Sunday, December 27, 2009
so the next few days i m going to evaluate myself on the past year n also to pray n uphold my 2010 into the hands of the Lord...
hmm... time for resolutions...
bye n til next year... haha
Friday, December 25, 2009
christmas is a complete different experience this year... no christmas skit, no christmas service, no christmas longhouse visit, no christmas procession,n most importantly no christmas presents give-away in the flood... haha
and not forgetting the skype calls wif the family... a lot of things have happened during the past months n i believe it's going to bring us closer each time...
last but not least, let me present u wif a cute christmas song...
What would Christmas be like by Mia Rose
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
anyway, i shud find myself sth to do or else my mind will be wandering away towards the negative side...
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
"Don't worry about me, everything's fine...
It might be when i really want to share my problems, i always thought that you might not be interested or you just ask the question 'how r u?' as a greeting...
i wish i can really tel someone bout wat i m going through now... anyone?
Monday, December 07, 2009
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i believe in your complete healing zira! be strong ok?
Monday, November 09, 2009
juz wanna update u all about a senior who is very sick and hospitalized... her conditions are quite unstable, u see her walking to class then lying in bed the next minute... plz do remember her in your prayers...
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
it happens like this - i was soooooo bored in class today because i can't understand a thing... *will tel u bout tat in my other posts, if there's any... therefore, together wif my housemate aka classmate, Miss L, we decided to list down a few things which we, personally found it important and decided to share wif ppl out there who somehow read this accidentally or purposefully...
1. More food stuff than clothes... trust me, ur fashion sense will change during the first few months in Germany and soon enough, u will be asking urself, y do u brought them here in the first place - in other words, more reason to SHOP!!!)
2. Stationeries (in other words, everything u needed for studies, juz to name a few, eg calculator, pens, the 3 diff size of mechanical pencils from GMI etc etc...)
3. Rice cooker - this thing works magic...
4. Medicine for flu and sorethroat - needless to say, the first winter experience for most of us is not exactly the best one...
5. For the religious ppl (like me and miss L) do bring your holy book along because it is not easy to find one in the language u REALLY understand... for muslims, it is also advisable to bring along ur sejadah... n those who manage to settle in Offenburg will of course be provided wif one because i do happen to hav one by accident... haha
6. Accesories - if you do wear them... miss L mentioned tat it is damn expensive here (obviously i don really wear them)
7. I personally don recommend bringing any books because you only hav 25 kg to spare for food and clothes only...
8. If i could turn back the time now, all i will put in my luggage is local spices n seasonings, all sorts of maggi perencah i can find in Giant, bak kut teh, laksa sauce, kompia, kampua, ikan bilis, dried scallops, dried prawns... *my mouth juz watered thinking bout them...
Achtung! edited : (new things added)
9. Bring a LAN cable... ur first 3 weeks of internet connection lies in this thing...
10. Bring extra biometric photos... u might juz need it for emergency purposes...
anyone has anything to add? u r most welcome to!
This makes my day...
Imagine this scenario, it was a cold autumn afternoon and i was leaning on a bicycle stand wif miss L (not miss Loser) while waiting for the bus... suddenly an old man who was sitting inside the bus stop knocked on the glass divider which caught my attention...
immediately the thought that i might be scolded again zapped across my mind because of some bad experience wif old ppl in germany... he beckoned me to him and reluctantly i went up to him, pleading in my mind - please don scold me for leaning on the bicycle stand!
wif both fist reached out, he murmured sth which i cannot understand but nevertheless i think he was trying to ask me to imitate him so i did... i held out my fists and surprisingly, he gripped both my hands and start pulling me - i was having the shock of my life thinking tat he might do sth erm not nice to me... however, he was actually trying to stand up and was asking me to support him... and after a few seconds, he finally managed to stand up using me as a support and gav me the biggest and most sincere smile i've ever seen... he thanked me and in return i gav him my widest smile wif my eyes squinted to a line and wished him a very good day ahead...
so tat's wat i wanna share today and to me, it was such a great honour to be able to help the old man standing up... a great day indeed!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found
Hello my friend
I remember when you were
So alive with your wide eyes
Then the light that you had in your heart was stolen
Now you say that it ain't worth stayin'
You wanna run but you're hesitatin'
I'm talkin' to me
Don't let your lights go down
Don't let your fire burn out
'Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why don't you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found
So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you
Why do we go with the flow
Or take an easier road?
