Sth fishy camp

无题

不知道自己可以把心里的不愉快隐藏多久，只希望它快点离我而去，我不想再被它给绑住，每天生活在害怕之中。也非常感谢许多的朋友，在我不开心时，在我身旁开导我，听我说话，给我少许有建立性的劝告。真是谢谢你们，没有你们，我不知道怎样度过这次的难关。只怪我自己，这么小器，别人说个一两句，就无端端生闷气，我觉得自己好无聊哦！也怪我自己，没事找事做，没话找话说，惹上了麻烦，结果自己又跟自己过不去。唉！真是的！

Valentine's day...

this year, i've learn one old thing again... tat man fails, but He will never ever fails u...

"For God so loVed the world,
****That He gAve
******* His onLy
*******BegottEn
********** SoN
*************That whoever
*****Believes In Him
******Should Not perish,
****But have Everlasting life. (John 3:16)
taken from taylorscf

valentine's day is nth but a day of catching up... i've been too far away, busy wif preparations for an event... i always tot i did a lot for it, i've been too proud... since i've been very used to working wif the CA committee, i tend to feel comfortable working wif another group other than CA... but this new experience is totally different than working wif CA... in CA we are all like a family and we had a purpose in mind when we all serve... when working wif ppl outside of CA, i din manage to get out of my comfort zone when working wif CA n i stumble... hard... real hard... being let down by ppl whom u trusted n respected is one thing, not appreciated is another...

the aftermath of this experience make me appreciate ppl around me more n also take criticism in wif an open heart... though it hurts very much...

i need ur prayers ppl, it might take some time for me to be healed completely n only by Him...

Achtung!!!

German week is coming up this weekend from 16th to 18th February, Saturday to Monday. For more information please visit here --> got lotsa stuff, not only regarding German week but also my german lecturer... haha

also, there will be an exhibition going on during German week n we've got food all the way for Germany... yum yum... for more infos, visit here

p/s : i did not get paid to do this... although i really hope to!!!

原来。。。

原来这世界上是有很多在背后默默耕耘的人，不求名利，只求把自己的本分做到最好，让整个组织能顺利的运行。从这些人身上，我学到了许多，从最简单的谦虚说起。从以前到现在，总觉得自己做得最好，从不听别人的劝告。但是经过了这次的磨练，让我大开眼界， 原来主办一项赛事不是那么的简单，是得经过很多人的经手及合作才能顺利地进行。从这些让人敬佩的人身上，我也学到，要事事以大会为主，不要为了一点小事阿，而拖延了许多宝贵的时间。也不要为了一点小事而伤了和气，团队精神最重要。

神啊，请原谅我的无知与自私吧！这可把我身边一起工作的伙伴给苦坏了。

Keep smiling...

It’s one of the best advertisements for God… it makes people wonder what you’ve got…


another reminder for myself

what patricia means???

What Patricia Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

infatuation

can't believe i was caught in this... i really hav to calm myself down n be still to listen to the inner voice inside me... some ppl might call it 'love' but all this is a bit too rushy...

gosh, being 20 this year really freaks me out... i need more wisdom n guidance to deal wif this... this teeny-weeny small fear inside me is developing more n more each day as my 20th birthday is nearing (is there a word like this???) anyway, to put it in a simple way, desperation might be the suitable word for it... must hav obtained this syndrome from my dearest roomate n single frens around me... ehem...

i shall not elaborate more on this... this is meant to be an emo post n it shall remain as one too...

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

Strength and hope

你是力量，
是我的力量，
无比的力量
触摸我心。

你是盼望，
是我的盼望，
无比的盼望
触摸我心。

在你深厚恩典里，
以你圣名的大能，
你兴起我，
你兴起我。

不息的爱，
比山更坚固，
比海洋更深，
触摸我心。

神啊，你的爱，
触及达到诸天，
你的是信实，
触及至天际。


最近反反复复得听了这首歌好多遍，被它的旋律所吸引，被它的歌词所感动。虽然是一首英文歌曲，却被它的华文歌词打从心底更感动到。

Life

ok... i admit it is kind of hard to write blog in chinese but nevertheless i shall persevere n try my best to improve...

juz a sudden thought on life...

as i grew older, i start to ponder on the purpose of life more n more... then there comes a time when u realise sth very important tat u miss out when u were young (gosh feel so old now)

The bravest juniors i ever met in my life... u guys are the best!!!

however, the worship team for the recent CA who brave through a car accident which fails to take any lives reminded me in one of their songs...

the lyrics on the screen says "i simply live"

i simply live...

