Herr Brian Trenaman aka Mr Brian

time really flies n today, we had our last class in INTEC, which is 5-hours-of-non-stop-torturing-german... nontheless, it was a day which no one could forget... Mr Brian had been the most wonderful lecturer we ever had in INTEC... he has been there for us since the first day of our journey of learning a new language, starting from alphabet to numbers, simple greetings to self-introduction... if any lecturer's life can be portrayed in movies, he's the first one i will strongly recommend...(i mean who on earth hav 7 wedding ceremonies wif, of coz, the same woman... haha) his way of teaching is absolutely different from the conventional-malaysian-way, probably due to the fact tat he's not malaysian but a german... but anyway he's the one who brought us up to who we are today, tat wherever we'll be place in Germany, at least i think we will still survive wif our german lah... (can ask where the toilet is n the direction enough liaw ) thanks so much for ur efforts in teaching a bunch of morons wif no basics at all in german to our kindergarten standard of german today... wir vermissen dich sehr!!! (i think it means - we'll really miss u!)

The happy birthday boy...
He actually treated both of his classes to a buffet lunch in a room juz beside his office... n its not juz any ciplak food he provided but wif chicken rice n oh-chio (a type of really nice fish which i dunno its name)

it says there, Herr Trenaman, viel Glück zum Geburtstag

The happy birthday boy cutting the surprice cake we bought for him...
the story goes on like this.... ALG10C actually planned a surprise birthday bash for him... we tot of it like 20 minutes before he came to our class so it was basically very last minute... so we wrote sth on the white board, which is supposedly to direct him to the first cubicle in the guy's toilet, n then there's another clue there to direct him to the room we had the surprise birthday cake n stuff... it all went on smooth n well, until apparently there's this guy who went in tat first cubicle inside the toilet n stays inside there for quite a period of time until Mr Brian had to force open the door coz he tot no one is in there... n tat poor guy had the shock of his life i believe, a mat salleh forcing open his toilet door when he is doing his business... but the spy tat we send did a pretty good job by finally directing his way to the surprice room before the candles went off...

Mr Brian is the most generous lecturer too... i really cannot count the times he paid for all his students (yes, ALL) n treat all of us lunch n bowling... he will treat us more if he din get marry half-way... haha... as u can see from the pics, once again he treated us lunch again, n hopefully not the last meal he treated us... haha...

Mr Brian n all the girls... ya... ya... typical ALG, few girls but many guys...

The mighty ducks... quack quack...
How many lecturer actually go ice-skating wif his/her students 4 days before the real exam starts... Mr Brian did... n how cool is tat?

JOYEUX NOËL

I hear the mountain birds
The sound of rivers singing
A song I've often heard
It flows through me now
So clear and so loud
I stand where I am
And forever I'm dreaming of home
I feel so alone, I'm dreaming of home

It's carried in the air
The breeze of early morning
I see the land so fair
My heart opens wide
There's sadness inside
I stand where I am
And forever I'm dreaming of home
I feel so alone, I'm dreaming of home

This is no foreign sky
I see no foreign light
But far away I am
From some peaceful land
I'm longing to stand
A hand in my hand
...forever I'm dreaming of home
I feel so alone, I'm dreaming of home

i'm dreaming of home

it has been a long time since i cry when watching a movie... the last one which i nearly cried is 10000 BC... today in class, we had a choice of watching 2 german movies, 'memento' n 'merry christmas'... at first i don really mind which movie to watch since i won't be able to understand half of the movie oso... n i was really reluctant at first to watch 'merry christmas' coz its a world war 1 movie... however, i m glad i decided to raise up my hand for the movie due to peer pressure... haha... but boy, it was the best movie i watch since a long time n i was really touched after the movie... u all must watch the movie for urself to understand how i feel now... i feel like watching the english version of the movie since i don fully understand the whole movie n i really wanted to know the details instead of an overview of the movie...

the heartwarming movie started off quite disturbingly wif small kids reciting propaganda they've learned in sch since young n ends oso quite disturbingly wif a priest asking ppl to go to war by misquoting some part of the bible, its like watching the christian version of al-Qaeda... i laugh n cry together wif the movie, most of the time trying to figure wat r they talking, i juz could not take my eyes off the screen since the movie started... quite surprising since the movie don't really hav 'cute' actors except for Daniel Brühl, which i only notice after i go imdb to check out the movie...

the movie brings out the real christmas spirit, tat love was born to this world to show himself to this world... it was because of christmas tat the soldiers from 3 trenches came out n reconcile, in the end they simply could not fight each other n hav to be send off to other places... the movie once again show me the true meaning of christmas - love... love who came to this unworthy place n love us... as simple as tat, yet we always tend to complicate stuff...

this movie was very much different from the everyday movie i tend to watch - the hollywood blockbusters... but tell u the truth, this movie is a must watch... highly recommended by me!!!

*by the way, if u r wondering y is the title of this post 'i'm dreaming of home', it is this song tat triggers the reconciliation in the movie... towards the end of the movie, the germans were actually humming this scottish song which they learn from their new frens... a touching n moving moment indeed...

juz a random thought - wat's the point of having war anyway?

