Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Dear blog,

its stil the same. nth changes here. its miserable enuf to see my mum being oppressed again and again. there's nth i can do but to console and encourage her. i noe she endure all these because of us, whom she is so proud of. slowly, she became accustomed to the the tyrannization and eventually swallow all the agony, pain, anguish, torment, sorrow, adversity, grief all by herself. i dunno how long can she withstand the pressure and burden loaded on her since she get married into this family? i remembered she always say this "i m not only marrying ur dad, but to his parents, sisters, dogs, cats, and even chickens." all this years she manage to progress on fairly good despite all the tantrums and temper threw on her, sometimes without any purpose at all or juz a meer intention of threaten. its sad to see her not being regconized as a family member. she has always been strong and determined all these years but lately her faith in this family started to tremble and wobble. i felt useless in this situation. i used to be rebellious and immature enough to go against her. but she din give up hope on me and continue to endure everything for the best of this family. but when she was accused of trying to con the family's properties lately, this pushes her limits. never in her life has she tried to do such immoral and unethical act. the feeling of uselessness flooded me again, i can't do anything to help her. i noe its hard to be wrongly accused and she had to cope with it unassisted and single-handedly but what more can i do? one is my own mother who had me in her womb for 10 months and bring me up to be a well-to-do person and the other is my paternal relatives...

Mum, do stay strong, don't be discouraged or disheartened ... i noe its hard for u for the time being but i believe u can do it by God's grace and mercy... God, i pray tat You grant my mum the ability to endure, a steadfast heart tat persists and the strong will to move on with life. i noe You love her so much because all these years she had been a strong-willed lady of Your image. i believe tat all the treasures she saved in the heaven will be sufficient forever and everlasting. plz continue to lighten the hope inside her because You are her only hope now...

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Yay!!!! Finally back home and growing fatter...

The journey back home was really a hectic one... i tot i was ready enuf coz the day before i started packing already... but on friday, when i try to zip my luggage, guess wat happen??? my poor zip burst open and i hav to transfer all my stuff to a frail and worn out box... i was frantic at tat time coz the taxi will be arriving in 30 minutes, so i hav to cram all my suff into tat box and tied the box forcefully wif some nilon string i found around the corner, it took me about nearly 30 minutes and after tat i hav to carry the 15kg box 4 floors down and all the way to the bus stop... and tat inconsiderate taxi driver wouldn't even try to help me carry it to his taxi... where got ppl like this de??? be more helpful lah, i pay money u noe??? anyway, after tat the rest goes on smoothly until i arrive safe and sound in Sibu... ahhh, the tantalizing aroma of Sibu juz stir my heart once i arrive at the airport... HOME SWEET HOME!!!!

HAHA... when u tot all the trouble is over, guess wat... on the way, i din notice tat my water bottle was leaking and so when i reach home, i found out tat my bag was wet and all the things inside the bag are soaked... which includes my RM102 stufen (my german textbook which is only 100 pages)... haih... sakit hati!!!! plus all my german notes, dictionary, reference book... drench and wet through all over and even worse, all the ink started to fade away... poor me... so much for my journey back home...

ok... as soon as i step into my father's unser (which i found out from my german lecturer tat it means 'ours' in german... haha) , i went to the ever so familiar Taman Muhibbah... there i ate 5 bulky satay, a plate of dry wantan, plus a plate of sizzling hot cha mee... so altogether add up 1kg to my weight on the first day... then the second day, from morning to night, i ate non-stop... so there goes another 1kg... ARGHHHH!!!! if this continues, then i will be 7kg heavier since i came back... but i juz cannot resist the temptation of the food here lah..... HELP ME!!!!!!

bye for now and be ready to see a chubby me in one week time...