Find us faithful

We're pilgrims on the journey
Of the narrow road
And those who've gone before us line the way
Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary
Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses
Let us run the race not only for the prize
But as those who've gone before us
Let us leave to those behind us
The heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives

Chorus:
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone
And our children sift though all we've left behind
May the clues that they discover and the memories they uncover
Become the light that leads them to the road we each must find

刚从查经小组回来，感到非常非常地感动和感慨，我的学妹们真是一群既勇敢又诚恳的女生。
现在的我好像看着女儿们长大的妈妈，觉得把所有事情交给他们就放心了，所以就想起这首歌。
歌词说到我们现在所作所为，将会影响到我们的后代，希望学妹们会'find us faithful'
而以耶稣作为榜样，成为人人都看齐的对象，活出基督。从这些学妹们身上学到了许多道理，
从他们的见证里看得到主耶稣基督是他们生命中的唯一的依靠。虽然她们身上都背着许多的
不为人知的负担，但她们没有因此而对上帝为她们安排的未来而感到害怕，迷失自。她们
坚持着诚恳的一颗心，全心全意向着上帝，成为他所喜悦的儿女。感谢神把她们送来这里，
成为这里的一个为你发光的灯塔，照耀了所有人的前程。感谢主！

安静

演唱: 约书亚乐团

藏我在 翅膀阴下
遮盖我 在祢大能手中

当大海翻腾波涛汹涌
我与祢展翅暴风上空
父祢仍做王在洪水中
我要安静知祢是神

我灵安息 在基督里
祢大能 使我安然信靠

我很喜欢这一首歌, 尤其在遇到问题时让我不感到压力.

该开始磨炼我的华语了

最近参与了教会的华语翻译事工，没办法，只好把藏在脑袋里几百年没用到的方块字一个一个的挖出来，搅尽了脑汁，只为了能把牧师的英文讲道翻译好，希望有一天上场时不会怯场。

终于写完了，花了不少时间，比写英文文章多出很多倍时间。可是好开心哟！！！

random

"When we become believers, it's as if we have signed up to be part of God's Army, to be soldiers for Christ,"

Huckabee, 2008

am i being one?

haiz....

got bitten... nuff said...

感谢主让我保佑我的身上的肉。也希望将来这件事不会再重复了。好恐怖哟！

part sanguine n part choleric

did a personality test today wif auntie Michele this morning at auntie Laura's youth centre...

*drum rolls....

turns out tat i m half sanguine, half choleric, nadai melancholy n a little (juz a teeny weeny bit) phlegmatic...

to some of u out there, this might sound total alien so u better stop reading now, turn back n look at other more interesting blog post out there...

this is juz a reminder, or perhaps a warning to myself to the hazardous result if i continue to dwell comfortably in my so-called preferred personality...

As a sanguine, i hav the tendency to look good on the surface, trying to make up n giv excuses for the mistakes i made n maybe even preach a sermon base on my knowledge but not depending on the holy spirit. I can be exaggerating a lot n self-centred as well as saying sth but not doing it.

As a choleric, i can be bossy n always think tat i'm always right. I'm short-tempered n stubborn n always like the idea of being in control. I hav absolutely no patience when it came to dealing wif ppl i don like, which make me a time-bomb.

Through this test, i learn to examine myself n also to noe more about other personality. Most of all, it teaches me to love other ppl UNCONDITIONALLY, no matter which personality they hav, which makes it easier for me to make new frens. Jesus Himself is made up of all 4 personality. He had the story-telling ability like a sanguine, the leadership quality of a choleric, the planning mindset of a melancholy and the worker spirit like the phlegmatic.

It's stil a long way to go for me as i move an to another new year. I hope i can be more melancholy n phlegmatic n less of sanguine n choleric. Hope one day i can hav all 4 personality. Tat will be so cool. Tat way, i can make more frens then.

Things to thank for n things to look forward to

Grace. Thank God for Air-asia. By God’s grace, I had the chance to train my patience when the flights are delayed.

Grace. Thank God for the chance to further my studies overseas. It is actually by God’s grace that I was offered a scholarship though there are so many people around me who are much more worthy of it.

Grace. Thank God for the eye-opening experience. By God’s grace, I was exposed to things of this country that I feel I can make a difference to it.