终于。。。

终于考完了本学期最后一个德文试卷，好开心哟！虽然这次没什么准备，不过相信神会保守我顺利考过！

考试前一晚才刚为最后一个 CA 领唱，也是本人我第一次上台唱歌，是一各蛮新鲜的体验，虽然歌喉不怎么样，但是的确因为这样，让我真正的体验到依靠上帝行事的感觉，因为本身的缺点，才能让我看到上帝的完美无缺。而就是应为这样，也让我有机会开启自己除了驾福音车的另一项才华，现在渐渐的喜欢上大声地唱敬拜赞美诗歌。

再过两天我亲爱的妈妈就会特地从诗巫飞来看她的宝贝女儿了，好期待哟！尤其是在生了我人生第一次的大病后（害我躺在床上一个礼拜不能吃东西），好不痛苦！好迫不及待等待那一天的到来！妈,快来呀！我要我的干盘面，我的光饼加肉！

twenty four

Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago

Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong

See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I wan to be one today
Centered and true

I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out.

Switchfoot

heard this really nice song sang by Mia Palencia during UFO... it really touches me n hope it touches u as well...

People

'God has been faithful time and again to surround me with people that sharpen me and that make me better.'

TobyMac,

artist of the year,
39th annual Dove Awards.

i totally agree wif the words tat he says... sometimes, i felt God too, put different people around me, especially debaters, who always hav this winning heart when i try to discuss something or sharing my opinion to them, they will juz rebuke me instantly n not think twice about my opinion... sometimes it really discourages me a lot to share my thoughts wif some of my frens because they somehow hav this mindset tat watever they say is correct... couldn't they be a bit more neutral to listen to what others hav to say before making their remark... or could they be patient enough to listen first then comment... sometimes, even sms-es from a fren of mine get on my nerves, whenever i receive his sms, i will be on my toes to read it... i dunno whether i over-react but somehow i felt tat he juz hav to shoots back watever stuff i say to him, even though i really think hard before replying his sms-es... i seriously don't know how to reply his sms next time... i need divine wisdom, desperately...

"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another" Proverbs 27:17

*i'm hoping tat i m juz being over-sensitive...

Routines...

Monday (21/4) - woke up at 7am, preparing myself for yet another week of non-stop-8-to-4-classes... haih... after ironing my baju kurung, i doze off on the couch while waiting for the bathroom... my roommate tried to wake me up after some time later but to no avail, i crawled back to my bed n slept off in my baju kurung... later i woke up, but it was already 9am...

Tuesday (22/4) - woke up n receive a msg from a fren to go for mcd breakfast since both of us got the free sausage mcmuffin coupon... n since today my class ends at1 pm n after tat i will be heading to midvalley to celebrate a very good fren's birthday, it really boost me up to go to sch... (p/s : first day of period so had stomach cramps the whole day)

Wednesday (23/4) - had to drag myself to sch only to find out tat my headache is getting worse, but stil hav to tahan the whole morning... really thankful for considerate lecturers... went to see doctor wif eunice n joanne, the doctor, as well as myself, were shocked to see tat my body temp shoots up to 39 degree celcius... O_O so she asked me to come back to the clinic the next day to hav my blood checked for dengue...

Thursday - finally had the chance to break off my exhausting daily routine... FINALLY i hav one day off legally(wif mc ok?) but wif my headache n body aches, can't really do much but to sleep n sleep n sleep... had my blood taken for blood test, was really relief when doctor called up in the afternoon to tell me tat i din got dengue but a viral fever... phew!!! i tot i wud die!!!

routines - it really worn me out, i tot i can get use to it after nearly 2 years of studying here but instead it got worse... i began to dread going to sch each passing days n even until now... i must learn how to go to class wif a joyous heart n really be thankful i had the chance to study here, even though its 8 to 4 classes everyday... really thank God for wonderful frens around me... I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!

Spring in INTEC...

Since spring is juz around the corner, i think i'll post some photos i took wif my N82... (macamlah i got spring here in malaysia...)

More concerts to come...

Having been to planetshakers concert on sat n sunday evening, i start to search online for the next concerts to come n i found a cool blog tat reports on these concerts in Malaysia...

guess what??? hillsong united n passion(one band wif chris tomlin) will be coming soon!!!

Check them out here...

in the meanwhile, check out their coverage from diff ppl on diff views of the planetshakers concert...

random again...

random updates from me just in case u're interested to know :

1. lately i hav developed this super-human-sense... haha... i can actually sense tat an sms is coming thru n i will hold my handphone in my hand just in time to feel it vibrate... it happened twice this morning, n twice which i suddenly reach out to my hp n ta-dah!!! an sms came, one from my dad to show off his latest sony-touch-screen-phone n one from eunice to ask me go out makan...

2. i'm desperately in need of a mini-vacuum-cleaner... due to the imminent a-levels, my hair dropping rate is higher than usual... it can be said to be proportional to the time left for the first paper... (too much of physics)

to be continued...

I don't want to be...

I don't want to be judgmental.

I really don't want to become like those whom once i dreaded.

By the Stripes, i am healed. Heal from hurts n thorns n prickles.