Why are we playin' it safe?
Love came to show us the way
Love is a chance we should take
I'm movin' out of the way
Friday, October 09, 2009
it wud be really really really cool if i can manage to secure a practical place there in the future... wow...
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Friday, September 04, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
juz came back from 2 weeks of german language course and will be heading to frankfurt again for the whole of next week... so don be surprise if u keep seeing the post for another dunno-how-many-years again...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Sie ist nicht verbissen, sie prahlt nicht
und schaut nicht auf andere herab.
Liebe verletzt nicht den Anstand
und sucht nicht den eigenen Vorteil,
sie lässt sich nicht reizen,
sie rechnet das Böse nicht zu,
sie freut sich nicht über die Ungerechtigkeit,
sie freut sich aber an der Wahrheit.
Sie erträgt alles, sie glaubt alles, sie hofft alles, sie duldet alles.
Die Liebe hört niemals auf.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I saw the german version of 1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8 at the back of a wedding invitation and could not recall the english version of it. So i look up for it on the internet and was quite surprise to see the differences between this 2 usage of the language. I've posted both english and german verses here so u can see the difference (if n only if u can understand both, if not, sorry lah... haha)
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
life has been great here, enjoying while suffering at the same time... gone thru ups n downs n i can say i've given my best in everything tat i do, well, not everything... one thing tat i really really really regretted is not being able to socialise wif the locals well, esp wif housemates n classmates... when i first arrived, there's always this gang-ho-ness of telling the world tat ' i can conquer germany!!!!' or 'i will blend in among germans n try not to form a kampung malaysia'... truth is, it is not at all tat easy... first day in class, i tried to step out of my comfort zone n approach someone, a girl sitting next to me n ta-dah, she's the only fren i got for the whole semester... ok, there's this other girl and a fren's fren, so tat makes altogether 3 frens out of 60 student in my class... haih... and even worse, i juz turn down a classmate's invitation to go for a end-of-exam-celebration-party, the last chance in this semester to get to noe other ppl from my class... haih... someone juz throw me a 'loser' hat n i shall gladly wear it now...
studies - so far so good... got nearly all my results already, passed all of them and still waiting for the other 2, shud be able to pass but i hope i can score...
spritually, inner-man or in my case, inner-woman growing stronger but outside-community wise, not so... the original 'gang-ho-ness' of willing to travel so far to church is slowly not sustainable and finding myself slowly not able to accept the church concept here... i miss the big church community back in Malaysia where a lot ppl gather in one place n singing praises out loud...
tat's all folks!
Thursday, July 09, 2009
aren't they beautiful? this is wat happen when ur study table is juz beside a humongous window n besides feel like jumping down from the window itself, u get to see beautiful sunset everyday!
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Friday, July 03, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
i nearly burn down my kitchen weh! but my housemate was there to save the day and his "Kein Problem!" (no big deal) really made my day... shall refrain myself from cooking... -_-
AYA awards is back! plz do check it out here... i was there for the last 2 awards, first time as a spectator n the second time as a volunteer... i was so inspired after the awards n i hope u can experience it the power of a true story too!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
back to the topic, after a whole semester to unintentional attempt to stay invisible in class, i'm actually shock to see how fast time zoomed pass me n suddenly it's nearly the end of my first uni semester here in Hochschule Offenburg... meaning fast approaching the end-of-sem-exams too... been studying hard this time, hoping to at least pass wif slightly better results than other ppl... and during this period of pre-exam time, i've seen some really weird things going on in class... to cut the story short, we Malaysians are seriously trained to go for exam whereas germans, they don't... one really interesting thing is tat one of my classmate manage to get hold of some leaked questions online n he showed it to the lecturer... needless to say, the lecturer throw a huge tantrum and threatened to have 80 exam questions tat need to be finished in 90 minutes... after hearing tat, i feel like throwing him into the river n feed the poor fishes... but then again, i really prefer to hav objective question instead of subjective, so somehow one way or another, it is a blessing in disguise... hopefully...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
are you ready to board this train?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
nice n meaningful song... speaks to most ppl at our age, esp me...