Grace. Thank God for a good CF. By God’s grace, I was called to be a committee in my school’s underground CF which I learn so much through serving in the transportation and cell group ministry.

Grace. Thank God for NOT answering my prayers. By God’s grace, some of my prayers were not answered the way I wanted them to be. God always has His timing and His plan and timing for us is always the best.

Grace. Thank God for a good church. By God’s grace I was introduced to a good pastor in Sibu when I needed to find a church here. I really learn a lot and grow more mature spiritually in the church which I am now attending.

Grace. Thank God for being there during trials and difficulties. By God’s grace I was able to stand up once again when exam papers were handed down and when I was just so disappointed on myself for not performing well.

Grace. Thank God for great new friends. By God’s grace, He sends me friends that really encourage and show me the way of living out good Christian life. I can always consult them either in my studies or even scriptures I don’t quite understand.

Grace. Last but not least, thank God for the Grace that died on the cross for my sins.

Grace. Tat's all i wan to thank for 2007.

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Eileen called this morning n i was sooooo touched by it. I was so happy to learn tat she is having the time of her life at Ps. Ha's house right now. We chatted for a few minutes n she had to lower down her voice so tat she won't disturb Ps. Ha's sleep. During one of the conversation, she asked

"So wat are ur new year resolutions?"

Too shocked by her sudden question, i stammered n answer

"Ehh... maybe make more new frens..."

I was surprise by my own answer too. It juz came out of my mouth like it is the most natural answer one can think of. It is like asking ppl whether they are eating Kampua at the coffee shop every morning in Sibu. It is like asking ppl whether they are having their dinner when they see a family at a restaurant. (typical Sibu-an behavior)

"Xia kampua ah? Xia ba ba oh!" (Eating kampua is it? Eat more!)
"Xia man ah? Xia ba li giang oh!" (Having dinner is it? Must eat more!)


2 of the most common ,ways to start a conversation in Sibu. Although u see ppl eating kampua, its consider normal to ask whether he or she are having kampua or not. Strange as it may seem, its normal here.

Back to the topic. I guess my new year resolution is erm... make more new frens... alright then... its make more new frens then... the others... lazy to think... its not like i'll keep them anyway... better think of only 1 n then keep it...

So strangers out there!!! Here i come to make frens wif u all.....

huahuahuahua... *evil laugh

Christmas Procession and Sibu Flood

i hope my fren benny doesn't mind if i link his post here...

hey ppl,
if u wanna noe more bout Sibu annual Christmas procession and Sibu flood...

Plz click here

Christmas at Longhouse

The weather was oh-so-wonderful despite the flood in Sibu town... we finally reach the longhouse after the 3 hours bumpy bus ride from Sibu... (not even genting's roller-coaster can beat tat bumpy ride) when we reach, we had to walk another 1 to 2 km of stony path to the longhouse...

Look how long the house is!!! Endless...

Some of the aunties who could not stand the heat...

The special gateway tat the ppl from the longhouse build to welcome us... the coconut leaves are such beautiful sight...

All waiting for Rev Tiong to cut the ribbon for the opening ceremony... the ppl there are so cute, they insisted on singing a lagu sembahyang which we had no idea wat to sing so in the end we sang "We wish you a merry Christmas"

Traditional iban costume... (esp to all west malaysians, don think u guys see this b4) hehe

View from inside the gate...

The longhouse folks are so helpful to put on fans for us...

Dora n Andrea!!!

Jonathan n Alan

The decos...

The one end of the longhouse where we had our Christmas service...

Look at the effort they put to decorate the whole corridor... imagine how much colour paper they had to prepare to decorate such LONG corridor...

Call to worship... but i don understand a thing...

For those anak bandar... guess u never see this b4!!! ha ha

2 of the naughtiest kids i ever met in my entire life...

Blessed Christmas everyone!!!

Christmas in Sibu...

Although i was down wif a major flu which cause me to lose my voice for 3 days, Christmas in Sibu is very much exciting n fun fun fun!!!

First there is 'the' camp which i had to walk on water to the bus station (because sibu was flooded tat time) to reach Mukah... i had a prayer camp last year at the same resort n this time, all the good old memory juz came back to me...

Kingwood Resort, Mukah

Such a beautiful place...

Sabrina n me (not forgetting frosty the snowman)

Celebrating Chu Kion's 21st birthday by the romantic beach...
(hiak hiak... i smell sth fishy...)