Life is hard, i juz hav to accept it, n learn how to deal wif it by Grace.

I really want to learn how to be open minded to accept criticism wif an open heart.

mc-ing

had the privilege to become the second-last-CA-for-the-sem mc together wif tim, my fellow coursemate... before tat, both of us (actually me lah...) so semangat go think of things to say for introduction... i actually wanted to do an opening of a musical but since both of us can't really sing, we erm... decide not to do it in the end... haha... so out came tim wif his wonderful idea of telling jokes (quite lame one lor) so he spend the whole lunch hour telling jokes for starting of CA, introduction of speaker n also to end the whole thing...

guess wat? we only managet to carry out 50% of our plans during tat night... some we forgot, some we don dare, n some we don say at all...

to conclude, being mc is not easy at all... u hav to be flexible so as not to break the mood... but it was altogether an interesting experience... sometimes i say things not intended but the outcome was a blast... (perasan... but everyone laughing wat!!!) but some although i prepare, stil i stammered...

but if u ask anyone during tat night wat was the most unforgettable joke we made... it will definitely be the ending joke tim suggested during the very last minute... the ear cancer joke... if anyone wanna noe more, can ask the person who is in charge of the lastest CA blog post to elaborate more... haha

Assumptions...

Lately, i felt that ppl like to make assumptions (including myself) n to interpret what other says (although tat is not really what they mean)

i learn from my mistake... n hope others can too, don't make assumptions on me (sounds wrong, right?) let me put it in a simpler way, don misinterpret wat i mean by the words i say, sometimes i really don mean it but somehow ppl tend to misunderstand me... for example, i remember i told a fren i can't join an activity he organized n he immediately assume tat i don wan to go coz i spend all my money on a handphone... n another fren tot i was being materialistic when i intended to tel ppl to be contented wif their salaries...

life is indeed a learning prozess... haha

3 hours prior to my check in time...

here i'm alone in LCCT McD, determine to write the longest post ever for my blog... i underestimated the speed of KTM, apparently it travel quite fast today, i tot i will only reach KL central after 1 hour, however, it actually reach within half an hour, impressive!!! i shall praise KTM this time, n hopefully it can be tat fast everytime i took it to Midvalley...haha... today marks the first time ever of my life, when i actually took skybus to LCCT instead of the usual-super-friendly-taxi-driver-Encik-Zakaria's-awanza... the journey is absolutely refreshing, maybe partly due to the fact tat i actually encounter some problem wif a couple of my gadgets... first, i cannot listen to my fav songs on the way to LCCT coz my ipod broke down juz hours before i board the bus... i was watching the un-understandable german podcast when all of the sudden it got stuck to only one image... it can't be shut down for watsoever reason n when i plug in to my laptop hoping it can be reformatted but nth happen... my laptop can't detect it!!! sien... then i cannot on my laptop on my way coz i sort of lost my battery (i could hear ppl scolding 'here she goes again, losing things so easily...') okok, before anyone of u even start scolding me, my camera's memory card spoilt... ok, u all can start scolding me liaw... then i got no canggih fon to listen to any songs, coz all i got wif me is my dad's old 3310 n joanne's flip fon... i miss my old handphones lah!!! so on the way on the bus, i start to observe ppl due to my extreme boredness, i hear one man speaking thai/or sth that sounds like it, it was quite funny n i could not stop giggling or guessing what is he trying to say... also, i get the chance to see sceneries of KL along the way, n suddenly, the old idea of the never-acheived KL tour came back to me, i'm so gonna go on a KL tour after i came back, even if no one wants to tag alone... i will juz figure my way around KL city... i also had a good time clearing my minds off things tat hav been bothering me, n it's oso a good time talking to God n thanking him for the quite time tat i finally hav wif Him...

lately there's this hunger inside me to now the Word better... i actually been to 2 bible study this week, which deals wif 2 different topics, both in which i always have doubt in... the book of revelation and the topic of Holy Spirit... in reality, when i do my quiet time, i could not help but to ask question but somehow i always keep them to myself, some if i really cannot stand, i will ask my roommie, while some answers to my questions are revealed slowly thru meditations or sermons or what i've gone through in life or cell groups back home or CG... its good to hav questions, it keeps my hunger going n fire burning... since both the bible study juz started n i only begin to catch of glimpse of this 2 wonderful topics tat hav been so hard to comprehend, i hope i can learn more n hopefully apply it into my life in more studies to come...