Monday, August 14, 2006

~Ja, bitte?
~Ah, das Schnitzler Cafe? Mein Lieblingsplatz. Das Cafe ist in der nahe des Bahnhofs.
~Gehen Sie die Augustinerstrasse geradeaus. Dann gehen Sie links in die Wipplingerstrasse. Rechts liegt der Bahnhof und direkt gegenuber ist das Schnitzler Cafe.
~Bitte sehr. Kein Problem.

har har har.... Tat's my only 4 lines in the German Sketch i m taking part in on Wednesday(16/8/2006) and guess wat???? i keep fogetting my lines, even though its only 4 simple and effortless lines!!!! its not tat i m brainless or stupid, so juz let me explain... i can memorize my fren's script from top to bottom and from left to right, and right to left... but i juz can't remember my own lines... i dunno y???? maybe its because i keep listening to them saying them over and over again and i m lazy in memorizing my own lines... serve me good for being half hearted for this sketch but now i promise i will memorise it and do my best on the day of the competition... until now, i stil felt funny how some ppl can join the sktech even though they learn the language for only 1 and a half month... i noe i couldn't do it all by myself... someone must hav helped me and i believe tat tat someone is no other ppl but God himself... so i promise to make God proud of me by doing my very best in this competition and hopefully win it!!!

tat's all from me for the time being...
tschuess...

Friday, August 11, 2006

German Speech Contest (16/8/2006)

With only 1 month of learning and exposure to the German language, here i m so thick-faced enuf to join a German sketch for the german speech contest... haha
EVERYTHING juz came out so smooth and frictionless (too much of physics)... the script, the acting, the rehearsals and the pronunciation etc etc... UNTIL someone from my group doesn't wan to cooperate... sometimes i juz feel like slapping him on the face (God, plz help me...) i mean this is teamwork, how can he assume tat we all go according to his ways... if u don like to act, FINE... then don't act!!! Let other ppl do it!!! how can he expect tat ppl DON'T look at him when he act, and he even say tat HE felt stupid and idiotic when he act... waliu eh... where got ppl like this one!!!! ARGH!!!! so u are a debator b4... so wat??? i m not a debator n yet i stil learn to act!!! and he can't even stand ppl looking at him when he is talking!!! when u were a debating on stage before, do u say : " entshuldigung, would u guys mind to close ur eyes because i can't speak/act when there are eyes looking at me..." ceh...

*speechless at the moment!!!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

horray!!! 2 more weeks to go and i will be back home!!!! its true tat 'home is where the heart is...' after going through 5 weeks of staying alone outside, i think i m more independent than i used to be... i m no more the girl who rely on others to do things, although sometimes i tend to be dependent on others but only ein bisschen (a bit) now... LOLz
time is passing by fast and swift without u knowing it... until now, i stil couldn't believe that i can survive out here for 5 weeks without my mum... i juz felt like the registration day is some days before and i din expect tat it will pass by this fast... now tat i m all settle down and starting a new life here wif new friends, new roomates, new sch, new classmates, new lecturers etc, i want to be a more improved and better person than i used to be so that i can make a difference and be an impact to the society....

i noe sth wrong wif me today... i really hav nth to say but this is all from my heart
tat's all from me this time...
HOME SWEET HOME

horray!!! 2 more weeks to go and i will be back home!!!! its true tat 'home is where the heart is...' after going through 5 weeks of staying alone outside, i think i m more independent than i used to be... i m no more the girl who rely on others to do things, although sometimes i tend to be dependent on others but only ein bisschen (a bit) now... LOLz
time is passing by fast and swift without u knowing it... until now, i stil couldn't believe that i can survive out here for 5 weeks without my mum... i juz felt like the registration day is some days before and i din expect tat it will pass by this fast... now tat i m all settle down and starting a new life here wif new friends, new roomates, new sch, new classmates, new lecturers etc, i want to be a more improved and better person than i used to be so that i can make a difference and be an impact to the society....

i noe sth wrong wif me today... i really hav nth to say but this is all from my heart
tat's all from me this time...

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Freaking sick !!!! The devastation of longan...

anyone of u know wat happen if u buy 1kg of Longan (mata kuching) and ate all of them in 1 hour time.... the answer will be difinitely sorethroat for at least 3 days... those 3 days were the most miserable day in my life... the worse thing that ever happen to me --> i lost my voice for 3 days... imagine the most talkative girl on earth cannot utter a full sentence at one time, haih... its juz too hard for me to bear... anyway, i did go to the doctor (its free so i went, otherwise u think i m so free to go see doctor ah) but lucky me tat for 3 days i don need to answer any question bombarded by the German lecturer everytime he came to class... muahahaha... such a priviledge for being sick...

Anyway, thank God that now i m well and stil alive and kicking... God really had his healing hand upon me coz after 3 days, my voice is back to normal and is as talkative as usual
all glory to God... Amen!!!