Out of nowhere she was squashed wif raw eggs n the yummy chocolate cake...

Poor cake...

then we all proceed to another midnight activity - UNO n pringles n more pringles

3 jokers... sigh

Then the journey continues wif a Christmas procession around Sibu town...

Sabrina n Nyuk Hung

Jac n Ah Fong

All ready in green n red for the parade...

They claimed to be high on the spirit... ehem

The beautifully decorated vehicles...

Accompanied by banners...

May you celebrate Christmas with Jesus this year!

Set the world on fire

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it’s burning bright for You
It’s everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There’s nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father’s hands

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me

I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah

I’m gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

by Britt Nicole

Thoughts on benchwork

during my 3 weeks of GMI, the one thing tat impact me the most is the benchwork... it is through benchwork tat i realise sth important... i get to know more about Jesus's life before he went out to preach the gospel...

one day, my fren came to me while i was sawing my metal workpiece n told me :
"u must be good in this."

(quite confuse by this statement) i ask back :
"Why?"

"Coz u r a Christian"
(what he meant is Jesus being a carpenter)

Then i realise... so this is how Jesus spend most of his time doing... so i manage to hav a glimpse of Jesus life...

no wonder He can be physically so strong because it really take a lot of effort to saw even a small part of the metal workpiece...

no wonder He can be so patience when dealing wif ppl who do not understand Him because it really take a lot of time juz to make the surface smooth n flat (90 degrees to the horizontal...)

no wonder He can be so careful about things He say or He does because when handling the workpiece, we cannot afford to make mistakes otherwise it cannot be make up again...

no wonder He can be so precise in the things He say to make sure the message gets through His ppl because when hitting the hammer, we must be precise otherwise u will end up wif a sore thumb like me...

no wonder He is so well prepared in His ministry because when drilling a hole, we must first prepare a guider by punching a small hole on the surface...

and sometimes, i even feel tat Jesus is like the workpiece, so willingly giv up His life for us so tat we can be saved...

there are also times i feel like we are the workpiece, we must be willing to offer ourselves to be drilled, punched, sawed, filed, smoothened, flattened, corrected etc so tat we can be the final masterpiece...

benchwork is not a bad thing after all... (now i juz hope i did not fail my electric class) haha

Random stuff bout me...(2)

i get this inspiration to blog this thanz to my fren lawson...

five things you don't know about me... (u probably don't want to noe too)

1. Don't ever dare to NOT make any response when i talk to you. A simple smile, laugh, even a tweek in the eye will do. Don't give me a this-is-just-a-statement-and-not-a-question-so-i-don-need-to-response look when i talk to you. I am so gonna erupt in front of u...

2. I walk a lot when i m revising. I can't sit still on a chair for even a sheer 20 minutes. i can't control it too... every 10 to 20 minutes i must stand up and walk around a few steps b4 i sit down and continue to my studies... its kind of my reflex action

3. I don't believe in love at first sight but i do believe in happily ever after.

4. I don't drink milk. Not tat i m allergic to it but i juz don like the taste of it. However, i do like dairy products. I juz don drink raw milk or milk in any form of unprocessed state.

5. I hate liars. nuff said.

Overwhelmed...

Had so much breakthrough for the past month... the testimonies juz keep coming n multiplying... so open ur eyes n hearts to see the wonderful things tat happen to me last month...