then i begin to ponder on relationship... i was talking to a fren Y* E* n i mention some article i read regarding not to share problems with ppl of opposite sex, results is u might fall in love wif each other at the wrong place n wrong time... my fren, who seems reall shocked n said "y u don wan relationship meh??" i too, was dumbfounded, then i realise all this while i've been running away from relationship, or anything to do wif this topic... i oweys tot i was not ready, wat if its i don't want to be ready, ya desperation sometimes seeps in but tat doesn't affect anything... dwelling in the failure of the past relationship also contribute to my deliberate ignorance to it... n i shall continue running... haha

then to the topic of frens, i always tot life is like a vacuum cleaner, indeed it is one but somehow, during the 1 hour ride to LCCT, i realise God actually put interesting ppl in my life to spice up my life... haha... here goes, i've got one fren, who always seem to be the centre of attraction, not because of his looks but because of his charm to make ppl listen to him when he speaks n of coz, not forgetting the sudden botak-ness... another fren of mine, who looks so decent on the outside, talks really good english, but is super into heavy, hard-core black metal music, wears satanic/anti-Christ T-shirt which never fail to giv me the creeps... i've oso got a fren who likes eating so much but at the same time wanting to go on a diet, which never succeed for no obvious reasons... haha... another one of my frens, don eat anything tat has got bones, n suddenly revealed his real self to me, which shocks me deeply but i really appreciate his truthfulness... i oso got many frens, in fact most of my frens here in INTEC who studies 24/7, n i really cannot understand how can they manage it juz as how they cannot understand me... they must be wondering very hard "how on earth can Pat pass her exams?"haha...

then i start to think of the recent J** scholarship interview... to all of u ppl who think being a J** sholarship holder is very prominent, let me tell u... nth is certain in this 'realm', either u hav to work ur butt off to achieve anything u wan to achieve or u juz sit there n waste taxpayers money... and don start telling everyone at the very beginning tat u will be going to places J** is going to send u coz the next thing u know, u might be heading to Timbaktu (no offence to ppl staying there) i think J** shud really consider this, u spend so much money on sending ppl to INTEC to do their pre-U courses n suddenly they don manage to fly, isn't it a waste of money... so to all J** scholars wannabe, think twice before u apply...

i think tat ends my ranting...
will update more when i got home...
*savouring my RM10.25 double cheese burger

A burden not heavier than the cross to bear...

after being convinced by my frens tat my blog is a selat-melaka plus a bit of perasan-ness from myself, i finally sign up for nuffnang ads... after much copying n pasting n clicking for half an hour i manage to put up 2 ads, which somehow juz got there coz i hav no idea wat m i doing too... haha... but anyway, i click on my own ads n *hem *coughs *hem... hem... *i think you shud too* coughs*... and saw this ad on Eden

and saw this

He's able

yup, He sure is... coz i finally got a B for my chemistry!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! NO MORE C!!!!! YIPPEE... (juz imagine me screaming at the top of my lungs n jumping around like a mad guy)

Happy Moments...

If its not for this contest, i wouldn't have try to dig out all my pictures to have a general view of what i did for the past 1 and half years... and surprisingly, life in college seems to be another new step of my life, a new transition into adulthood n independence, living day by day with sufficient grace... so let the journey of my happy moments begins...

Happy moments are when...

...I learn how to fly like Hiro Nakamura...
(oops... Did he know how to fly?)

...I went fishing for the very first time in my entire 20 years of life.
It was so fun that i wish i could do that forever...


...CA is on for every fortnight thursday...


...we manage to finish making a Germany map to decorate our nearly-torn-down classroom...

...we get to celebrate 15 birthdays in a year together with 15 other students in the class...

...we went all the way to Stadium Shah Alam to support our own Malaysian team when they played against Myanmar during the finals of Merdeka Cup... and the happy thing is - Malaysia won!!! (Mexican wave ppl!)






















...Christmas is not about Santa Claus or Rudolf the-red-nose-reindeer but sharing your love to people on the highways n byways...






...I have the chance to visit a longhouse and experience the simple joy of the longhouse folks, especially from the little children...















...studying in the boring study room seems not that boring at all with music blasting right into your ears...

...I get to spend time with my lovely siblings back in Sibu, the land of Kampua, Kompia and loud foochows...

Being happy is not that hard at all, if you can only open your eyes and heart to see and feel wonderful things around you...

random thought...

shud i get myself a Nokia N82 or N95?

dilemma weh... how ah? both got 5gb cam...

WOHIN? - Where to?

Wohin willst du gehen, wenn du die Augen schließt, wohin
Wie weit kannst du sehen, wenn du träumend liegst, in deiner Welt
Wie du sie nennst, wie weit kannst du sehen
Wohin willst du gehen, bevor du wiederkommst und wie weit
Und wer kann verstehen, was den Menschen treibt
Den Mond erhellt, in deiner Welt, wie du sie nennst

Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Ist die Nacht vorbei, wird alles still und beginnt von vorn
Mit derselben Frage - Wohin?

Wohin willst du gehen, beim nächsten Mal, wohin
Wie weit kann man sehen, in dieser Welt, wie man sie kennt
In dieser Welt...

Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Regen fällt - ich suche dich...
Und immer wenn ich an dich denk, verschwindet alles rings um mich
Vom allerersten Sonnenstrahl bis zum letzten Abendlicht
Ist die Nacht vorbei, wird alles still und beginnt von vorn
Mit derselben Frage - Wohin?

heard this super romantic song form the movie 'Die Wolke', a german movie based on the book wif the same title... the movie is about a breakdown of a nuclear plant and 2 teenagers, unfortunately falling in love wif each other during tat time of chaos...

the song reminded me again - where is my next step? where wud i wan to go next? where is the dream tat i had hid behind my head all these years? where m i going to after this?

