Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Dear blog,

its stil the same. nth changes here. its miserable enuf to see my mum being oppressed again and again. there's nth i can do but to console and encourage her. i noe she endure all these because of us, whom she is so proud of. slowly, she became accustomed to the the tyrannization and eventually swallow all the agony, pain, anguish, torment, sorrow, adversity, grief all by herself. i dunno how long can she withstand the pressure and burden loaded on her since she get married into this family? i remembered she always say this "i m not only marrying ur dad, but to his parents, sisters, dogs, cats, and even chickens." all this years she manage to progress on fairly good despite all the tantrums and temper threw on her, sometimes without any purpose at all or juz a meer intention of threaten. its sad to see her not being regconized as a family member. she has always been strong and determined all these years but lately her faith in this family started to tremble and wobble. i felt useless in this situation. i used to be rebellious and immature enough to go against her. but she din give up hope on me and continue to endure everything for the best of this family. but when she was accused of trying to con the family's properties lately, this pushes her limits. never in her life has she tried to do such immoral and unethical act. the feeling of uselessness flooded me again, i can't do anything to help her. i noe its hard to be wrongly accused and she had to cope with it unassisted and single-handedly but what more can i do? one is my own mother who had me in her womb for 10 months and bring me up to be a well-to-do person and the other is my paternal relatives...

Mum, do stay strong, don't be discouraged or disheartened ... i noe its hard for u for the time being but i believe u can do it by God's grace and mercy... God, i pray tat You grant my mum the ability to endure, a steadfast heart tat persists and the strong will to move on with life. i noe You love her so much because all these years she had been a strong-willed lady of Your image. i believe tat all the treasures she saved in the heaven will be sufficient forever and everlasting. plz continue to lighten the hope inside her because You are her only hope now...

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