First was about the loudness in some worship session... i noe i always get affected by the fact tat the worship team is too loud, not only CA but church as well... i had the tendency to judge worship team according to the loudness... (maybe its partly due to the fact tat i was from a conservative home church) but tat cannot be the reason i judge ppl, conservative or not conservative, everyone is the same in God's eye... i was so ignorant n arrogant to believe tat the real worship team need to suit the congregation to lead them to a worship mood... i was SO wrong!!! i was reminded n rebuked publicly by a pastor in church during one of the sunday morning service... to me, the worship team was exceptionally LOUD tat morning, n i was sitting in one of the front rows in church, juz behind the deacons n elders... i was so stupid to let the ways of the evil to affect me n so i tot to myself, "how can i worship wif this kind of music..." i let my pride take over n i was so stuck there at tat moment... i could not help but thinking of moving to the back n then it hits me... y m i doing this, letting MUSIC to decide whether i had a good or bad or loud or quite P&W session? God reminded me tat music is not the main thing in a P&W session... worship is between me n God, not some music or lyrics ... i could not help but laugh at my little faith... however, i hav a great God... however small my faith is, He is stil there for me... after tat, pastor went up on stage n asked to worship team to stay back... apparently i m not the only one who thinks tat the worship team is loud... so i tot pastor is going to tegur them not to be too loud next time but instead he start to ask the drummer to play his drum... of coz lah, if u play alone n the whole congregation is looking at u, u sure play soft soft de... then pastor really starts to get a bit agitated n asked the drummer, "Hav u done ur best for God? then it hits me... preach it pastor!!! i start to feel ashame n guilty... after hearing this, the drummer hit the drumset wif all his heart n mind n soul n suddenly... i don feel tat he is loud lor... then the guitar, bass, piano all went in together n worship begins... this time, wif another perspective... although sitting at the third row, i felt the peace in me even though i could feel the drumbeats banging on my heart... 'thud thud... thud thud...' it was as if God is knocking on my heart but before tat i was too ignorant to notice it n open my heart for Him... worship is after all between individual n God... after the service, i felt so convicted because i was the one going around poking at CA's worship team being sometimes too loud n i let it affect my worship in some of the P&W session... how could i stop ppl from giving their best to God by playing the drums (sorry amos...) or guitar or piano or organ wif all the heart n soul??? Lord, forgive me for i had been so ignorant to You... take away my pride n help me swallow it...

Second was a lighter one... haha... it happen on a saturday when i was planning to go to my aunt's place... she's staying wif my cousin at kota damansara so as usual i had to go there by public transport ALONE which includes the one i dislike most - TAXI... this time, i prayed before going, hoping tat there might be some juniors who are going to ktm station wif me at the same time so tat i can tumpang along... i remember the last time when i travelled alone, God always send ppl to send me to ktm station... this time, amazingly i saw a tiny n ponytailed girl at the bus stop n so i called out "ERINNNnnn" ... i found out tat she too, is on her way to ktm station to go to her sister place... wow, first testimony of the day, God had send another person again... so on the way to the esso busstop (the place where all the taxi lined up preying for their next victim) another amazing thing happen, there was this rapid KL stopping there wif the door wide open... apparently tat was the first time Erin took rapid KL to ktm station coz she din noe tat rapid goes to ktm station too... so happily we boarded the bus wif only RM1 instead of RM4,5 or 6 charged by the taxi driver... when we reach the station, we saw tat a train juz pass by so we tot the next one will not be arriving til 20 minutes later so erin took her time to buy her ticket while i waited coz i got touch'n go... but in 5 minutes time, another train arrived n erin was half way queuing up for her ticket... but God never bless His children a little bit only but He continue to shower His favour on us... we tot tat we could not make it since the door of the train is already closed so again we took out time to walk slowly across the bridge to the other platform... but when we walked, we did not see the train moving so i decide to giv it a shot by running down the stairs n press the button beside the door n at tat moment, i truly believe tat miracles do happen... the door actually opened... we went in the train speechless, in awe at the wonderful things tat had happen to us on the way... we felt God's presence was so strong tat erin n i were so overwhelmed... God's favour is really showering us tat we believe non of this would happen if it is not bcoz of God...

Last but not least, i could not stop praising Him for all the wonderful things He has done, is doing n will be doing in my life...

God is good, all the time...
And all the time, God is good...

Amen

Unplugged!! One thing u cannot miss...

Yo ppl!!!! Mia Palencia is singing at unplugged!!! she's the best jazz singer i ever heard... anyone interested plz contact me or cheng ing

the P word ending wif C

dunno y during exam times i tend to update n online more... one way of destressing maybe? but anyway, hav been reading a lot from the internet these few days... mostly about the *ahem highly forbidden *hem hem (sorry, was juz clearing throats) starts wif P and end wif C, n mostly about the annual conference of a certain party who doesn't exist in sarawak, n hopefully never will...

haha... i noe i shud not be saying this coz i m a certain *hem ehem scholar but sometimes i cannot help myself by laughing at some of the comments of certain ppl, some princess maybe... and i read some really cool blogs, one of them is none other than our ex-prime minister (do u noe tat minister is the other word for servant, hmmm... i wonder...) daughter has a blog n she's the coolest blogger in Malaysia... ok i shall leave the rest to Si Han... he's da man in this topic, i m juz merely a newbie...

btw, eunice's family came n broght us this :
her family is the coolest family i've ever met... imagine sending fruits by mail!!! i wan too!!!