Mit deselben frage - Wohin? (with the same question, where to?)

Updates...

down wif a flu during the holidays and i suspect it has sth to do wif my anti-cervical-cancer-injection and drinking of too much chicken soup during the holidays... haha... til now, i still suffer from blocked-ears, meaning i m half deaf now and hav to ask ppl to repeat what they say if its too low frequency for me to catch... actually i hav been half guessing wat ppl are saying to me...

had the most normal-than-ever birthday back at my hometown, thanz to those who took the time to msg me, although some of them i had to ask who they are coz i kinda lost all my contacts when i lost both my handphones... so sorry!!! thanz for all the presents and presents to come i believe (esp from my beloved alg 10C peeps!!!)

i notice a similar trend in the presents - most gave me handphones-related items such as hp pouch or hp holder (in fact i got 2 of it)... they knew what i want exactly for my birthday but none gave me 'it'... *hem...cough...cough...hem* haha

thank you everyone for making my birthday a memorable one!!!

Thoughts on fishing... Part 2

i was kind of 'force' to lead a group during youth service, and the topic for the day is loving others... so since i went for the fishy camp, i decided to share sth on loving your friends in the very last minute... to start of, i began wif the question tat put me to awe during the camp,

"So wat is the most important command in the bible?
(so proud of myself for knowing the answer)
Love God or love your neighbours?"

Then all of them giv different answers, some answered, love God and some say love neighbour... then i tel them, its loving your neighbours... then i ask them to go to Galations 5:14... then one girl shrieked, "you mean we don't have to love God??"

"uh-oh... i'm in big trouble..." i think to myself... then she started to shoot me wif all kind of questions like "so u mean its more important to love others than love God lah?" and to the extend of "so i can juz obey my parents to not to come to church because i love my parents"

at tat time, i was so totally unprepared for it and my mind went blank, but glad i hav so many other group members, esp Andrea and Aileen, who were so helpful enough to clarify for me... they keep ensuring her that loving God is in our nature, and therefore we don need ppl telling us to love God and love others is harder because there are ppl who are unlovable... then i giv examples like "do u like ur 娘娘腔niang-niang qiang （meaning 'sissy') classmate?" (i knew secondary sch kids hav this prob) haha... and she immediately fired up and start telling the group how tat 'niang niang qiang' bully her in class... (normal lah) and after some discussion, i shared to them how we shud love ppl, not only those who love us, but also those who do not love us... and i ask them to think of names in which they will give a smile to the next time they see them... as an ending, i told them a bit about the 3 steps on friendship evangelism, to identify, spend time and to share christ's love... and we end wif prayers...

although the group discussion begin wif quite a caos i must say but in the end, it went well (thanks to the most cooperative group members tat i have) i felt tat this is yet another reminder for myself as well, to learn to love others, from the bottom of my heart, and not expecting sth in return...

回家感觉真好！

回家了。。。还以为心情会好一点，可是。。。

唉。。。都是最后一张试卷害的啦，因为它实在是 太。难。了。

想向一下坐在一个超级无敌冷的大礼堂里两个小时也，头脑都给它冻坏了，想也不能想，不管了，先睡一觉再说，反正死也是死，也不差那一点吧！

不过感谢神，总让我熬过了。现在的心情十分的矛盾，一方面开心是因为考完了，另一方面又挡心自己考不好，让父母亲失望。我不可以在拿 C 了，他们人老了，不可以受太大的刺激。哈哈！

回家了，一切都还是一样，一样的简单，一样的房间，一样的床单（我怀疑自从上一次回来后都没换过），就连大选的广告牌都还是那么的简单，不想西马那样旗帜挂满了整街，真让人看了眼花缭乱。这里顶多在交通灯的十字街头上看到几个竖起的广告牌之外，好像没看到什么了也。

回到家不到几个小时里，就给Oliver给叫去选华语诗歌领唱，谁叫我是教会少数不是香蕉人的人。哈哈！不过很高兴，一回到家就有机会侍奉。

回家了，好开心哟！！！！

一群过分的人。。。

一考完试就在我身边绕阿绕，不停地向我炫耀，好过分哦！！！ 等我明天考好最后一张时，你们就知道！！！

如果再让我听到你们去血拼的趣事，你们就完了！！！

我会报仇的，君子报仇，十年不晚。。。

Sibu decides...

more story click here

too bad i can't vote this year... wonder if i can vote for the next election or not?

Chemistry is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Keeps me awake during exams...

Mechanics tomorrow n 3 more days to kompia n kampua...

hmmm... And God said, "Let there be 4 equations..."

*Light is made up from just 4 equations... 2 homogenous, and 2 unhomogenous... When you couple these 4 equations together, you get the waves which produce light...

taken from here...
haha... so funny...

sudden interest in politics...

Foochow clansmen urged to back BN

haha... so proud weh... the country need foochows... i never noe we are tat important... *smirk in sarcasm...

