when we eat...

lately the topic has always been circulating around 'marriage', mainly due to many acquaintances n frens getting proposed n married around this time and she has some thoughts about it too n shared about her plans in the next 3 years before she graduate n wat is she going to do after graduation... n she asked me whether i'm ready for marriage! then it got me thinking, hold on a sec! there's still so much things i haven't accomplish as a single-n-stil-mingling person, my plans of europe trip wif parents, volunteering for london olympics (just send out my application last week), my african dream, gap years, short-term-mission-b4-i-turn-25-pledge etc etc... (sorry grace, i've been seriously thinking about the trans-asia-trip but i felt like it doesn't benefit others much so i'll giv it a skip)

so the plan is, to accomplish everything b4 i graduate, coz after tat will be a whole new world n so many things to consider - time factor, financial status, relationship n the list goes on... time oh time, plz wait!

Mary stayed out all night...

Spoiler alert!

매리는 외박중 / Maerineun Oebakjoong

The latest craze of my life now... the only thing i look forward to on Mondays... omg, they are going to find out tat all this while 'the marriage' is fake and tat JGS is really starting to like MGY! can't wait for next monday!

my dream hair, red-purple wif wavy bob...

Decisions, decisions...

the time has come...

my fringe has now outgrown my eyebrows, time to decide, to cut or not to cut, to keep or not to keep the fringe, m i at peace wif my heart? do i feel reluctant to cut it? will it affect my head? are my eyes happy that they will be covered? Will my ears catch a cold when they are exposed? so much things to consider!

juz a preview of my series of reflection on 2010! time to call it a wrap!

Yours truly

Things planned for today...

prepare for communion on sunday, class, grocery shopping, christmas market, glühwein, dinner with Rolf

if i continue to blog so shortly, i might as well switch to twitter or tumblr... haha

To-do-list

1. Call taxi fella - check
2. Call phone company - check
3. Call company Z* - check
4. Don't jump from balcony - check

What is this feeling?

butterflies in your stomach...

Wonders...

It has been a while since i feel like this... restlessness - fidgeting in my seat as i m typing this now... the reason being - my first interview for my internship next tuesday!


once again, God shows me that He can and still work wonders in my life... n yours too!

feel like taking photos...

so i shall update u all wif a photo post...

Ah gong



Ah bao

both of them together...

Be myself

There's not many ppl out there who let me be myself when i am around with them. That's the main identity issue i face when i am wif different ppl because i don't know how to react to them anymore. To some ppl i can easily be myself, to others, i just hav to put on a mask.

This post is for those who trust me and appreciate me for being who i am, the real me. Thank you very much!

btw, i juz found a verse that really strike me regarding wat i faced last week :

James 1:19
Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry. For man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.

Just in time to learn this precious lesson!

Help!

trying to do CPR on my drowning N82... more updates later...

#update!
my phone was resurrected from the dead!!! hair dryer works wonders i tel u! my N82 is such a strong-hearted phone who doesn't giv up on it's owner yet!