Friday, June 05, 2009
imperfect... that's wat we all are... and it really cost a lot to realise and to admit it... however, isn't all these make who we are? yes, although we are all imperfects, we are beautifully imperfect in God's eyes... of course we must strive to be perfect, but then again, who is?
this is a 2 in 1 post... the emo n not so emo post... the upper n bottom post...
ok, i hate to admit it...
the girl from the opposite room, the one to whom i only speak is away for holiday, the one i m not talking to, is around too for whatever reasons he is not staying in his comfortable house... y is he still around?????!!!!!! i seiously do not noe...
spend 3 hours on one technische mechanik question... *bravo... claps claps... pat myself on the back... in the end still hav to refer to the answer online... *another round of applause... thank you thank you... curtsied and walk away...
enuice ding, eve aun, cat chan n qiao hui!!!! faster come loh....
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Monday, June 01, 2009
Er wird deinen Fuß nicht gleiten lassen; und der dich behütet, schläft nicht.
Siehe, der Hüter Israels schläft noch schlummert nicht.
Der Herr behütet dich; der Herr ist dein Schatten über deiner rechten Hand,
daß dich des Tages die Sonne nicht steche, noch der Mond des Nachts.
Der Herr behüte dich vor allem Übel; er behüte deine Seele!
Der Herr behüte deinen Ausgang und Eingang von nun an bis in Ewigkeit!
i realise one thing important, that all this while i tot i was running away from my problems, in fact, i was running away from God...
it's time to turn around, don't stop, and run again... this time at the right direction! :)
Friday, May 29, 2009
(THE FESTIVAL 2009)
29.Mai -1.Juni 2009
(29 May - 1 June 2009)
HOFFNUNG Deutschland (Hope Germany)
4 TAGE HUMORVOLLE LEBENSPLANUNG MIT JESUS HÖCHSTPERSÖNLICH –
4 DAYS OF HUMOUROUS LIFEPLANNING WITH JESUS THE MOST HIGH
DIE IDEEN, (THE IDEA)
DER LEBENSSTIL, (THE LIFESTYLE)
DIE KONSEQUENZEN: (THE CONSEQUENCES)
LAUGH THE LAST ( LAUGH THE BEST)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
can't wait for church camp tmr, to be frank, i hav issues wif myself, issues wif understanding myself or other ppl... i hav issues understanding ppl who do things they noe they shud not do but yet they still do it... i cannot understand them nor put myself in their shoes... i don understand myself too, like y is it a problem to me? y do i hav to go n involve myself in other ppl's matter?
well, maybe it is juz the nature part of me for being so kaypoh (busybody)...
hope i can hav things sort out soon... or else i will be dwelling in this for some more time...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
occationally we will turn it on,
when the housemate is not around (as loud as it can be!),
when we felt that we lack of german listening skill (some german soap opera where real german are being spoken instead of being dubbed),
when we miss listening to english so much (oweys n forever mtv, bbc n cnn),
when we feel like annoying the housemate. ^_^
aaaand baked chicken wings, taste so much like mum's...
Thursday, May 14, 2009
well folks, after i-forgot-how-many-months of persistance n endurance, i failed miserably n decided once again, i shall cut short my hair... i cannot stand the endless eye-piercing strands that covers my eyes all the time... there you go, da fringe is back... ladies n gentlement...
Monday, May 11, 2009
i can't believe one year have passed since a-levels last year... it seems like yesterday when my housemate n i climbed over the fence in the middle of the night in akasia just to watch euro cup matches at mcd in shah alam during tat time... and right now i m in germany, struggling everyday to overcome all sorts of barriers (language, food, socialising etc..) and getting use to new things here (cycling/driving on the right side of the road etc)
now i've reach the phase where everyday is a routine, waking up in the morning, go to class, come back, eat lunch, skype with frens n family, ebaying, watch mtv (coz it's the only thing i understand) dinner, surf internet, read bible, turn off lights n sleep from monday to thursday, then friday, saturday n sunday i spend most of my time lepak at senior's place, do some random travelling wif my housemate, church n the cycle repeat itself... i guess this might be the so call 'settling down' which i was hoping to be since day one... and it is normal to me that everytime i go out, i hear ppl speaking german n realise i , too, speak german, eg ordering food, buying chicken n beef from the turkey shop, talking to classmate (singular) all this suddenly seems so - normal...