Thoughts on fishing... Part 1

gosh... got so many to share... this is juz one teeny-weeny part of it... will share next time

Many times we thought what we do, what we act like in public, what we think, what we eat, what we read, what music we listen etc etc influence people... we thought we are the 'bait'

However, in actual fact... we juz cast the rods n wait... patiently... wait... patienly... wait... wait... wait... for the fish to come for the bait... we sometimes cast the rod in the wrong place where fishes are rare... so we ourselves hav to go out to where the fishes are n cast down our rods... sometimes, we need to be patient n sit there at one place...

so wat is the most importat thing in fishing??? obviously its the bait...

so who's the bait??? i'll leave you with tat question to ponder about...

i'm back

sometimes juz being who you are n do what you think is right is costly... the price is costly... the price of friendship, trust, appreciation, gratitude... u end up being the most hateful ppl around while other gets the credit and recognition...

for those who understands, a pat on the back, a smile, or even a simple, short but meaningful prayer will do... it will juz make my day...

for those who don't, you will never understand what i did is for a purpose, is for the betterment of all, and i don't want to be an exhibitionist by telling the whole world what i've done, i prefer to keep it to myself n my Most Trusted, to store up treasures in Heaven, not on earth where thief steals n moth destroys...

forgiveness - one valuable yet most forgetful lesson learnt again from my dear roomate...

"But I tell you who hear me; Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. Give to everyone who asks you and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. Do to others as you would have them do to you.
If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners', expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them and lend them without experiencing to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. " Luke 6 : 27-36


i'm back - stronger n with more faith ... for once, i wanted to finish what i once started when i make the most important decision in my life at the age of 16, to finish the race strong...

randomness... a proof to show ppl tat i study!!!

Position vector ra ship A is : (initial position) + (displacement)

When both ship collide, they will have same position at the same time : ra = rb

Position vector of C relative to D is : rc - rd

Distance between two vessels is : I rc - rd I

v=u+at
s=ut+1/2at^2
v^2=u^2+2as
s=1/2(u+v)t

Gradient of the speed-time graph = acceleration of the particle
Area under the graph = distance travelled by the particles

A system of forces acting on a particle is said to be in equilibrium if their resultant is the zero factor.


*plz don spread rumours tat i did not study for my trials this time... i may go out for a movie n some other events but its one form of detressing mah... haha

29-02-2008

i tel myself tat no matter wat happen, must at least blog sth on this day... i mean, when can u blog again on 29th of February? 4 years later... dunno whether i stil even blog or not??? haha... anyway... today is a day of sowing the seed... let the story begins...

i oweys got email from my frens n they will put 'thank you for sowing the seed' instead of the usual 'thanks so much' or 'thanks a million' or sometimes not even a thank you note behind... then when i first see the 'thank you for sowing the seed' i could not understand or identify myself wif it until today... i went out wif 2 of my coursemates for a movie... although its exam time n by right everyone shud study for it but inside me there's this voice tat told me to go... n i obeyed... n i finally noe wat do ppl mean by sowing the seed, sometimes it juz take a mustard seed to grow into a beautiful big tree... i might not be able to see the tree grows, but at least i sowed the seed...

i've learn a lot from the previous camp tat i joined n i found out tat sowing the seed takes time... whether i wan to spend time on sowing n watering the seed tat i plant, its my choice... n i choose to be tat farmer in other ppl's lives...

ok... back to updates:

1. My birthday coming soon n its the big *** years old... dunno whether to be excited or sad coz it will be the last year of my teenage years... (oops... did i juz giv my age away) of coz i hav been planning to buy sth for myself for turning adult this year (although stil cannot vote)it might be either a semi-pro camera or a new handphone or a trip to beijing... ya its all costly n i really don wan to regret what i hav chosen... so pray tat i will hav the wisdom to choose the right thing for myself... of coz others if u wish to giv me anything on my birthday, i don mind... AT ALL... i wud like to hav books, treat me out makan, new handphone or even sponsoring me to go beijing... n the list goes on n on...
2. I m seriously thinking of going to beijing because i sort of wan to noe my own root n culture before i went off to some mat salleh country... i hope it will be my first station my backpack travelling... if anyone interested to go wif me, plz do contact me... accomodation will be provided coz i will be staying at my aunt's place... otherwise i hav to travel there alone... hope to go new york n rome one day... they are currently on top of my to-go-list
3. Currently having trials now n stil surviving... will be going back next week , immediately after the exams... so happy... can't wait for it

tat's all for now

Sth fishy camp

无题

不知道自己可以把心里的不愉快隐藏多久，只希望它快点离我而去，我不想再被它给绑住，每天生活在害怕之中。也非常感谢许多的朋友，在我不开心时，在我身旁开导我，听我说话，给我少许有建立性的劝告。真是谢谢你们，没有你们，我不知道怎样度过这次的难关。只怪我自己，这么小器，别人说个一两句，就无端端生闷气，我觉得自己好无聊哦！也怪我自己，没事找事做，没话找话说，惹上了麻烦，结果自己又跟自己过不去。唉！真是的！

Valentine's day...

this year, i've learn one old thing again... tat man fails, but He will never ever fails u...

