Friday, January 28, 2011


i remember when i was in primary sch, i went for art classes at one of the shoplots in sibu behind Hong Leong bank... and during tat time there's no handphone yet so after each class i wud go to the nearest bookstore while waiting for my parents to fetch me... n i just loved the stationery section n wud always look at the rulers, ballpens, pencil box (remember the metal ones which we all loved) n sth that never fails to catch my eyes is the very expensive mechanical pencil...

fast forward to present times, i juz received a parcel from home n it includes a THE ultimate mechanical pencil... it's a dream come true! thank you mum and dad!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Racing with the mountains...

Lately everyone around me has been in a negative mood, mainly due to exams. I sense a call, to make this world palatable while not losing my saltiness, to be in the world but not of the world. How can i benefit the world if i am like the world?

I might be racing with the mountains, but i have the advantage, i can move while the mountains only stay still.

Create in me a clean heart, O God; 
and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from thy presence;
and take not thy holy spirit from me.
Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation;
and uphold me [with thy]free spirit.
[Then] will I teach transgressors thy ways;
and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
Deliver me from bloodguiltiness,
O God, thou God of my salvation:
[and] my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
O Lord, open thou my lips;
and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thursday, January 06, 2011


my holidays are slowly coming to an end... the thing i really enjoy most during the holidays is the skype calls wif my family (thanks to my frens i got a new webcam now!)

throughout the different calls i hav wif family, not all are good news... a cousin of mine juz pass away and it really saddens me when i call my aunt who still grieved the lost of her son... until now i still cannot accept the fact tat someone can juz leave us anytime without us realising it... my mum asks me to call my aunt and i m glad tat i did call her despite the fear inside me of not knowing wat to say to her... but the best thing i can do now is to be a listener and to pray for her... i've always thought that i am still consider to be young at this age to experience such things... yet another family member departing reminds me tat nth is too young or too early to happen...

Auntie Margaret, plz stay strong! i believe ah kok is now free from sufferings and is looking over u... to cousin Devano bin Hasbi, otherwise known as ah kok gor gor - Al Fatihah...

*it's a sad sad sad new year for me...