ok, enough of this, juz post this for the sake of updating... will see wat i shall post next time!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
haha... names are not shown to protect the pricacy of the ppl involved...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
now you might be wondering y this post is all words til now... n u might think that they might be photos posted up real soon... no, u r wrong!!!
because being a smarty pant *as always, i forgot to bring my camera!!!!!!!!!!!! n to make things worse, i even forgot to bring my handphone... seriously i feel like jumping down to every river tat i pass by n freeze myself to death or jump down from every slope tat i climb or knock my head agains all the beautiful trees... haih...
Saturday, April 18, 2009
p/s : it is juz 30 mins away from Offenburg...
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 09, 2009
although i might not be religious on the outside and i do not fast during lent, one thing i know... that thousands of years ago, love came n conquer sin, tat all who believe shall not perish n live eternally...
click here if u r wan to know wat easter means to me...
anyway, one question here... is easter meant to be celebrated? got ppl die wat... can celebrate meh? haha... typical chinese thinking...
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Friday, April 03, 2009
tat is a question i found really hard to answer sometimes when ppl keep asking me over n over again... the problem is, it is really hard to see my unhappiness wif all the facebook pics circulating around... even during cny, when there r relatives visiting my house, my siblings will automatically click onto my facebook profile n show them my pics...(i famous mah, so ppl will ask about me naturally... ahaha) and of course, all the pics will depict happiness in a more visual way, which is more impacting... usually, the reaction wud be like "wah, so fun there, visit mercedes benz museum, go munich drink beer n eat pork leg, wah so nice..." of couse it wud be nice when u were treated like kings (queens) with all ur needs being taken care of... but that is only the first month, i repeat FIRST month ONLY in germany, then slowly n gradually, the excitement fades n confusion starts to seep in...
i wud be really n truly happy if -
i can understand whatever my lecturer taught in class
my lecturer can understand the questions that i try to ask in class
my classmates start talking to me
i dare to step out of my comfort zone
i manage to overcome the fear of both my german guy housemates
i can express myself freely without worrying bout vocabs n grammar mistakes
my allowance comes in april instead of may
those, u can't see in my facebook pics...
p/s : i lost count of how many times i edited this post... yer... so many grammar mistakes... it is bad enough wif my german, now my english... sigh
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
kesian rumah nih!
if this were my bicycle, i will cry!
the arson din manage to burn the paper bin of my hostel... but there's traces of burned papers... he/she even laid out the papers evenly so tat he/she can burn it...
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Gossip girl here welcomes you to the new life of shah alam elites in Germany. When the shah alamites flew to Germany to study, means I have a lot of catching up to do. Word is, with everyone in different places, Gossip girl never fails to bring you the latest happening around south Germany.
They say, love surpasses everything, even time n space. One thing about being in a land so far away from home, it brings 2 ppl closer together. Pop quiz, who are they?
Just a lil hint. Greed n black. Looks like L is not lonely n homesick anymore in Germany. When fate throw 2 lovers together, it simply works in the most unexpected or expected way. Signing off.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
1. everyone in class seems to noe wat r those shiny little things shown on the pics above...
2. und? (and?) is like a secret questions among germans... the first thing they see each other every morning is asking this secret question, n the conversation goes on for hours....
3. everyone in germany seems to hav to same handwriting... (since they r all unreadable, so i assume tat they're the same)
4. germany's exam pad is in brackets instead of lines...
5. be very very careful when u took a train in germany... they actually seperate halfway n go different places...
to be continue... (hopefully)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
one of the things offenburg offers is the sunshine, which germany really lacks of... but do not equal it with heat, u will still feel cold into the bones irregardless of the brightness outside... this misapprehension leads to less layer of clothes u wear every morning when u r deciding wat to wear to class...