"For God so loVed the world,
****That He gAve
******* His onLy
*******BegottEn
********** SoN
*************That whoever
*****Believes In Him
******Should Not perish,
****But have Everlasting life. (John 3:16)
taken from taylorscf

valentine's day is nth but a day of catching up... i've been too far away, busy wif preparations for an event... i always tot i did a lot for it, i've been too proud... since i've been very used to working wif the CA committee, i tend to feel comfortable working wif another group other than CA... but this new experience is totally different than working wif CA... in CA we are all like a family and we had a purpose in mind when we all serve... when working wif ppl outside of CA, i din manage to get out of my comfort zone when working wif CA n i stumble... hard... real hard... being let down by ppl whom u trusted n respected is one thing, not appreciated is another...

the aftermath of this experience make me appreciate ppl around me more n also take criticism in wif an open heart... though it hurts very much...

i need ur prayers ppl, it might take some time for me to be healed completely n only by Him...

Achtung!!!

German week is coming up this weekend from 16th to 18th February, Saturday to Monday. For more information please visit here --> got lotsa stuff, not only regarding German week but also my german lecturer... haha

also, there will be an exhibition going on during German week n we've got food all the way for Germany... yum yum... for more infos, visit here

p/s : i did not get paid to do this... although i really hope to!!!

原来。。。

原来这世界上是有很多在背后默默耕耘的人，不求名利，只求把自己的本分做到最好，让整个组织能顺利的运行。从这些人身上，我学到了许多，从最简单的谦虚说起。从以前到现在，总觉得自己做得最好，从不听别人的劝告。但是经过了这次的磨练，让我大开眼界， 原来主办一项赛事不是那么的简单，是得经过很多人的经手及合作才能顺利地进行。从这些让人敬佩的人身上，我也学到，要事事以大会为主，不要为了一点小事阿，而拖延了许多宝贵的时间。也不要为了一点小事而伤了和气，团队精神最重要。

神啊，请原谅我的无知与自私吧！这可把我身边一起工作的伙伴给苦坏了。

Keep smiling...

It’s one of the best advertisements for God… it makes people wonder what you’ve got…


another reminder for myself

what patricia means???

What Patricia Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

infatuation

can't believe i was caught in this... i really hav to calm myself down n be still to listen to the inner voice inside me... some ppl might call it 'love' but all this is a bit too rushy...

gosh, being 20 this year really freaks me out... i need more wisdom n guidance to deal wif this... this teeny-weeny small fear inside me is developing more n more each day as my 20th birthday is nearing (is there a word like this???) anyway, to put it in a simple way, desperation might be the suitable word for it... must hav obtained this syndrome from my dearest roomate n single frens around me... ehem...

i shall not elaborate more on this... this is meant to be an emo post n it shall remain as one too...

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo

Strength and hope

你是力量，
是我的力量，
无比的力量
触摸我心。

你是盼望，
是我的盼望，
无比的盼望
触摸我心。

在你深厚恩典里，
以你圣名的大能，
你兴起我，
你兴起我。

不息的爱，
比山更坚固，
比海洋更深，
触摸我心。

神啊，你的爱，
触及达到诸天，
你的是信实，
触及至天际。


最近反反复复得听了这首歌好多遍，被它的旋律所吸引，被它的歌词所感动。虽然是一首英文歌曲，却被它的华文歌词打从心底更感动到。

Life

ok... i admit it is kind of hard to write blog in chinese but nevertheless i shall persevere n try my best to improve...

juz a sudden thought on life...

as i grew older, i start to ponder on the purpose of life more n more... then there comes a time when u realise sth very important tat u miss out when u were young (gosh feel so old now)

The bravest juniors i ever met in my life... u guys are the best!!!

however, the worship team for the recent CA who brave through a car accident which fails to take any lives reminded me in one of their songs...

the lyrics on the screen says "i simply live"

i simply live...

Find us faithful

We're pilgrims on the journey
Of the narrow road
And those who've gone before us line the way
Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary
Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses
Let us run the race not only for the prize
But as those who've gone before us
Let us leave to those behind us
The heritage of faithfulness passed on through godly lives

Chorus:
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone
And our children sift though all we've left behind
May the clues that they discover and the memories they uncover
Become the light that leads them to the road we each must find

刚从查经小组回来，感到非常非常地感动和感慨，我的学妹们真是一群既勇敢又诚恳的女生。
现在的我好像看着女儿们长大的妈妈，觉得把所有事情交给他们就放心了，所以就想起这首歌。
歌词说到我们现在所作所为，将会影响到我们的后代，希望学妹们会'find us faithful'
而以耶稣作为榜样，成为人人都看齐的对象，活出基督。从这些学妹们身上学到了许多道理，
从他们的见证里看得到主耶稣基督是他们生命中的唯一的依靠。虽然她们身上都背着许多的
不为人知的负担，但她们没有因此而对上帝为她们安排的未来而感到害怕，迷失自。她们
坚持着诚恳的一颗心，全心全意向着上帝，成为他所喜悦的儿女。感谢神把她们送来这里，
成为这里的一个为你发光的灯塔，照耀了所有人的前程。感谢主！

安静

演唱: 约书亚乐团

藏我在 翅膀阴下
遮盖我 在祢大能手中

当大海翻腾波涛汹涌
我与祢展翅暴风上空
父祢仍做王在洪水中
我要安静知祢是神

我灵安息 在基督里
祢大能 使我安然信靠

我很喜欢这一首歌, 尤其在遇到问题时让我不感到压力.