YEA!!! kompia!!!

look at the size of the kompia in sitiawan...

Picture of the day:
Rumour has it tat if u ate a banana, u will get smarter for 3 hours after tat... i tried it during my chem test... wud it work? wait til i get my result...

Malaysia need ppl like him!!!!!

Congratz to Dr Kenny Lee Kian Yee for being The Most Outstanding Youth in Malaysia of the year 2007... click here to see the news report on AYA dream Malaysia awards

ok... i admit i voted him because he serve in Sarawak... but later its his spirit tat touched n inspired me to really go to the basic of being a servant... tat is to give up everything n be obedient...

i was actually at the AYA awards which is held in KLPAC in the midst of my final exam... ppl asked me why did i go??? my answer is simply... "i feel like i shud be there to witness ordinary ppl doing extraordinary things for Malaysia..."

to me, all nominees are already winners... n i think wat they did is so much greater than wat the boss n his cabinet is doing... as a scholar, i really felt tat some of the money tat the government used on me n my fellow frens from all over Malaysia(esp those who drive merz n branded cars to sch) shud be contributed to those who really need it... Dr Kenny even had to steal from the hospital to help ppl in the ulu areas who are juz so short of basic medical equipments, not to say those canggih machines (eg scanner, computer aided surgical robot) when he was receiving his price, he was talking about how an area of Long Lama,(which is as big as pahang) the area in which he is serving as a doctor now, has only 1 doctor, that is himself... how can ppl be as selfless as he can be??? looking at myself, i felt so ashamed... i was even thinking of the job prospect when i choose the course tat i opted for...

the performance at the awards is simply life changing... one of them is the "macarena" dance which is considered so cliche, except this time, it was performed by ppl sitting on wheelchairs... i remember when i was in primary school, i was so afraid to shake my body when doing the dance n now here i am, looking at ppl who have so much joy in them when they dance on wheelchairs... i watch them doing the dance with a smile so wide tat it could reach their ears... the hands which hold the camera was shaking so much i cannot contained it, overwhelmed by the feeling, i cried... again feeling so ashamed of myself... i began to realise, i got a pair of wonderful feet tat i take for granted all these years...

this post is intended to be a pure writing post so tat only those who really wan to read this, read... thank you for your time to read this piece of my heart who goes out to the unsung heroes of Malaysia...

What is my stand??

hav been asking myself this question since the day i start searching for my purpose on this earth... i was so lost tat time, my road ahead so dark i could not see the future, living in fearlessness but only fear the one n only big guy up there... finally i found it... it lies in the words of this song...

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

The Stand

by Hillsong United

album: United We Stand (2006)

SO WHAT IS YOUR STAND???

Welcher Mode-Typ sind Sie?

Und hier ist Ihr Ergebnis:
Sie sind Typ B

DER MIX-TYP
Sie sind flexibel - und je nach Stimmung wechseln Sie auch gern Ihre Outfits: Sie tragen heute Turnschuhe zum Anzug und wenn Ihnen danach ist, ziehen Sie morgen auch noch ein grelles Shirt unter den Blazer. Denn Sie kombinieren einfach gern: edel und sportlich, trendy und klassisch und so weiter Sie haben zwar so Ihre Lieblingsläden, aber wenn Sie dort nichts finden, gehen Sie auch gern auf Entdeckungstour. Genug Selbstbewusstsein haben Sie ja: Sie nehmen sich einfach die Mode-Freiheit, das zu tragen, was Ihnen gefällt und worin Sie sich wohlfühlen. UNSER TIPP: Manchmal kann die grenzenlose Freiheit der Modewelt von heute auf morgen unüberschaubar werden - deshalb sollten Sie sich vor jedem Stadtbummel genau überlegen, was in Ihrer Garderobe noch fehlt. Wägen Sie lieber in Ruhe ab, ob Sie das neue Teil wirklich brauchen - so lassen sich Frust- und Spontankäufe vermeiden. Im Zweifeslfall sind Basics wie ein schmal geschnittener Pullover oder ein weisses Hemd die richtigen Stücke, um Ihr Outfit variantenreicher zu machen. Denn: Diese Teile lassen sich super kombinieren. Und das ist ja genau Ihr Ding!

another hahas... aku syok sendiri!! quoted William