该开始磨炼我的华语了

最近参与了教会的华语翻译事工，没办法，只好把藏在脑袋里几百年没用到的方块字一个一个的挖出来，搅尽了脑汁，只为了能把牧师的英文讲道翻译好，希望有一天上场时不会怯场。

终于写完了，花了不少时间，比写英文文章多出很多倍时间。可是好开心哟！！！

random

"When we become believers, it's as if we have signed up to be part of God's Army, to be soldiers for Christ,"

Huckabee, 2008

am i being one?

haiz....

got bitten... nuff said...

感谢主让我保佑我的身上的肉。也希望将来这件事不会再重复了。好恐怖哟！

part sanguine n part choleric

did a personality test today wif auntie Michele this morning at auntie Laura's youth centre...

*drum rolls....

turns out tat i m half sanguine, half choleric, nadai melancholy n a little (juz a teeny weeny bit) phlegmatic...

to some of u out there, this might sound total alien so u better stop reading now, turn back n look at other more interesting blog post out there...

this is juz a reminder, or perhaps a warning to myself to the hazardous result if i continue to dwell comfortably in my so-called preferred personality...

As a sanguine, i hav the tendency to look good on the surface, trying to make up n giv excuses for the mistakes i made n maybe even preach a sermon base on my knowledge but not depending on the holy spirit. I can be exaggerating a lot n self-centred as well as saying sth but not doing it.

As a choleric, i can be bossy n always think tat i'm always right. I'm short-tempered n stubborn n always like the idea of being in control. I hav absolutely no patience when it came to dealing wif ppl i don like, which make me a time-bomb.

Through this test, i learn to examine myself n also to noe more about other personality. Most of all, it teaches me to love other ppl UNCONDITIONALLY, no matter which personality they hav, which makes it easier for me to make new frens. Jesus Himself is made up of all 4 personality. He had the story-telling ability like a sanguine, the leadership quality of a choleric, the planning mindset of a melancholy and the worker spirit like the phlegmatic.

It's stil a long way to go for me as i move an to another new year. I hope i can be more melancholy n phlegmatic n less of sanguine n choleric. Hope one day i can hav all 4 personality. Tat will be so cool. Tat way, i can make more frens then.

Things to thank for n things to look forward to

Grace. Thank God for Air-asia. By God’s grace, I had the chance to train my patience when the flights are delayed.

Grace. Thank God for the chance to further my studies overseas. It is actually by God’s grace that I was offered a scholarship though there are so many people around me who are much more worthy of it.

Grace. Thank God for the eye-opening experience. By God’s grace, I was exposed to things of this country that I feel I can make a difference to it.

Grace. Thank God for a good CF. By God’s grace, I was called to be a committee in my school’s underground CF which I learn so much through serving in the transportation and cell group ministry.

Grace. Thank God for NOT answering my prayers. By God’s grace, some of my prayers were not answered the way I wanted them to be. God always has His timing and His plan and timing for us is always the best.

Grace. Thank God for a good church. By God’s grace I was introduced to a good pastor in Sibu when I needed to find a church here. I really learn a lot and grow more mature spiritually in the church which I am now attending.

Grace. Thank God for being there during trials and difficulties. By God’s grace I was able to stand up once again when exam papers were handed down and when I was just so disappointed on myself for not performing well.

Grace. Thank God for great new friends. By God’s grace, He sends me friends that really encourage and show me the way of living out good Christian life. I can always consult them either in my studies or even scriptures I don’t quite understand.

Grace. Last but not least, thank God for the Grace that died on the cross for my sins.

Grace. Tat's all i wan to thank for 2007.

====================================================================

Eileen called this morning n i was sooooo touched by it. I was so happy to learn tat she is having the time of her life at Ps. Ha's house right now. We chatted for a few minutes n she had to lower down her voice so tat she won't disturb Ps. Ha's sleep. During one of the conversation, she asked

"So wat are ur new year resolutions?"

Too shocked by her sudden question, i stammered n answer

"Ehh... maybe make more new frens..."

I was surprise by my own answer too. It juz came out of my mouth like it is the most natural answer one can think of. It is like asking ppl whether they are eating Kampua at the coffee shop every morning in Sibu. It is like asking ppl whether they are having their dinner when they see a family at a restaurant. (typical Sibu-an behavior)

"Xia kampua ah? Xia ba ba oh!" (Eating kampua is it? Eat more!)
"Xia man ah? Xia ba li giang oh!" (Having dinner is it? Must eat more!)


2 of the most common ,ways to start a conversation in Sibu. Although u see ppl eating kampua, its consider normal to ask whether he or she are having kampua or not. Strange as it may seem, its normal here.

Back to the topic. I guess my new year resolution is erm... make more new frens... alright then... its make more new frens then... the others... lazy to think... its not like i'll keep them anyway... better think of only 1 n then keep it...

So strangers out there!!! Here i come to make frens wif u all.....

huahuahuahua... *evil laugh